Chapter six: Considered Nicholas Bosom Buddy.

A lot of moments and memories that Nicholas shared with me that I can’t put on paper because it seemed like I was in the rim of love light equally to a day dream which I wished never to wake up from but time came I wake up

With all that we did and shared I opened up heart to Nicholas freely and fully if it was at a percentage measurement it was 100%, I considered Nicholas bosom buddy besides love I thought we shared friendly relationship with no expectation of the worst things coming between us since I always opened up whenever something was not going right but I was insane to think for Nicholas that he too was that free and open to me in case he in sighted anything wrong which was not the case. For Nicholas was totally different, there more I didn’t realize he was not opening up the more he congested his mind with my mistakes which instigated breaking up and him first lining another girl to me, finally the worst expectations come to pass.

When Nicholas first-lined Alicia. Alicia was the girl Nicholas met when we had simple indifferences between us with the girl crushing on the boy Alicia’s heart was taken by Nicholas’s warm, kind heart and she started to care like she had meet a million-dollar golden box. Be hide my knowledge Nicholas also gave Alicia room to talk and share, communication between them grew like never before with me holding onto My Boyfriend Nicholas hoping indifferences would come to pass and we settle together.

Nicholas changed out of the blue and I never had an ideal on what had happened when I tried to talk about it, I got embarrassed by Nicholas’ Reponses and decided to give Nicholas some space as a sign of self-respect thinking may be Nicholas had personal matters he never wanted us to share. But it got worse so the more I thought through the matters alone an evil idea came to my mind “check his phone” it was not my habit to check my boyfriend’s phone but when Nicholas’s attitude towards me changed I was instigated to find out.

So I raised Nicholas on a phone call letting him know I was sleeping over at his place, so I reached his place and did everything normally and when he went to take a bath I hurried to check through his phone luckily enough he had left it open without a security code but I regretted having checked his phone the findings got me devastated, on Nicholas’ return from the bathroom he could realized I had melted off in minutes but I tried as much as possible to compel up myself remembering my Mums’ lines “ Never let your man look at your tears, it’s a sign of a weak heart” which I kept sighting with in my brain and gained a motivate to keep my eyes dry.

At this time I promised myself I was going to be the strongest that Nicholas ever knew I came up with an excuse that the next day I had an exam to do which I was not informed about and left him in the bedroom kissed him a goodnight however I very well knew he was not going to sleep he was going to chat with his finest girl and I went to the leaving room just pretending read. I didn’t even cry because I knew if I started draining up my eyes I was not going to stop soon and after awhile I rested myself in the chaise lounge I was feeling like my head was too heavy for me to carry and closed my eyes but not asleep.

Around midnight I heard footsteps approaching me and I knew its Nicholas was up to check on me, I pretended like I was deeply asleep as he covered me with a scarf and could feel he was looking at my face as deep inside me I was burning up in pain when he left I couldn’t help but to watch the back of the traitor move gently back to the bedroom.