Chapter 88 I can't help it
“Kael”.
She called after a while as he remained scarily quiet.
“I'm worried Hazel. I'm worried I'll lose you again, I'm worried this isn't going to end well, I'm sorry you won't be able to handle this and will end up getting hurt.
I know how strong you are, but I can't help the feeling, I can't help but feel like something scary is going to happen…”
He was still speaking when she removed her head from his shoulder and looked at him. His eyes looked scared, more scared than anything she had ever seen. She could tell he was very worried.
“I don't want to lose you Hazel, I can't live without you. I…”
“Hey”!
She called as she placed both her hands on each side of his cheeks.
“Nothing is going to happen to me Kael".
She said, looking at him seriously.
“I have you…”
She said with a smile that showed she wasn't joking.
“I'm not scared as long as you're by my side”.
She added but it didn't reduce his fear. Hazel meant the world to him, he was in love with her and asides her being his mate, he knew she was the only woman for him in this life and the next. He couldn't help the feeling of fear that surrounded him.
“I wish I could fight this for you Hazel. If it was possible, I just want to take away all of your pain and relieve you of any kind of trouble”.
Hazel smiled, grateful that she had someone who loved her well enough to take all of the weight off her shoulder but she had come to terms with the fact that the battle was hers to fight and she wasn't going to cower away from it, not ever again.
“Kael”.
She called but he couldn't bring himself to look her in the eyes, not when he was this vulnerable and this scared.
“Look at me… please Kael, look at me”.
She said and he slowly raised his face.
“I need you to trust me Kael. The only way I'll have doubts is if you have doubts in me”.
She said and he looked at her, his eyes filled with tears.
“How about we forget about Rave and everything tonight and just focus on us?
Focus on how we'll build our trust and confidence in each other”?
She asked and he smiled a little before he nodded.
“I guess it's not really a bad idea”.
He said and she nodded.
“My thoughts exactly. Let Rave be in tomorrow, for now, you… no, we are what is most important right now”.
She said and he nodded with a smile.
“Whatever you want”.
She looked at him for a few seconds before she turned, causing him to look at her back.
Kael raised a brow, confused as to what was going on. But soon, she raised her shirt, showing her bare back.
“Can you rub the ointment on my back”?
She asked and he swallowed. The wound was still visibly there, but for some reason, it was arousing. His wolf was fighting to come out and lick the face of her wound.
It wanted to lick her entire back and claim her again but Kael pushed it back. He didn't want to do anything that would add to her pain.
“Kael”?
She called when she noticed he wasn't answering her and that seemed to have brought him out of his imaginations.
He bent towards the drawer and brought out the ointment often placed on wounds laced with wolveebane and he began rubbing it on her wound, making sure it only touched the sides and not the exact spot.
As his hands kept rubbing around the sides, he swallowed. Her soft skin felt like an invitation and he could literally feel his body react to just putting ointment on her back.
Hazel moaned a little from the pain of the wound but Kael swallowed, wondering if she was going it on purpose.
“I had a conversation with Dove when I was unconscious”.
She suddenly spoke, and he closed his eyes, grateful that she said something to distract him.
“How did you do that”?
He asked.
“Well, it turns out the orb… my heart… has been stopping her from having conversations with me.
It severed out link and made her sound silent. She was only able to access me because I was unconscious”.
She explained and Kael nodded.
“Did she say anything”?
He asked and she nodded before she instinctively raised her shirt up even more to give him more space to rub the ointment more and Kael swallowed once more.
It's either she was intentionally trying to provoke him, or she was just torturing him unintentionally. Regardless, he was slowly loosing his restraint especially now that the sides of her breasts were visible.
“I'll need you to be with me when I start training with Zariel. I believe you'll be able to calm me down when I begin losing my mind”.
She said but he said nothing.
“Kael”?
She called but he couldn't speak.
His wolf and demon were at war with him once again, both trying hard to come out and have her.
He didn't want to, he felt she was in pain and all she needed was rest but every part of him disagreed with him, including his own body.
She dropped her shirt and looked at him, noticing he had his eyes closed and was shaking his head a bit like he was contemplating on something.
“Kael, are you okay? What's going on”?
She called but he moved back, trying to stay away from her at least till he put his beasts to rest.
“What's wrong, why can't you look at me? Are you in pain”?
She asked and moved closer, holding his hand.
As soon as her hand touched his, he pushed her to the bed while he hovered above her.
“Kael”.
She called when she saw how red his eyes looked.
“I can't help it Hazel… I need you”.