Chapter 40

Chapter 40
Chapter Forty

“The claiming bond, the anger is all you.” Kane flinched, his hands coming up to my outer thighs as he rested down on his knees. “I can’t help but want you, even if you’re pissed at me.”

“Can you undo it?” I asked, his face fell and I felt hurt move through the center of my chest like I’d been punched.

“It’s a forever thing.”

“God damn it, Kane.” I felt that heat pulling at me, feeding into my anger. “A dragon?”

“Since I was born.” He said, worrying his lower lip. His eyes finally met mine, “I really am sorry. I had a plan and when you said I was yours. That you were mine, it just-”

“You should have told me.” I said, cutting him off. I scooted away from him, standing up. “I love you, but Kane. I just, I don’t know what to say to you right now.”

“Why don’t you get some rest and I’ll go see what’s going on at your place and the bar?”

I didn’t want him to go, but at the same time it was hard to think about anything but fucking him. Which I didn’t want to do right now, no matter how much my body screamed at me that I did. “Fine, but be careful. I’m still mad at you.”

“I’ll be safe, Sarah. I really am sorry.”

“I know.” I grumbled, making my way to his room. He followed behind me. 

When we reached his bedroom, I dropped the blanket to the floor and headed to the bathroom to clean up as he moved to his closet. I closed the door, leaning my back against it. Taking a moment to just breathe, what was I supposed to do now?

“Sarah,” Kane knocked on the bathroom door. “I’ll be back in a bit. I love you.”

I nodded my head before realizing that he couldn’t see me. I did love him, but I meant what I said. Right now I was so mad at him.

“Be careful.” I called out, I could hear his footsteps on the hardwood floor as he made his way to the stairs. The front door closing a moment later. Sinking down to the floor, I wrapped my arms around my legs. My eyes burned and I knew that the tears were coming.

What was I going to do now?

Shaking my head, I pushed myself to stand. My body ached in the best of ways. How could something so good make me feel like this?

I wanted Kane, being with him had filled something in my soul that I hadn’t known I’d needed.

It had been freeing, letting him spank me and take control of every little thing. Knowing that he would take care of me.

Now, I was falling; I felt weak and I just wanted to lie down.

I shuffled to the sink. Turning on the taps, I splashed the cool water on my face. Trying to shake myself out of how I was feeling. I knew that if I didn’t, I’d go numb. I didn’t want to go numb.

Reaching over, I grabbed the hand towel. Drying my face off. I looked into the mirror, taking a moment to study the way that the collar looked wrapped around my throat.

I had to admit that it felt right, belonging to Kane. The bite beneath the collar brought on a whole new, different set of feelings. Anger being the strongest beneath that was love. I did love Kane and it was more than just a friend's love.

It felt like deep down, I’d always loved him. I just hadn’t known it. I didn’t know if it was my feelings or the bond. Was I feeling the love that he had for me and not able to tell the difference from his emotions and my own.

Closing my eyes, I took a deep breath, trying to center myself. Opening them, I grabbed a washcloth. Dousing it in rubbing alcohol before bringing it up to my neck. The sting of the alcohol didn’t compare to the arousal that swept through me so fast it made my head swim and my thighs shake.

Gripping that cabinet, I took another deep breath as my body tensed up.

Letting out a shuddering moan, I went about cleaning myself. I’d take a shower in the morning. Right now, I just wanted to sleep.

After that, I’d deal with what had happened.

I finished cleaning up and made my way to Kane’s bedroom. Grabbing one of his soft cotton shirts and pulling it over my head. I didn’t want to go down stairs just to grab some pajamas.

Turning, I looked at his bed. It looked big and foreboding, I’d slept over before, but never in his bed.

A part of me wondered if that would be presuming too much. The relationship was still so new, another part of me didn’t care.

He had claimed me and said I was his and I was too tired to care. I wasn’t going to go down the stairs to sleep on the couch. I didn’t think I’d be able to make it before my legs gave out.

I turned off the lights to his room, the soft glow of the neon lights around his computer filled the room with a soft purple color. Turning the sheets back, I slipped in between the covers. Goosebumps rising along my skin at the coolness of the cotton and the scent that was purely Kane.

Closing my eyes, it didn’t take long before sleep pulled me under.