Chapter 121 Chapter 121: The First Time

Chapter 121 Chapter 121: The First Time
Zadok’s fingers don’t stop as his gaze connects with mine.
The fire behind his eyes is clear as the day. He wants this, and I’m positive nothing will stop us tonight. 
Unless someone barges into this cabin and interrupts us, I’m getting what I’ve wanted for far too long.
It’s a bit hard to think clearly when Zadok is working me up like that, though. I sink my nails into his shoulders, feeling the delicious wave of pleasure gradually taking over me.
My legs tremble, and I shiver when it hits me, so intense and overwhelming that it has me panting and sweating.
Zadok only removes his hand from inside my panties when I have slightly composed myself. 
He watches me as if waiting for me to decide whether I want to continue or not.
It kills me sometimes how much of a gentleman he is. I wonder how he can even think I’d want to stop now.
To answer his silent question, I push him backward until we get close to his bed.
My chest is moving up and down heavily with anticipation. 
His hooded eyes take me in, and without saying anything, I take a step forward, finding the button of his pants. 
Zadok lets me undress him, leaving him only in his boxers. The coil inside me stretches a little more as I assess the bulge under the fabric. 
“Hettie,” he calls me in a deep voice.
I look up with flushed cheeks, realizing I’ve been caught staring. But the serious look on his face tells me he’s not teasing me about it. It’s like he’s reconsidering this whole moment.
“Are you really sure about this? I think I’m right to assume this will be your first time, right?” 
There’s no judgment in his question. Only concern. For me.
“You’re right,” I answer firmly, because there’s nothing to be ashamed of. I never met anyone who made me feel like this was right. Like this was what I wanted.
But with Zadok, it is different. It has always been.
I trust him. And I love him.
“But I want this,” I add softly. “I want you.”
That seems to be enough to convince him. As if possessed by a sudden urge, he tugs me and tosses me on the bed.
It’s not aggressive, but rather hot and sexy, as if he knows exactly what he’s doing. Which, to be honest, he clearly does.
He sits me on the soft mattress, pulling me slightly toward the edge, and kneels between my legs.
My eyes widen a little as I wonder what he’s about to do.
His hands find the hem of my panties, and he slides them down my legs, leaving me naked and completely vulnerable to him. I only have my bra on now, but honestly, he might as well just remove it too.
When the lace fabric of my underwear hits my ankles, Zadok removes it and tosses it behind him. His eyes never leave mine as he leans forward, his breath fanning against the skin of my thigh.
Fuck, is he really going to—
A loud moan erupts from my throat when his tongue laps at my core, causing me to arch my back and buckle my hips against his face involuntarily.
I bite on my lips, forcing myself to remain quiet, but it’s humanly impossible when he lavishes me with his tongue like I’m the juiciest and most delicious thing in the world.
His fingers sink into the skin of my legs, and I tug on his soft curls, desperate for more.
That seems to do the job, because Zadok seems encouraged to speed up. His tongue teases me, his hands spreading my legs wider to give him more access.
Black dots blind me as I let myself fall back on the mattress, too overwhelmed to keep propping myself on my elbows.
Pleasure courses through my veins as another wave approaches me. But before I’m sent into another spiral of doom, Zadok pulls away, standing on his feet.
Every cell and nerve in my body is hypersensitive, and the sudden distance between us is almost painful.
“Why did you stop?” I ask, annoyed and confused.
His lips are reddened and swollen, and I drink in the sight of him, even though I’m mad he didn’t finish what he started.
Without uttering a word, Zadok steps out of his boxers, leaving me speechless as I watch him. He walks slowly toward me, adjusting himself between my legs, his length teasing my entrance.
“This might hurt a little,” he warns me gently.
My heart threatens to burst out of my chest. Even with my brain clouded with lust for him, I can see the care he puts into this. 
This is a special moment for us, but most of all, for me. And the fact that he’s kind enough to think about my needs and well-being first speaks volumes.
It only makes me love him more.
“Okay…” I trail off. 
Honestly, I’m so aroused right now that I can’t find it in me to care. I just want him to take me and claim me as his. Nothing more.
With careful precision, Zadok slides inside me with one determined thrust. The sting is real, but I’m already so wet for him that it only takes a moment for me to get used to it.
He studies my face, his eyes locked on mine, before he starts moving slowly. Zadok holds his weight on his elbows, making sure he doesn’t crush me.
“Are you okay?” he asks in a murmur, his voice hoarse and restrained.
I nod sharply, experiencing to move my hips against his. The mere grind of my clit against him is enough to spark a current of fire through me.
As if encouraged by my gesture, Zadok starts moving in and out of me. 
The sensation is indescribable. Having him fill me completely, spotting a deep spot inside me that has me delusional with need, is too much.
“You’re so tight,” he moans, sinking his nose into the nape of my neck and drinking me in. 
While holding himself with one arm, his other hand finds my bra. He pulls it down, releasing my breast from its confines. My nipple immediately perks up under the cold temperature. 
I arch my back when Zadok grips and squeezes it, enticing a growl from him. He speeds up,   thrusting harder into me, but always checking if I’m okay and enjoying it.
I mean, how could I not?
My breathing increases as heat spreads through my core. Confidence growns into me, and I start meeting his thrusts with my hips. The familiar tightness in my belly grows to the point I can barely think straight.
Zadok is panting on top of me, his face still pressed into my neck.
“Fuck… I love you,” he moans against my ear.
“I love you too,” I reply, already breathless.
Another wave of orgasm hits me, so hard that I close my eyes, only letting the sensation take over my body.
Zadok follows right after, collapsing on top of me.
This has to be one of the best feelings in the world.