Chapter 36

VANESSA

I am trapped in the shower, as Asher is finding the words to say to me. I was reading in a magazine that the top 5 reasons relationships don't work out:

1. Lack of communication 2. Lack of Affection 3. Abuse 4. Change 5. Commitment issues In werewolf terms that shouldn't exist, but it does.

"I was mad, but I understand why you did what you did. It wasn't right, but honestly, I should have treated you better. It wasn't right for me to think about the things I was. I do love you, and I do want to be with you. But honestly you make it hard to be with you." I use the scrubby, and start washing my body off.

"If you don't want to be my mate, once I have this child, I will break the bond and you can go to your mate. She says she will take you back." I know that sounded cold, but I need to lay that on him because he does have a choice.

"When did you speak with her?" He asks. But that was the wrong choice, and the only thing he got from that.

"Earlier. Kayla is actually a really good person, and she will be a good friend. We are going out tonight. I will not stand in your way of happiness Asher; you are free to see her." I felt tears creeping into my eyes saying that, but the shower had covered the tears really well.

"That's not what I want, Nessa. I want you, and I don't regret choosing you. It was just doubting, that I am allowed to have those. I rejected my mate for a reason, and that reason is because we had a connection. That only connection I had with her is the destined mate one. But I can't feel like a business partner, I want you to be all over me. I want you to do business with me in the office. In a meeting, come sit on my lap. You know what, just always sit on my lap, I'd love that more than anything. You want sex every night, I am always game. Want me to go to those stupid birthing classes, I will bring the pillows, I just want you baby." I was thinking of his responses, and honestly it wasn't a lot to ask for. I couldn't admit it, as that's the stubbornness in me. I don't know if I can ever unhear what was said.

"Can we make a rule?" We needed to set boundaries, to where our feelings are never hurt. We were a brand-new relationship and mated with each other too fast.

"The whole listening into each other’s thoughts, that needs to end. Unless we are in danger, or with permission. We both deserve privacy, or it can turn into a mess." He reached his arm inside the shower for me to hold. It was the mate between us that made me quickly slip my hand into his.

"Are you sure you want me? I am going to give you one last time, and if you don’t, I won't be mad. We can raise this child together, but we don't have to be together." There was sudden silence in the air, which was giving me my answer. I let my hand fall from his, and the tears roll down.

"I've said it once, and I will say it again. I want you. I want us. But only if you promise to show me more affection. I want you clingy as fuck to me." I couldn't help but laugh at that. We will always be tied to each other, and I can make it work with him. If he were to leave after this, I don't think I can do this again. The pain of losing a mate was horrible. I have to make things work, then I will do as he says. I grasp his hand again, and yank him into the shower, with all his clothes on. A gasp came out for his surprise. I pulled him into the shower and moved him to the wall.

"You want me up your ass all the time, fine." I grabbed him by his now soaked shirt and smashed his lips to mine. I used this time to rip his shirt off his back.

"Let's try something new, how about that?" His husky voice just made my legs weak. I nodded in submission.

"On your knees," I always loved when he demanded things of me. I hated being in control. I come from a time where we never knew of foreplay. There were a lot of things I've never known. Like the licking of the vagina, or certain positions. I complied and dropped to my knees, to where I am the angle of his pants line. He reached for his pants, and slowly started unbuttoning his pants.

"Open your mouth" I've watched porn before with him and it wasn't exciting watching others do it.

"Can we get out of the shower, the water hitting my face is distracting me." He busted out into a huge laugh. Before helping me up and lifting me by my ass. He turned the shower off and took me to the bed. He finished taking his pants off and sat on the bed.

"Knees my love. I fell to my knees to where I am now face to face with his hard member.

"Open your mouth and tuck your lips around your teeth." I knew what was happening, and I was scared I wasn't going to be good at it. Him coaching me was scary. But I did what I was told. He used his hands to form a ponytail, yet slightly pulling as he directed his cock into my mouth. He was slow, and patient. As it slowly entered my mouth, I felt it reaching my throat, and began to panic. It hit the back of my throat, where I gagged and suddenly my mouth was filled with saliva. He grabbed my hand and wrapped it at the base of his cock. Slowly he begins to move my hand up and down his shaft, as he is gripping my hair and pushing me up and down.

"Just like that baby" I heard him groaning everything I went further, and further. I slowly started to get the hang of it and move on my own. He released grip on his shift and started doing it myself. This was a lot of work, my jaw began to get sore, and my teeth slipped out. He winced in pain.

"I am sorry" I felt myself panicking again.

"It's babe, keep going. I love being in your mouth." My eyes locked on his, and I saw the pure lust in his eyes.

"Here, like this" we both jumped, as Kayla entered from behind me in just her towel. She took the hold of my hair and was face to face with my cheek.

"Kayla, what are you doing?" I hear Asher say. He didn't know what to think about what was happening. I was in shock, I should be mad, but I wasn't.

"Showing her how to pleasure you." Her voice became really seductive. She had turned my head to face hers, and suddenly her lips were on mine. I couldn't explain it, but I found myself kissing her back. The kiss was getting deeper, and deeper. Before she broke the kiss, I looked up at Asher who was suddenly enjoying this. I wasn't mad. She looked at Asher's member, with such taste.

