Chapter thirty one
Lenarya's p. o. v
Am now laying on my bed , thinking about how connected i felt to him when we shared fantasies about each other when I was having my "alone time" i don't know why i didn't start "evaluating " my body a long time ago. I wonder if I would feel such pleasure if we ever knew....."do it " are we really not sleeping with a mate today?
"I know that It is weird for us to be sleeping in different rooms, but I can't exactly face him right now, so please bear with me" I said to Nemesis as I tried to better position myself on the bed. I smelt him before I heard him slowly open and close my door and tiptoe all the way towards the bed.
I decided to play sleeping beauty and pretend to be asleep when he got under the covers and cuddled with me . He ran his hands through my hair as he pulled me closer and sensually whispered in my ear saying " sweetheart....... i know that you are awake, so open those beautiful eyes of yours"
I opened my eyes and looked at him as blush covered my face. I didn't know what to say so i asked him what the elders wanted to talk about and his answer made the blush on my face redden even more as he said " I just ended up not being able to attend the meeting , i was a little occupied with some rather overwhelming urges brought upon me by a sexy vixen of a woman "
The darkening of his eyes made me even more embarrassed especially since he had a seductive smirk on his face. I covered my face with my hands as his laugh filled the room. I just wanted the bed to swallow me whole. " hey..... am joking love you don't have to be embarrassed by it, its natural. . . . . . I mean. .. I've done it a couple of times..... there is a limit to the number of cold showers you can make me get before I lose it...... so i completely understand, you don't have to be ashamed of it ..... I personally quite liked it" Zeus said as he slowly removed my hands from my face.
I really felt better after he addressed the big elephant in the room but i still wasn't comfortable with talking about it so i just nodded my head and snuggled closer to him.
" Lenarya. .... they are things that I want to get off my chest about my past... so i was hoping that you and i could continue our talk from the other night " Zeus suddenly said and i only replied with "sure.... we can talk, i still don't like you calling me that... i mean it sounds good and all but it just seems foreign when coming from you since you never call me that"
He brushed a strand of my hair away from my face and looked me in the eye before saying " well.... ummm. ... my queen i firstly want to ask you to please be open minded about this. .... i really want you to understand the complexity of my denial when it came to me accepting you as my mate even though none of it excuses the unspeakable and unforgettable things i did to you so please just listen to me and only comment when am done ok love? "
I nodded my head and gave him a soft smile so as to encourage him a bit. He took a deep breath and said " as you already know, i had become cold and ruthless when i had believed that my mate had died so you might have some understanding as to how i felt when ever i saw mated couples showing affection for one another, which resulted in me hoping and wishing that maybe everyone was wrong and i did have a mate ..... so you can imagine how i felt when i was sitting in my office one day doing pack business and my mates scent filled the room. ..... i was on cloud nine at that point ...... her name was Veronica and she was beautiful, kind , intelligent and compassionate. She made my impossible made possible and so i treated her like an egg , i gave her everything she wanted, i was glued to her as I wanted to make sure it was not a dream and she was real. I loved her with all my heart , I gave her every inch of my soul and zane also loved her . she was my saving grace "
Hearing the words coming out of his mouth shattered me , they left me shook, shocked and confused..... tears rolled down my eyes as I slowly released myself from him . I looked at my hands so he couldn't see my tears, i bit my lip to stop any sound from leaving my mouth so he doesn't hear my cry and i gently shuffled my body body away from him as many scenarios passed through my head as to who Veronica was and if he was cheating on her with me and most importantly how can she be his mate when i am his mate......... ?