A suspect

A suspect
Even now his words still rang in my ears, I didn't work well because of how distracted I was by the whole thing. I didn't know what to say after he told me that...

" at first I didn't care how you felt, your help wasn't enough but as time passed. I saw how smart, strong, enduring, wary and hardworking you were. It wasn't just that... but I'd rather not explain any further. It became evident that your life has never been simple, I guessed it must've been filled with hardship and where I found you it's when you've just escaped or freed yourself from whatever hell you've endured.

Also the way you've been selfless at times even though you never saw it, your worth far surpasses this place and my pack. It made me feel unhappy- maybe... guilty. The truth is I truly feel that you don't deserve what I did to you"

His last sentence should've made me feel disrespected which it does but still I understood what he was trying to say. He is a ruthless person who only cares about himself and his pack, he never cares if what he does hurts someone as long as it's not his pack. He didn't care about me when he first met me. It looked like he was saving me but no there's a difference between seeing value in me and caring about me. Yet I seem to have been able to make a person like me feel guilty and even see that I didn't deserve what he did to me.

As for what he said about asking or making him do whatever I want in order for me to willingly stay in his pack I really didn't know what to say. It was a surprise and something I never thought would come out of his mind. It was he who ended up saying I should think about it and thankfully for him It never left my mind. The entire day I've been thinking about it but unfortunately I'm still super unsure. What exactly would I want for him and will I really obediently stay here.

It's so annoying that we only focused on my stay because I really wanted to ask him if there was any progress in finding the person who is informing the vampires about my every move.

The day ended very quickly and I felt like I didn't do much thanks to my distracted mind. Arina and her hateful glares were starting to get on my nerves, it looks like yesterday and this morning it was jealousy but I'm sure now that he must've heard about my deeds during the battle against the monsters which made her hate me more. The invisibility potion and the mid quality healing potion must've made her go mad. It proved that her knowledge was nothing compared to mine.

They all went to sleep leaving me a line downstairs and that's what I preferred actually. I stayed sitting at the round table thinking about my life, my past to specific. I was comparing it to the life I'm living here and I had to admit that it's far better than the hell that I'm coming from. This is a fact that even makes me work enthusiastically sometimes.

The truth is It wouldn't be bad to stay here but all my life my heart has yearned for nothing but freedom. It's too tempting to give up, and here although I am indeed not mistreated there are still some restrictions and there's an annoying woman whose name is Arina. It's crowded and I barely have some time to- I don't know find myself?

There were also other things I ended up thinking about but I'd soon forget them and I realized the reason behind that. It was late and I was sleepy now, I was about to stand up and go upstairs to my room but a gasp and a sound of something small falling entered my ears. My head snapped where those two sounds came from and I was surprised to see Arina standing at the top of the stairs. She also looked surprised to see me, what is she doing at this hour? and the fact that I didn't hear her footsteps means she was sneaking. She only gasped and dropped what she dropped because she didn't expect me to still be awake.

She quickly bent down and picked up what she dropped and I saw that it was something shiny but she quickly hid it in her hand. I noticed that her ugly fingers were bare meaning what she dropped must have been her ring. It's her ring again? Didn't the same thing happen this morning?

She looks nervous but at the same time annoyed " I-i was just thirsty that's all!" She quickly explained which was super weird. She has never ever felt the need to explain herself especially in such a nervous way, wait the same thing happened this morning which is now something I cannot ignore. She's acting fishy but I shouldn't be stupid about it because I still haven't come up with any possibility of her fishiness.

I nodded at her with an uncaring attitude which made her return to normal, she must be feeling relieved that I look like I didn't notice anything. "Okay I'm going to bed then and just because you plan on getting less sleep doesn't mean you'll work less tomorrow" of course how could she miss the opportunity to annoy me. She went back to sleep without doing the thing that she said she woke up for. She didn't drink water showing how terrible she is at lying.

Now the question is why is this the second time I'm seeing Arina dropping her ring because of being startled to see me. Well it's obvious that the ring wasn't on her finger when falling. There's nothing suspicious or that special about her ring cause it's like my bracelet. The one that Vale gave me to protect me from the vampire's mind ability when I fall asleep. I heard from Zik that Vale gave Roseanne a necklace for that and Arina was given a ring for th- wait a minute!