Chapter 47

The next morning again I woke up in his arms with him staring at my sleeping figure.

God, does he even sleep? I never saw him sleeping, except for in his drunk states. I’ve started to believe that he is a vampire or something similar to it. Maybe that's why he never sleeps.

The same could be the reason as to why he doesn't want me in his life. What if he has some vampire girl in his life, whom he couldn’t introduce to his parents, and that's why he wants me to stay so he could protect her. This thought was enough to turn my mood bitter. He was still staring at me. I immediately separated my body from his and stood up with a sour expression. I picked up my clothes from the floor. All this time his eyes were on me.

Studying my every move carefully. He hasn’t uttered a single word from his mouth, and it's kinda relieving because I don't want to talk to him. It’s good that he knows when to shut his mouth.

Taking my clothes I started going in the direction of the door but his cold voice stopped me,

“Where do you think you are going?”, he asked in a demanding manner. I rolled my eyes without sparing him a glance. Guess I was wrong, cause he doesn't know when to shut his mouth. How can he ask me this question, especially after what happened last night? I sigh in frustration. I didn't want to answer him. So I continued on my track.

“Jane I'm talking to you. Where the hell are you going?” he asked angrily with a more intimidating voice, and it sends chills down my spine. I won't let his voice intimidate me.

“To my room,” I said with a strong voice without turning back.

“You can't go...” he yelled in anger but I didn't let him complete because I had already left his room.

“So had fun last night?” Nina asked me as soon as I entered our room. She was looking at me. I was wearing Zanvil's T-shirt, and anyone who sees me like this for sure would think that I had fun last night.

“Yes I had lots of fun last night”, I said in a tone of sarcasm. She nodded her head in understanding and continued with her packing. Today is the last day of our vacation. We will be leaving after this, and it's almost lunchtime. I woke up quite late and I don’t have any idea about how I slept for so long.

Maybe you were feeling better in his arms. You find comfort and you forget all of your worries and that is why you slept so comfortably without any worries. I moved my head in denial at such a thought and tried to replace it with anything other than that. I need to pack too, or I'll be late. I took my fresh clothes and went to take a shower. While showering my thoughts again ran at the scenario of Zanvil having someone in his life.

What if it's true that he has someone in his life, and he loves and cares for her. After all, he had several relationships before our marriage. I had seen him with a lot of girls and they all were very beautiful. Who won't fall in love with goddesses like them? That thought made my heart pain like anything.

I remember the day he came back from abroad, he was talking about introducing his girlfriend to the uncle and aunt. But instead, he had brought Hazel to dinner, and Zanvil is like a brother to her.

Did he change his plans at the last moment? Instead of bringing his girlfriend,

he brought his secretary. Maybe he was searching for a good opportunity to introduce his girlfriend to his family and before he could get it, the uncle wanted him to marry me. And because of their uncle's health issues, he said yes to this proposal against his will. Warm water started flowing from my eyes. I didn't realize that I was crying in the shower.

Why am I cry? I should be happy for him because at least he has someone in his life whom he loves and cares for. After the uncle’s health becomes stable, he won't have to be stuck with me. He can be happy with his true love.

Why am I feeling like my heart is stabbed with a thousand needles? Why am I not able to imagine him with someone else? I need to stop feeling like this or it will become hard for me to move on when everything comes to an end. I need to stay away from him, as far as possible because I don't want to get attached to him. But…. I think it's too late for me to do so. I'm already attached to him so it will be for our best that I stay away from him, as much as I can. I came out of the shower fully dressed. When I saw my reflection in the mirror, my eyes were looking red and swollen from crying.

“It is for the best”, I whispered to myself and smiled at my reflection but more tears were forming in the corners of my eyes. “Don't cry, Jane. It's time to be happy. After this all gets over, he can be happy with his love and you can be happy too. You can be free to do what you have always wanted to do”, I tried to say in a strong voice to console myself but my tears betrayed me. I started sobbing.

“Jane”, I heard Nina's calling me. I immediately wiped my tears.

“Coming”, I yelled on my way down.

“Are you OK?”, Sky asked me when I went down. Are my eyes still puffy? I nodded my head and smiled at him as he hugged me. I was feeling stares on my back but I ignored them. I need to stay away from him.

“I was worried when you didn't come down for breakfast. I thought you were not feeling good because of yesterday's incident”, he said while he continued hugging me. His words brought me back yesterday’s memory.

“Dude getaway now it's my turn”, I heard Jack's impatient voice. My lips curled at corners. I'm still mad at him but he is my friend and I know he cares for me. He came to hug me as soon as Sky's body separated from mine. But I stopped him holding my hand in front of him.

“I don't want to hug you,” I said trying to keep my face straight. I want to laugh at his reaction when I said that.

