into silence?

into silence?
Darius’ p.o.v
I looked at her, panic starting to flood my chest as i looked at the window. It was getting darker outside.
“Mika please” i said, looking at her with desperation.
She was unbothered, crossing her legs like she owned the place.
“no Darius!” she said, looking at me with what looked like tears in her eyes. “you know what?” she soffed. “it does not matter anymore.” she stood up from the chair, slamming her hands against the table as she stood. “this?” she said, gesturing between the two of us. “it’s not going to work anymore. I can’t stay here, always wondering whether we are stuck in the past or we are moving forward.
“Mika, please” i groaned, trying to control my breath. “ can we just…” i took in a deep breath.
Big mistake. My heat had started, making her scent far more intoxicating than i would care to admit.
“please…” i ground my teeth, trying to keep the emotions at bay but they were hitting me faster than i could imagine.
She looked up at me, no doubt wanting to tell me no. To defy me. She blinked for a second as she held my gaze.
I gulped. The way she looked at me, it made me want to do things to her. Made me want to turn those innocent gaze to something else. I shook my head, trying to snap into whatever daze i was dangerously entering into.
I took her by the hand, trying as much as possible to shove her out of the room but the tingling where our hands touched shook me in ways i could not explain.
She felt it too. She looked at me with slightly widened eyes.
“oh….” she looked at me with realization evident in her eyes “your heat” she had this looke that screamed she was ready to slam her head against a door.
“I am so stupid” she muttered under her breath but i caught what she was saying.
I took her lower lips with my thumb and index finger, effectively stopping her from whatever she wanted to add.
“you are not stupid.” i muttered, feeling my dragon very much close to the surface.
“really?” she said, her voice sounding really low, looking at me with something in her eyes. “because for some reason, i thought you and beth” i felt my brows raising up before i could even stop them.
“Beth?” the confusion in my voice could not be stopped or even covered.
“i just saw her leave the room with a smile and…” i took a step close to her, stopping her from what next she was going to say.
I was hard by now, i mean it was honestly impossible not to be with her standing right in front of me looking all jealous and innocent.
“you are the only one that makes me feel this way, heat or not” i said, making sure that she felt every inch of it.
“i.. i…” i watched her get flushed as she tried to speak. The words getting stuck in her mouth like she had forgotten had to talk.
“does that seem good enough for you? or would you rather” I said, my voice dangerously low at this point.
“I can’t….” she gulped again, looking straight at me.
“it’s okay” i wanted to pull back. I did not want our first time after that incident to influenced by my heat.
I needed, if she wanted to, our first time again to be just us. No influence by spells or by heat or anything. “Mika, i think you should go” i said, closing my eyes, forcin myself not to take that deep breath that i desperately wanted to take.
Not when she was here, not when a single whiff of her could send me over the edge.
As expected, her face twisted in confusion then a bit of anger. But it was not enough to pull away from me. “why?” she asked, looking at me through hooded eyes.
She was gone. The effect of the mating was rubbing off on her too. “because…” my voice came out strained as her hands traced my chest.
“you… should not do tha….t” i managed to get out.
“but why?” she said, her innocent voice sent me leaking.
It was practically a loosing battle at this point. “because we are both going to regret this tomorrow” she looked at me for a while. Somehow, her gaze turned me on more than i could possibly imagine, making a tad bit closer to loosing my control.
Then she did it. She closed whatever nonexistent gap was between the two of us and she placed a kiss on my lips.
It felt as though whatever i was holding on to snapped. I took her by the throat, holding her tight enough that she could feel my grip, but not enough that i would hurt her.
Her eyes glazed over. I did not have the time to process what emotions came next for her because i was on her body, kissing whatever place i could land my lips on.
I dragged my tongue across her neck, sucking on it at just the right spot that i knew would bring music to my ears then i felt it.
I watched her freeze under me, almost like a lifeless body. Making me bite her a bit, still no response.
I pulled away from her, wanting to see if she was okay.
I blinked. Any effect of the heat washing off of me when i saw her tear streaken face. “Mi-” the words died on my lips.
I could not bring myself to call her name completely.
She looked up at me, at though now realising where she was.
“are you okay?” i asked instead. Although i knew for a fact that i had not in fact hurt her. Not to my knowledge at least
‘great, another thing that i have fucked up’ a voice whispered inside my head, making me bite my lower lips.
“you… you..” she looked at me, her eyes empty like she had seen a ghost. “you used me.” the words fell out of her mouth, stunning me into silence…