Chapter seven: she’s just a girl like you.
In the morning I was up as early as possible like I couldn’t wait for the sun to come up and left without doing or saying anything to Nicholas because I knew if I was to start I might end up doing regretful mistake but I left him a note which ready’ “who is miss finest to you ? and who is Jane.” Even when I already knew that miss finest was Nicholas’ new girlfriend and Jane was me an ordinary girl still my heart had not believed it; everything of me was still demanding a confirmation. Soon than I had not reached my place Nicholas’ phone call came through and I knew he had ready the note with my grieving heart I ignored the call and switched my phone off immediately.
At the moment I didn’t know what to believe and what to say and it was very early in the morning when I knocked for my roommate to open and went straight to the bathroom and I cried hell out of me after some time I came out and entered my bed without saying much I warned my roommate not to wake me up where I slept abnormally from 7am to 7pm I was actually waken up by Nicholas who commanded, “dress up we go for dinner we need to talk.”
On dinner I didn’t say much because my heart was still grieving and we were joined by our friend who knew us both so it couldn’t object me from asking Nicholas. I barely had appetite but I pressed my order of a favourate local food as all the rest did press their orders. Nicholas kept starring at me which gave me a motive to start by asking him “who is miss Finest?” where he laughed sarcastically and lowered down his eyes and said “she’s girl like you” and on raising his eyes he was just watching my back walking out of the exit door of the Restaurant. With all the messages I ready he had always had with miss finest it was enough to prove to me I had an opponent to compete with on a man and me having been royal to him it was just unfair.
I had always I felt like I had gained courage to face all that comes in my love relationship way but at this time I felt like my heart was no longer ready to fight for my love relationship because I was just filled up with grievances and Nicholas too had not even me any hope to stay his attitude towards me could just communicate “stay or leave”.
But my heart never stopped beating for Nicholas always questioning myself , wondering and murmuring “I was once a queen to Nicholas” but the pain buried inside me because of love turned me into love monster especially when Nicholas made me feel I was too hunger for his love. I remember the night of Easter day at cafe49 bar and club when miss finest (Alicia) was all into Nicholas’ chat fuming just because of me and Nicholas having been out together the full day with Alicia having no shame she had the audacity to get annoyed of us being together. I just couldn’t stop cursing myself on earth because my heart was subjected to too much wondering why this world couldn’t bring me luck in love but pain.