“Oh! shut up you can't stop me from hugging my girl,” he said and engulfed me in his arms. I smiled at his action. “I'm sorry”, he whispered and I know he realized his mistakes. I hummed in response still trying to act mad.

“Jane, what do you want me to do to make it up to you,” he asked while breaking our hug and looking at me with a serious look. I pretended to think for a second

before saying.

“How about my favorite choc-chip ice cream?” He laughs at me.

“Still the same? I thought you would ask for something big this time but don't worry. I will supply you with your favorite ice cream for a year,” he promised me.

“Really?" I questioned with shock and happy eyes.

“Yes”, he nodded his head and I hugged him and while jumping in happiness.

“Ouch!”, I said with a painful expression. My knee still hurts.

“Be careful!!!”, I heard an angry-worried voice of a person from whom I'm trying to stay away. I didn't look at him when he said that to me. As if he cares. Instead, I headed to eat lunch. I'm really hungry now. During our lunch, I didn't look at him though I felt his gaze on me.

Thank God uncle and aunt don't know about yesterday’s incident or I would have been in more trouble. We were leaving in half an hour. I had asked Sky to help me with my luggage and he might come at any time. I took my stuff and kept it aside while I started a final search to find anything that I left anything behind. I heard footsteps approaching and halting at the door.

“Sky you are here. Just wait a minute.

I'm searching if I left anything behind and my luggage is beside the bed”, I said without turning back. I made sure nothing was left and I turned around and said with a smile, “Let's go”. But to my dismay, I saw the devil standing in front of me with a clenched jaw. Immediately my face lost its smile.

Now what made him angry? Sorry, my bad. It is his normal face. He is always angry. I should ask this question to myself. When did I ever see him happy? What is he even doing here? I sigh in annoyance. Without sparing him another glance. I took my bag and started heading out of the room. My bag was a little heavy. When I was about to pass by him, he took a hold of my bag. I glared at him and tried to get the bag out of his grip but he was not leaving it. I looked at him with anger and seeing my face he smirked.

His eyes were expecting my reaction. But I won't give in that easily. I won't talk to him. I will stay away from him as I decided. If he thinks provoking me will give him his satisfaction, then he is completely wrong. It will never happen. I left the bag there and went down. He can bring it down. He came down carrying my luggage with a pissed face. I stopped myself from laughing. I love seeing his pissed face. Sometimes I feel like kissing his half-pout lips, which he makes whenever he is angry.

What the hell are you thinking Jane? I slap myself mentally. You are going to stay away from him. Stop behaving like a lovesick puppy. My inner voice mocked at me. What? I am not behaving like a lovesick puppy. I was just--- I was just--- I was not able to come back with a proper answer.

Forget it.

I don't want to think about it. We all bid our goodbyes to Mr. Kavinsky. I don’t think Petros will come to say bye to us. I feel bad for him. The way Zanvil yelled at him. He was sad because of it. How much do I hate that devil, and unconsciously I look at the devil? He was keeping our luggage in the car and I don't want to sit in his car but I don't have a choice. I was about to open the door when I heard Petros calling me.

“Jane”. I turned to see him running in our direction. “I thought you left”, he was breathing hard because of all the running.

“We were about to”, I said with a smile.

“I thought you won't come to see me and say bye”, my voice became sad.

“I got late because I was preparing something for you”, he said while handing me a box and smiling shyly at me.

I took it.

“What's in it?” I asked in excitement.

“Just Open it,” he said with a smile and I opened it to find chocolates in the box.

“Chocolates!”, I said in happiness.

“Thank you”, I immediately hugged him.

“I promised you that one day I learn how to make them for you”, he said with a shy smile.

“Ohh god did I just receive the Special Petros' handmade chocolate?” I said while teasing him. I kissed him on his cheeks. No one has ever made this much effort for me.

“Sorry, Jane for yesterday’s incident. I should have been more careful---”, his tone was filled with disappointment and guilt.

“No Petros. Don't be sorry and it was my fault. You did your best. You could have done nothing in that situation”, I said to him. He nodded after listening to my words with a faint smile on his face.

“So Mr.Soon-to-be Supermodel, call me whenever you come to the city”, I cheerfully said to him. It made him smile.

“Yes of course. Who will miss a chance to meet such a beauty”, he said with a smirk and suddenly we both flinch on our spots because of the loud noise of the door closing, from the car. I didn’t need to turn around to see who did that. He started the car and it was a warning for me to sit in the car or he is going to leave me.

“I think I should leave now,” I said bye to him while sitting in the car. I closed the door and turned toward the devil. He was clenching the steering wheel tightly. I could see that his knuckles were turning white. I rolled my eyes in annoyance. He started driving while muttering something under his breath. I ignored him while opening the chocolate box to pick one piece and I ate it. The smooth chocolate melted in my mouth urging me to moan.

