Chapter thirty two
Lenarya's p. o. v
He has a mate ?... I could hear Nemesis contemplating and trying to understand and process the information of our mate having a mate who apparently wasn't us ?........ I couldn't stand being near him anymore. I felt so betrayed. ........ as if he had cheated me and ripped my soul out of my body. I needed fresh air, I just needed to breathe air that wasn't contaminated with his scent. I was about to get off the bed when zeus wrapped his arms around my waist so I was trapped in his arms with my back laying on his chest.
"Is that why you thought i wasn't your mate, is it because you already have one ..... what are we? Are you cheating on her with me ? Is she the Luna you were talking about, are you cheating on me with her , am I a homewrecker, am I even your mate? " I asked Zeus as I tried to get out of his grip. ...... tears flooded my face as questions came to my brain.
" Sweetheart calm down, am not cheating on you or anyone , am just trying to open up to you please give me a chance to explain, you promised me you won't run away from me so please keep your promise. ..... ok love?" Zeus said as I slowly started to settle down in his arms.
It was silent for a while before I decided to ask " so...... this mate of yours is she the reason you don't believe that you are my mate ? is she the r-resion you don't want me... is she the reason for all this?"
"Yes..."after he said that i tried to get out of his arms when he immediately said " I mean no ... ummm can you just give me time to explain and don't call her my mate . Don't say that I don't believe that I am your mate. ....... i know i once didn't believe you but that was against my better judgement, so please let me explain ok?. "
I nodded my head and waited for him to continue . He cleared his throat and said " Veronica became the lunar of my pack . Everything was good between us but the pack was experiencing a lot of rouge attacks so i was busy sorting that out most of the time . One day i went out to patrol one of our borders when I was informed of a rouge attack in the pack house, i rushed there and i was met with her lifeless dead body. ............ I was crushed, I became feral, I went on a killing spree and my hate for rouges grew more and more each day "
Am.... sorry... i said to him as i wiped his tears but he stopped me and continued talking " everyone thought i would go crazy or commite suicide , my parents tried to talk to me but i was closed off to everyone. My wolf was gone for three days and in those three days I didn't know how to feel or act since I didn't feel the pain I had felt when I felt the death of my mate the first time . I just felt nothing, not even a little pain , all I felt was that maybe I wasn't meant to have a mate, I also felt guilty for not feeling the same excruciating pain I had felt years ago . After my wolf came back i went back to living my life as usual, i didn't mourn her death and i didn't seek revenge against her killer , i just lived my life like normal, I went back to being the cruel and cold monster i was before I met her even though some people may argue that i became worse . In all honesty if the rouges hadn't killed her i would have done it myself "
What! I looked at him with shock and bewilderment as I tried to process what he said. I thought you said you loved her .... does that mean you want to kill me too ? Are you that heartless? I asked him with tears in my eyes. I harshly leaped off the bed and stood up when he rushed to where I was and stopped as I was heading for the door. I glared at him and said " zeus why are you telling me this. ... do you want to kill me too or are you going to leave me to be killed by rouges too.....?
"Lenarya stop saying things like that, you know i would never do something like that to you... i would die for you , heck i would kill myself before I even thought of hurting you again please believe me " he pleaded with me but I just couldn't believe him , i was scared of him at this point the distant memories of him hurting me were still haunting me . "What's stopping you from thinking that way, if you could think of killing a woman you claimed was your mate... what's stopping you from wanting to kill me when you have repeatedly rejected me being your mate . How am I supposed to believe you when you have already tried to kill me ! What makes me so different huh.... Zeus what makes me so special , what is it tha-..........." AM IN LOVE WITH YOU. ..... OK! THERE I SAID IT ...... AM DEEPLY AND UTTERLY IN LOVE WITH YOU..." to say i was shocked when he screamed at me would be an understatement but to say i was shocked as to what it was he said to me would be a whole other story......
We just stood there in the dark in silence looking into each other's eyes , shock was evident in my face as I was still trying to make sure that I heard him right. I was beginning to think I imagined the whole thing when he pressed on the bridge of his nose in frustration and said "GODDAMMIT. ...... LENARYA SAY SOMETHING. ..... I MEAN I KNOW THAT YOU DON'T FEEL THE SAME WAY I DO , but please say something at least sit down so i can explain the whole situation to you. We don't have to talk about ourselves....... i know you would never love me after the way i treated you when we first met. ... i just couldn't hold it in any longer, i have been trying to suppress my feelings for you for a very long time, i just didn't think before I spoke. I didn't mean to make the situation awkward between us. "
I still didn't say anything. I just sat down on the edge of the bed and waited for him to explain. .......... he is in love with us ? Nemesis kept asking me but I just sat there still shocked. ....