Chapter 51 CH-35 (1)
Author Pov
"I was abandoned by my mother." Xander's first sentence was enough to rip apart Amelia's heart.
She knows the pain of being abandoned by your own parents. Especially when it's happened to your closest friend. Lily had gone through the same. She was abandoned by her father and her mother raised her.
Amelia had seen Lily growing up. They are friends from the day they born so she had seen everything. Lily's tears. Her being bullied for having single parent. Her doing everything to make her mother's life's easy.
"My mother and father had a love marriage. He married her when she was just 19 years old and he was 21 at that time. He got her pregnant. They both were so much in love that they thought of marrying and starting a family. They were happy. Everything was going well till I turned a year old."
He stoppe to take a deep breath. Amelia placed her warm palm on his back rubbing it soothingly.
"My mother started having conflicts with my father because of money. She wanted more and more. My father did everything to fulfil her wishes. To give her everything as he loved her too much. Too much for his own good. He even sometimes had accidents during bike racing but she never noticed. The only thing she wanted was money and a great lifestyle."
"She started neglecting me. My father and her households. Meeting different rich people she started going to clubs. And what you can even expect from 20 years old woman. Who just recently hit her puberty. She just wanted to enjoy her life and she realized that I and her marriage was coming in her way. My father started getting tired of her continuous nagging so one night they had a huge argument. She went out and in the morning my father."
He gulped heavily pausing a bit. "He found her in one of his friend's house sleeping with him. She cheated on him. And you know it wasn't the first time." Amelia almost gasped in shock.
She suddenly felt so bad for Noah. She knew the feeling of getting cheated on and she didn't even want to imagine that how would he had felt after all they had a son together.
"My father's friend had a girlfriend as well. And she was the one who asked my father to come to her boyfriend's house and they both caught the cheaters. The woman knew that her boyfriend was cheating for some time so she decided to reveal the truth to my father as well. He was heartbroken. He did everything to satisfy her but that time he realized the one who doesn't want to satisfy you can't satisfy that person no matter how much you try."
"My mother did nothing except she accepted to divorce him and handed him my full custody. She didn't even fight for her son. She was begging to get rid of my presence. And the chance she got she threw me away."
Xander said all of this with an emotionless face. He had no sadness or hurt in his eyes. Disappointment yes he looked disappointed but not sad for the things his mother did.
"Now you know why I love my father so much. He did everything to give me the best life. But I failed to be the best son. I failed my father. His teachings. For some selfish reason." Sadness flooded in his blue eyes when he talked about his father.
"I was always a quiet and introverted guy. My father told me about everything with honesty when I turned 15. He wanted me to know about everything so I wouldn't ask about anything. He didn't want me to blame my mother saying she was young and it was always her decision to be with someone she wanted to. And he can't control her."
"But for me, break up was fine. But cheating wasn't. She would have left us instead of cheating." He snarled the word cheating making Amelia gulped seeing how dark his gaze become.
"I never got tangled with anyone. I had no friends or even a single good relationship with anyone. I wanted a quiet life. But then I met an angel." A small smile appeared on his lips. Amelia instantly understood.
His late wife. Mia Storm.
"Mia met me when I was 13. She was only 8 years old then. She was the same as I was. Quiet, distant and introvert type. But she had a big heart. Too much kindness. And innocence for her own good. Some guys were bullying her when I first met her. I saved her and she instantly pursued me to be her friend. She was one of an annoying leech."
He chuckled completing his sentence. Amelia almost smiled at his bright face but stopped when his smile fell and a hint of sadness appeared in his gaze. Once again.
"I don't know why. But her presence. Her innocence. Her smile. Her. Everything forced me to fell for her. Too hard. I started loving her. Or that's what I thought." Xander stopped for a second.
"When I turned 23 and she became 18 she told me about her boyfriend. I met that guy one time only. I didn't really like him he was 12 years older than her. But didn't say much as she was too much in love with him. Of course, it hurt me. Every bit of it hurted me. Every time hearing her saying that man's name with so much love in her eyes sliced opened my healed wounds again and again. That shit hurt more than my mother abandoning me I don't know why."
He laughed through his sad eyes. Amelia didn't laugh or even smiled. She could see the pain all over his face. His eyes. He was holding himself back from breaking down.
His fists tightened on the bed sheets that he didn't even notice he was holding. Amelia wanted to console him but she knew this time nothing could help him.
"After a year watching her roaming around him and being all smitten by that old man I didn't know what to do. I don't know what happened to me that night. Why I did that. Why I did that vicious thing. Why I used the same title I hate the most on that innocent girl who did nothing? I don't know why."
FlashBack
Xander Pov
"Xander look at this dress. Is it looking good? I want to look amazing tonight. I have a gift for Max and--" I interrupted her spitting out something in anger.
"Can you not just again start with your Max this Max that. I am tired of hearing his shitty name from your mouth every fucking second." I snarled getting up from the bed.
She looked at me surprised yet speechless face. She placed the dress on the bed before coming towards me with worried eyes.
"Xander are you ok. For some past months, I am noticing your behaving too much different. And your also avoiding me a lot recently. What happened." That time I just wanted to fell on my knees and tell her that how crazily I love her.
I wanted to yell at her for being so blind. For not able to see how much her continuous ignorance was hurting me.
"Nothing's wrong Mia. I just want you to stop taking that man's name. Especially when you're with me stop mentioning him." She frowned at my words crossing her arms.
"You're confusing me so much, Xander. I don't know what's with you and your no reason disliking towards Max I---"
"Shut up. I told you to not take his name." She flinched at my sudden burst out.