Wow!! Petros should stop aspiring to be a

model and instead become a chef. They are so good that I am lost for words. I couldn’t help myself from picking another piece and moaning like before when the chocolate melted in my mouth. Zanvil growled. After repeating my action for the third time, I looked at him. He was still gripping the steering wheel tightly but he was looking at me with darkness in his eyes. On seeing his face, I immediately averted my gaze from him and swallowed hard. I remembered our time in the kitchen when he had poured chocolate on me.

My memories caused something to happen in my stomach. I closed the box and kept it aside.

What if he stops the car and does something to me? See this is one of the reasons why I don't want to be with him alone. My thoughts were eating me. It's better if I sleep, only then the

unwanted things won't come into my mind. I was not able to sleep because I had enough of it on the previous night. I surfed on my social networking sites and while doing that, I don't know when did I fall asleep We were stuck in the traffic when I opened my eyes for a minute, and then again I drifted off to sleep.

The next morning I woke up in Zanvil's bed. How did I come here? I was not wearing my clothes from yesterday but one of the Zanvil's T-shirts. Immediately I looked under my shirt. I was wearing my undergarments. I sigh in relief but my fingers curled in a fist. Again he had

touched me without my consent. I freshened up and went down.

“Good morning Jane”, the aunt said to me.

“Good morning au---mom”, I said to her trying not to call her aunty. Aunt smiled at my slip of the tongue.

“When did we come home last night?”, I

asked her.

“We reached late because there was massive traffic. You were sleeping when we reached and Zanvil didn't want to disturb your sleep, so he carried you to the bed last night. Ohhh it was so nice to see my son taking care of my daughter so nicely. It was so romantic”, she beamed with happiness. Her words made me spill water out of my mouth when she said the R-word.

“Are you ok?”, aunt asked me with a worried expression. I nodded my head.

Nice-- care-- Yeah right. He only wants to show them that he is a nice husband and what he did was way away from the R-word. Maybe he wanted to talk with his girlfriend so he didn’t want me to disturb him. That's might be the reason why he let me sleep. He must have gone to meet her since he is not in the house.

“I'll go and get some breakfast for you, and I completely forgot to tell you that he went to the office to do some important pending work”, she said after looking at my face.

Does she know what I’m thinking? I nodded my head. After two days I will be joining the office too. I ate my breakfast and went to my old room. When I tried opening it, it was locked. Only one person can do this. I saw Rose passing by. I called her and asked, “Where is the key to my room.”

“Zanvil sir had instructed us yesterday that we should lock the room and hand him the keys”, she replied to me.

“OK you can go”, I said to her. He knew this was going to happen, that's why he told them to do this. I was burning in anger.

Now I will have to stay in his suffocating room. I went to his room and took my book which I left in the middle. After some time I heard the notification tone from my phone.

'Did you have your breakfast?

Does it matter to him?

I did not reply to him.

Is your knee still hurting?'

Again I received a message after some time.

As if he cares. What is his problem doesn't he have work to do. Again I ignored his message.

I won't talk to him.

'Why the hell are you not replying to me back? Stop your childish behavior and reply to me back.'

You know what I must have done.

Again I got a message from him.

'You wait till I come back home. You are going to regret ignoring me.'

I swallowed hard after reading it.

What does he mean? Did he fight with his girlfriend and that's why he wants to take out his anger on me? Thinking of this girlfriend made my blood boil like anything. I kept my cell phone aside. I won't reply.

The day went in a blur. He came home late while I was sleeping. Thank god I was sleeping.

The next day too he went early and came back late. It seemed like he never came home but I knew he came home every night because, in my sleep, I felt him moving me on his chest. Aunt told me that he has tons of work left to do because of my uncle's sudden health issues.

Aunt always loved giving me an update about him. I felt bad for him.

Is he even eating his food properly? He gets always gets sick when he skips his meal. Why are you worried about him?

Remember you have to stay away from him. If you feel bad for him it will only make things for you. You should feel nothing for him. I sigh due to the uneasiness that I was feeling for the past two days. You feeling like that may be because you didn't get to see him for two days. I shook my head in decline. I need to stop thinking about him. Tomorrow is going to be my first day at the office, I should think about it. In the evening, Nina came home.

“So have you decided what you are going to wear tomorrow?”, she asked me.

“No”, I said without lifting my head from the book which I was reading. I was on the Interesting part.

“Then come let's go and choose a dress for you”, she said while dragging me upstairs. I was thinking of wearing trousers, but she told me that I

needed to wear a pencil skirt or something. We finally decided after choosing for half an hour. She was going to stay for dinner. After dinner, I again got engrossed in my book while she was talking with mom and dad. I stood to go to the room to take some rest.

