Chapter 30 - EVE

After Carbon had finally left the club, I was finally able to take a shower. I was so sore, I was walking extremely painfully, and I was afraid it would hurt even more when I was in the shower. It had been worth it, but I was sure I wouldn't be doing anal for a long time. I might not even be able to work the next day. My pussy had taken a beating from Carbon's cock. I'd barely finished, and I was already thinking about the next time. All the negative things I had said about him were gone. He had won me over through sex. Maybe that is a problem now since I wanted to meet Carbon. Of course, that didn't mean that I agreed with his plan to have me, after all, I didn't even like him. If I had to give up that life, it would be for someone I really liked.

I came out of the shower refreshed, but still sore. I walked slowly and held on to things, as I couldn't balance properly. It was embarrassing. I thought about how I was going to leave the club like that. Everyone would look at me and wonder what had happened. Perhaps it would be better to wait for the whole club to close before leaving, and avoid the questions. At least, the questions from people who didn't know what had happened.

When I sat up in bed, I groaned in pain. It hurt a lot. It seemed that every time I paid attention, it hurt even more. "I guess it was bad," I heard Axel say. I hadn't even noticed he was there. I was so lost in my thoughts and the pain that I hadn't even noticed him.

"What are you doing here?" I asked him, even though I knew exactly why he was there. "Don't look at me like that, Axel, he was a customer. You know our goal is to satisfy you," I said, as I rubbed a moisturizing cream on my body. "I did what had to be done," I explained.

"It felt like a lot more than satisfying the client," Axel said. "I saw the size, EVE. It's what you wanted, isn't it?" he asked me. I had spent so much time with Axel that it was clear he knew me well and knew everything about me. He knew that I had a strong desire to have a huge cock inside me, and we knew that it would be hard to find someone with a bigger cock than his. Of course, he was feeling threatened. "Everyone heard EVE. The whole club heard how much you were enjoying it. You've never done that to me," he had said.

"Are you going to make a big deal about a fuck, Axel?" I asked. "Yes, we had a fuck and I loved it. He managed to do something that no other man has ever done, not even you," I said. I knew those words would be hard for him, but I wasn't going to accept all that show, playing the victim. "And you know what? I want that cock again. I want it the same way I want yours. Things haven't changed between us, Axel. I just had one of the best experiences of my life, at my job," I said, almost shouting.

"And did you think about Amelie while you were doing all this?" he shouted back. "Did you think about what your body would look like afterward? You don't live alone, EVE. This is her body too. What are you going to do when she wakes up completely bruised and sore because of you?" he asked me. "How will she work?" he wanted to know. Axel was really serious about the whole thing. The thing was, I hadn't really thought about Amelie at any point. I think that after the conversation with Cindy and Mandy, my mind must have created some kind of block that made me think only of myself. I had completely forgotten that I would go to bed as EVE but wake up as Amelie. Not only that, but I really didn't remember what the fuck I was doing. The worst part was that even though I did, I felt no remorse. Mandy was right when she said that I had a life too. I also deserved to live. I had chosen to have sex with Carbon, and I had chosen to do it again. Furthermore, I had made the decision to do it all with my body. If Amelie woke up, and it was all there, it would no longer be my problem. As long as I have control of my body, everything that happens is for me. What happens after my consciousness disappears is no longer my concern.

"Amelie knows that it was only a matter of time before all this happened. In fact, at Carbon's house, she had already noticed that the size of his cock was unusual, and yet she was willing to have sex with him," I said, reminding him of the things I had told him earlier. "Amelie won't be able to blame me for anything," I said.

"There's a difference between feeling pain and feeling pleasure, EVE," he said. "Amelie will only feel pain when she wakes up. She won't feel the pleasure you felt. So it's not the same," Axel said. He had been quite defensive of Amelie lately, and I questioned him about it. "I'm defending what's right to defend, EVE. What you did wasn't nice. It's not just about Amelie. Dorian is involved too," he had said.

"Ah, fuck Dorian. I don't give a damn about him. It was me who fucked Carbon, not her. He can think what he wants, I don't care. Dorian was never my problem," I shouted, as I slammed the door in Axel's face. I couldn't believe all this had happened. "Don't expect a ride today," he said from behind the door. I knew Dorian wouldn't give it to me either. That night, I would have to leave by cab. As soon as I left the club, I walked to the first cab I could find. On the way to the street, no one had asked me any questions, but I had the impression that it was only out of politeness. I got into the cab, asking the driver to be careful while driving. Along the way, he had made several jokes about how good my night must have been. If I'd been fine, he would have replied in an appropriately arrogant manner, but at that moment, I just wanted to go home. When I arrived, I opened the door and went into the kitchen, where I saw the rest of the ice cream the boys had brought me. I felt sad and thought about everything I had done and said. Then I thought about Amelie, and how embarrassing it would be for her to have to deal with the two of them the next day. I took one of the ice creams and drank it while watching something on TV. My mind considered calling Axel and apologizing, but I was too selfish to make mistakes. Maybe he would call, I thought. But he didn't. Dorian wasn't even an option. I considered calling Cindy and Mandy, but they would probably be asleep. So, I had no one to talk to, to vent to. I was on my own. Luckily for me, my cell phone rang and I picked it up. It was Dr. Hans' secretary telling me that there would be an appointment for the following day. I confirmed my interest, as Amelie would definitely want to have that session. Even I was planning to show up to understand what was happening to life and what I should do to fix it. With nothing much to do, I gave up on television and ice cream. I walked around the house until sleep came, and when it did, I went to bed. I hoped Axel would forgive me because I couldn't live a life without him. Likewise, I wanted him to look at me the next day and kiss me, and for us to have sex as usual. It seemed real that everything would be as easy as I wanted it to be. And then sleep came, slightly heavy, and I knew that my night was over. Amelie was going to take over for the next few hours, and I wanted to be able to understand what would happen when she found out what I had done, and how it might affect her relationship with Dorian. I fell asleep thinking about it.