Chapter 20

"You did it didn't you" l asked him as soon as he entered our room. His eyes acknowledge what l said and that said it all. "It was my mistake though, l was under the impression that you loved Ali but you loved her because she wasn't mine" l shook my head.

"l don't have the faintest idea about what you're talking about "he said removing his suit jacket and removing his tie. "You had me fooled Alexander, you had me fooled for all these years but now the curtain has been pulled "l smiled cruelly. He moved closer to me and pulled me by my neck squeezing tightly and l smiled harder.

"Funny that you think that you now have a choice "he said moving away from me and l coughed holding my neck. "Firstly l held Ali and Liam's lives over you because they were young, then l held Ali's affection and love for me and now l have a bigger tool. Both of them killed somebody and l have proof and better yet their confession so l am sorry love you and l are stuck for life" he kissed me roughly while l thrashed in his embrace.

"You won't win this time Alexander because this time you have given me a bigger motive. l might not have a chance with Ali because you turned her against me but Eliana is a part of me and nothing you say or do will change that" l said to him. Alexander Parker was done playing me. l was done with his threats and this time he was in for one hell of a fight.

"How could you Alex, you snatched my daughter from me, you didn't even spare an innocent baby in your mindless jealousy." l snarled at him.

"She is not innocent rather she and Liam are a constant reminder of my brother, they are a constant reminder of something l could never have. They remind me that my brother had everything that l wanted while l was made to watch on the sidelines. They remind me that he had you first and l hate it, l hate them. l tried though. l tried to love Liam but l couldn't and so l decided that this one had to go. Ali is different though, she is ours though not by blood but we both love her." He said and he didn't even look even a bit remorseful.

"You're sick" l said slapping him. "Sick you say" he asked touching his cheek with a smile. "You are starting to regain your fighting spirit aren't you love but don't worry after another 19 years you'll be back to being my docile and submissive wife." He taunted me and entered the bathroom leaving me fuming.

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My story with Alexander dates back to our childhood. Our father's were in the same line if business so we grew up in the same social circle. I fell in love with his brother though. It was love at first sight. Xander and his brother Xavier were identical twins, so similar and yet so different. They were raised by a hard father so they learned to be tough, Xander was playful though but Alejandro was cold rude and mean but I guess that's what attracted me to him.

Our love is defined as one of an angel and a devil but we loved each other nonetheless. Because of what we felt for each other our parents decided that our marriage would be arranged and it didn't bother me one bit because I was arranged to marry the love of my life. I considered Xander a friend because he and the love of my life are twins but I guess that's not what he thought of me. When I look back in time I know there are a lot of things that I should've seen that I ignored, there was so many signs but but me and Xavier didn't notice.

I remember our wedding day like it was yesterday. I remember the smile on my face, I remember the way Xavier looked at me. Right after our wedding I gave birth to our twins Luca and Lucianna, they didn't look specifically like any one of us but you could tell that they were ours. We both loved our kids, they meant the world to the both of us. Three years after them a gift but to Liam my sweet boy copy of his father. l was pregnant when l left. Xander changed our identities and also his name and surname but turns out that's not the only thing he changed.

When I turn back in time I will create a lot of things. I regret no trusting my husband enough to tell him that I was being blackmailed because I know Xavier would've stopped Xander but I was a coward and I risked the lives of the two kids that I took with me, because of my own stupidity that I couldn't raise me biological daughter. I hate Alexander for what he did but a part of me is grateful that Eliana grew up with parents that loved and cared for her. I am grateful because I know that had she grown up here. Alexander would have seen her as a constant reminder of a her father just like he sees Liam.

Liam left this place because he couldn't deal with being treated the way he was and as heartbroken as I was when he left I was grateful because it meant that like I wouldn't constantly worry about how he was and how he was treated. It doesn't matter that he looks like Xander as well , to him Liam just looks like Xavier. Fate is so cruel because the kids that he took with me are copies of him and his brother.

My mind isn't here most of the time. My mind wanders to the children l left behind. Yes it was to protect them but l still left them none the less. l wonder if they hate me. l wonder if they are safe and alive because l haven't had the courage to look them up. l wouldn't bear to see how they look like and hold myself back from going to them.