“Zan! you are home early today,” I heard mom's cheerful voice. My body went stiff. I immediately looked at him and regret my decision. He was staring at me all this time. There was anger in his eyes. I dragged my eyes back to the book because I was too afraid to lift my eyes again. Today he again messaged me but I ignored all of them.

“Do you want to eat dinner?”, mom asked him.

“No,” he said in a cold voice. And then he went upstairs. I let go of my breath out but In a second my phone screen blinked. Again I got a message from him.

'Come to our room now.'

While reading it I could hear his deep voice commanding me. Our that room is ours. I felt something in my stomach when I read that word. For me, it was always his room. What should I do? Should I wait till he sleeps and then goes up? I don't want to go to the lion's den when he is awake and ready to eat his prey. God, I can't even go to my room. I was out of my thoughts when Rose called my name. I lifted my head to see her.

“Huh?”, I said while looking at her.

“Sir has asked for you”, she said with a smile. I swallowed hard and nodded my head. I was still debating with myself. I don't know how much time has passed. Nina and mom were again engrossed in talking.

“Jane”, I heard a deep intimating voice calling me. I looked at that person. He was standing there with a clenched jaw. Anger was all over his face. My face lost its color.

“Didn't Rose tell you that I was calling you?” he yelled in anger. Nina and the aunt looked at us with their shocked

faces because of his sudden outburst. He held my wrist in a tight grip and started taking me towards his room. My body was moving like a robot with stiffness in every muscle of mine.

“Zan---,” I tried to stop him but he was beyond pissed. He shoved me in his room and locked it. My body stumbled to get its balance. We had some distance between us.

“Why the hell were you not replying to me?” he asked in a dangerous bone-shivering voice and he started moving in my direction. I gulped and took one step back. In a second he was in front of me. I tried to take one more step away from him but it ended. My back crashed with the wall. He was beyond angry. I was not able to speak because of a lump forming in my throat. It was making it hard for me to speak.

“I'm. Asking. You. Something. Answer. Me”, he said dangerously, pausing after each word. “You don't want to reply…. You don't want to fucking talk to me…. You don't fucking want to stay with me in the same room”, he yelled and the next thing I know he punches the wall beside my face. I flinch at his sudden outburst. I was looking at him with fear written all over my face. My eyes widened due to sudden shock. His face was showing anger and I could see the tiredness in his eyes. He was exhausted.

“Let things be as you want,” he said with a clenched jaw, and in the blink of seconds, he again punched the wall. His hand started bleeding. He is taking out his anger by punching the wall. Seeing his bleeding hand my heart dropped to my stomach. Seeing my face he smirked.

“Happy?”, he said without any emotions in his voice and again he punched the wall. He thinks that after seeing him like this, I will be happy.

“Z--anvil s--stop it”, I said while taking hold of his arm.

“No, you can't stop me until it is permanently fitted in your brain. You can't avoid me. You can't ignore me. You can't make me deprived of you. You can't refuse me”, he said in anger and he snatched his hand from my hold and punched the wall again. The pain was written on his face. But as stubborn as he is, he won't stop until I give in. He knows that I can't see him in pain. My tears started flowing. I

hugged him tightly to stop him from harming himself.

“S--stop it Zanvil. S--stop it. I won't do that again”, I said in a breaking and sobbing voice to convince him of that. My tears were continuously flowing from my eyes. He pulled my body away from him.

Looking in my eyes he said, “Prove it then.” His dark sea-colored eyes were boring in me to find a hint of me going back. My eyes widened in fear. Without wasting a second he pinned my one hand to the wall and his other hand encircled my waist bringing my body nearer to him, and then he kissed me without giving me a single chance to breathe. He bites my lip asking for my submission and I give in. If I refuse him he will again harm himself.

After kissing me hungrily he moved his lips to my neck and he couldn't go any further because of my shirt.

Growling in annoyance he ripped my shirt making the buttons ripping sound echo in the room. Making my eyes widened more in fear. I went weak in my knees. I would have fallen for sure if he wasn’t holding my body. He slides my shirt off from my shoulder. His lips descended my neck. Leaving wet kisses all over my neck and shoulder. He wants me to prove to him that I won't refuse him. My body started trembling in fear. If I back out now, then there are chances that he will harm himself again. He won't positively take this rejection looking at how he is acting now. He is being possessive all over me again.

He can see me in pain, but I can't.

My heart pains when I see him like that. My fingers curled in a fist when his lips touched my skin where he had left his marks earlier. I was breathing heavily. I bite my lips to stop myself from crying out aloud. Tears rolled down my cheeks. I have no other choice left. I can't see him harming himself anymore. His hand is bleeding very badly and if he punches the

wall again with that hand, he for sure will need stitches on it and if I refuse him now then he will go insane. I know how stubborn he is. He won't even get stitches on his hand if I refuse him.

I am left with only one choice…

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