"My queen may I show you?" She was asking to put my mate's dick in her mouth. Why aren't I mad? My wolf was getting wet thinking about it.

"If it's okay with my mate." I couldn't believe what was happening right now. Asher looked at me, looking for any rejection to the request. He looked back at her and nodded. She stayed in position on the side and came over and sat on my lap. She reached back, and slowly started rubbing my clit. It was a feeling I was enjoying so much. Kayla turned her head over, and slid Asher's dick in her mouth. A moan escaped his mouth. I am watching from the side, as she is going up and down on it. Her hand is grasped around it. She was going at a fast pace and noticed the way she relaxed herself on it. She did gag, but she used it at her advantage. I see the way Asher is really loving it, as if he were going to finish any second. After a few minutes, she lifted herself up to the side still going.

Kayla had grabbed my hair, pushing mouth to replace hers. I felt like I needed to meet expectations as he was obviously enjoying her. I still wasn't jealous and that concerned me more. I switched places with her, and now I was officially doing everything she was. I slid my mouth down and took it deep in my throat. Before I begin going up and down with my hand it mouths. It wasn't long before I felt him throbbing. I knew it was coming, and as I was letting up so he could finish. He kept my mouth there, and his creamy liquid filled my mouth which I quickly swallowed down. I still began to suck, which he flinched at each of it.

I finally lifted my head, and I looked up to Asher who was breathing hard from his release. Kayla was combining her fingers through my hair. His eyes met mine, and we were both at a loss for words. Kayla was suddenly laying kisses on my neck, and she had the softest lips. A moan had escaped my lips. She kissed my ears which were a weakness.

"I am going to get changed, I will see you downstairs in a few." She stood, went to the closet, took some clothes, and she walked out the room." I lifted myself up from between his lips and sat next to me.

"What the heck just happened?" I said. His hands laid between his legs, as we both laid there in shock.

"I wasn't jealous, or mad. I was liking that." His arm went around my neck, as I leaned into him.

"Please don't be mad baby, I don't want you mad at me for saying yes. But you said yes, and I couldn't resist." He sounded worried. Like I was about to leave him for something that I agreed too.

"I am not bad, not one bit or at all. She kissed me, and it was the best damn kiss a girl can give me. Does this mean I am gay now?" He started laughing, and suddenly we were both laughing at this.

"I think the term is bisexual, and it was pretty damn hot. Especially when she was kissing you. I loved seeing you so hot, and so wet." Asher had stood up, and suddenly became so aggressive. He grabbed my neck and flipped my stomach on the bed.

"You can be with whatever girl, but this is my fucking pussy at the end of the night." He jammed his member into my core, and I screamed in pleasure. He was thrusting in and out of me and we were both moaning and groaning in sync.

"And you are mine regardless." I yelled at him.

About 20 minutes later, he finished inside me falling to the side of me.

"I love you." I muttered out staring at him.

"I love you too." He kissed me lingering for a while. I was excited, that this wasn't going to break us. That he was okay with her kissing me, and I was okay with her touching him.

"Would it be wrong for me to ask if maybe she could join us every now and then?" I felt guilty asking that question. I think inside I wanted to explore being with a girl.

"Do you think you are questioning your sexuality, after that?" He asked me, and this was the first time we actually talked about something so personal and so real.

"I am confused because I like guys. I love you. But when she kissed me and touched me. Something ignited inside of me. If you aren't okay with it, I won't do it. You're who I want at the end of the day" He ran his fingers down my hair and planted a kiss on my forehead.

"Why don't you explore that side, with whatever girl you want. All I ask is that I can watch. When you're comfortable, maybe I can join. Even if it's just me paying attention to you only. Maybe later you'd let me have both of you." A smile crept on my face, as he was so understanding. I knew I would never do anything he wasn't okay with.

"I think I was okay with touching you. I just need time for you to put your dick anywhere else but me. I honestly really loved her pleasuring you, and the way she grabbed me to finish you off. I am not aware of the way sex is done in this age and being showed like that was amazing. Who would think I'd be hot for your destined mate.”? I rested my chin on my arm, just looking at him.

"It was weird at first, but I loved how you loved it. I was enjoying it, but honestly, I was enjoying it more with you. There were sparks, and fire. Head was just headed with her. What kind of guy would I be if I said no to two women who both consented? You think I will say no to my beautiful, sexy ass mate wanting to fuck a girl. Hell no, my ancestors of men would disown me." We both broke out laughing to that comment.

"So, you're really okay with it?" He pulled me into his arms and tightened his hug.

"Hell fucking yeah I am babe. Just please let me watch!" I smiled against his skin. How could I ever think about giving him up when he was this understanding.

"Okay, but whenever we both say stop, we get to stop." I said.

"Of course, babe. You're my mate, and I will be with you till my very last breath. I am going to love you like no one's left." I lifted my head up and kissed his like I have never kissed him before. It was full of passion, and love. Who would think that the ancient Luna who grew up in a time where those who loved the same sex were killed? Was actually attracted to women.

I Vanessa Steele, am Bisexual.