Chapter 50 CH-34 (2)
After some time Alexander reached the hospital and directly went to Amelia hugging her. She introduced them and Alex happily started talking to Harry who also got engrossed in the conversation with the little guy.
Soon night started falling and Harry went to his slumber and Amelia took Alexander home. She wanted to stay with Harry but he refused her saying she needs to rest as well.
Giving up to his continuous nagging she went home with Alexander. Alexander was happy till Harry went to sleep but Amelia did notice how his eyes wasn't full of joy. They had sadness in them.
"Alex look at me." Amelia made him look at him. They were both in the car.
"Alex what happened baby." She instantly brought him in her arms kissing his forehead. His eyes were full of tears. It was almost like he was fighting with them for a long time.
"Tell me, baby." She cooed at him making him hold on to her tightly.
"M-mom. My mom. Tomorrow is her death anniversary." Amelia's breathing got stuck in her throat hearing his cracked tone. He was craving comfort for so long.
"And I know dad wouldn't go to her grave again. He's doing it for the past 3 years." Alexander stuttered out crying in her arms.
"It's fine Alex. Don't worry I will go with you." Alex nodded his head.
They both stayed in the same position till they reached the mansion. Amelia carefully picked him up as he had fell asleep on the way. Her heart restricted painfully seeing dried up tear stains on his tiny face.
Wiping his chubby cheeks she kissed his forehead before heading to the room. Their room.
Entering the room she found Xander sitting on the edge of the bed. The lights were off. The only source of light in the room was the lamp that was on the table beside the bed where Xander's frame was sitting.
She sighed knowing very well that no matter how much this man tried to show that he's emotionless and cold but the truth is. His feelings are more intense than anything.
He's just good at hiding them.
He's hurting. And why wouldn't he when tomorrow is the day when he lost the love of his life? His first wife. The mother of his child. The woman who has his heart.
Walking towards his sitting figure. She slowly kneeled in front of him only for him to look at her. His eyes were bloodshot. Tears were stored in his eyes. Obviously he was refusing to let his guards down.
"It's fine Xander. I am here." She whispered placing her cold palm on his warm cheek making him close his eyes.
"You don't have to hide your pain from me. You don't have to hide your emotions from me. You can let out. You can lean on me. I am here for you. I wouldn't leave you."
"You can trust me." With that, a lone tear escaped his eyes. She slowly stood up bringing him closer.
He buried his face in her stomach before bursting out in tears. His trembling arms went to her waist as he wrapped his arms around her holding her tightly on the spot.
They both didn't exchange any words. She let him cry his heart out while she just stood there caressing his hair. Xander let his pain out trusting the woman without another word.
"I-I am not a good man Amelia." He rasped out making her look down at him. He slowly pulled away from her wiping his cheeks.
Tears didn't stop falling from his eyes yet he kept on wiping them away. Amelia took a seat beside him on the bed placing her hand on his back rubbing it soothingly.
"I have made the biggest mistake of life. I ruined an innocent life for my selfish reasons Amelia. I am not a good man you think of me as." He let out slowly turning his head towards his wife.
His bloodshot blue eyes met her sad grey ones. She stared at him with a soft gaze.
"I know if I tell you, you might not be able to look at me the way you do now." She shook her head placing her hand on his wet cheek.
"Xander. It's fine if you don't want to share because it doesn't matter. I will never look at you differently. You will remain the same man to me no matter what your past is." Xander closed his eyes chuckling a little.
"I know I don't want to lose you but. I don't want to hide my past anymore. You deserve to know." He grabbed her hands kissing them softly.
He knew his past mistake can snatch his present's fortune but he couldn't hide the truth anymore.
She needs to know the reason for his nightmares. Of his father's avoidance. Of his self loathing. She deserves to know it.
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So Xander's
past gonna reveal in next. I will try to complete his past faster with important flashback and events.
Till the next Adios.