Chapter 76 She hates me now

Chapter 76 She hates me now
KELVIN'S POV
I was in excruciating pain, she shot me twice on my leg and once on my shoulder. If she was as evil as I am she would've killed me. I don't know how I'm feeling but I know I hate myself.
I hate how things turned out.
It wasn't the plan at all. I guess I took decisions thinking it will help me but it only made things worse. I don't know where I stand in her life now but I know she will choose that baby over me.
How did it happen though? How did she get pregnant?
I was telling the truth when I said I don't want that baby, I don't want any child.
A child that I will never be able to see? What kind of a father will I even be when I'm just blind? I don't want any child mostly because it is highly possible that, that baby will be blind. I do not wish blindness even on my greatest enemy, how much more will it be when my own child is blind. I do not want this life on my child.
There were loud noises, I knew my father has arrived.
"Father, please do not do anything stupid," Mike pleaded.
"Mike, you tell me what to do and what not to do now?" Father challenged.
"No, Father," Mike replied.
"Now? You see yourself as a grown up? Your balls have grown, huh?" Gagashe (Father) scoffed.
He kept quiet and my father barged in my room. I think my door broke.
"Did I birth idiots only?"
We remained silent and I could feel he was standing over me. I screamed as he pressed onto my wound. It was bleeding and he was squeezing it.
"I'm sorry, Father!" I screamed.
"You shouldn't be apologizing to me. You did not harm me in any way but you have embarrassed me. You are a disgrace. What rubbish is this you're doing, boy?" Father roared.
I didn't respond but just took the pain as it came. He didn't stop pressing into my wounds. He was even using my rod to press onto the one on my leg. I'm sure these sheets are full of my blood.
"Stand up, boy," Father commanded.
What the?
How does he expect me to stand up when I'm in so much pain? I can barely even walk properly.
Mike helped me up but he received a hotslap.
"Were you helping him when he was busy on top of that girl? Were you helping him when he poisoned the poor girl?" Father demanded of Mike.
"No, Father," Mike whispered.
"Now why are you helping him now? Stand up on your own, boy, you're a man now, right?" Father pressed.
I stood up and followed his scent, it was painful but I had to be strong and don't fall, I know if I fall he will hit me. He kept on walking around the house on purpose, he knows I'm in pain and this is punishment. He wants me to fall so he can hit me.
"I see you are still standing," Father observed.
"Yes I am, Father," I confirmed.
"Sit down," Father commanded.
I sat down at last. Mike was somewhere next to me, so was Keith and Leon.
"Now tell me, what were you thinking?" Father demanded.
"I wasn't thinking, it was selfish of me and I did it for my own reasons," I admitted.
"What are those stupid reasons?" Father challenged.
"I don't want a child. I don't want to have a child which I will not see ever in my life. It's hard now that I have a woman I love but I'll never be able to see, how much more will it hurt when there's a baby involved. And there's a high possibility that he will be born blind, I don't want my child to live the life I am living. I don't want my child to feel the pain I am feeling and to keep on having wishes which will never ever happen. Being blind is hard, I don't want my child to go through that," I confessed.
"Did I ever damage your mother's womb?" Father asked.
"No, Father," I replied.
"Did I tell her to get rid of you because there's a possibility that you will be blind?" Father asked.
"No, Father," I replied.
"Did I tell her to get rid of you when you eventually got blind?" Father asked.
"No, Father," I replied.
"Did I abandon you and love you less?" Father asked.
"No. But you are not blind, Father, you do not know how it feels and what I go through everyday. You get to see your wife everyday, when she's beautifully dressed, naked, mad, smiling, laughing and singing, you get to see her everyday. You get to go out publicly with her without worrying about having to have her feed you in public. You get to see your kids, from the day we were born till now, you can see us. I do not and will never be able to. You and I are different and you will not understand how I feel," I argued.
"I hear you, my child. But that doesn't mean that you should do what you did. Did you think about the long term consequences? I'm telling you, young one, you have lost that girl. She will want nothing to do with you and I do not blame her. Womb damage is permanent, not temporary. When she meets someone who loves her more than you do, who wants to have kids, what will she do? She will be seen as less of a woman because of your doings. Young ones, you do not do such things and you most definitely do not take such decisions for your woman," Father lectured.
"Yebo, Father," they replied.
"I wouldn't even blame her if she had killed you," Father stated.
"Father, I'm your son," I protested.
"And what about my grandchild who's life is at risk?" Father countered.
"Now this is what will happen. I will go see Shanty and talk to her. I will advise her to leave you and never look back," Father decreed.
"Father," I pleaded.
"Don't interrupt me while I'm speaking. I will call for a meeting with her family and you will pay for the damages you have caused. You will pay for damaging her womb and making her pregnant. Am I clear?" Father finalized.
"Yes, Father," I conceded.
"I am leaving now," Father announced.
We stood up.
"Father, the greatest," we chanted.
We stood and remained silent for a while.
"He is gone," Leon confirmed.
I sat down and Vusi attended to my wounds.
"Father is too hectic," Vusi commented.
"You can say that again," I agreed.