Chapter 68 Chapter 68: Darius’s regret
Chapter 68: Darius’s regret
Vishiea’s POV
I wiped my tears and looked at him.
“I did fight for you, Vishiea. I did everything I could,” he uttered, trying to convince me. I watched him as he messed up his hair.
I bit my bottom lip as I tried not to cry.
“You did? How?” I asked him. He wiped his tears. It’s been years, yet I haven’t known what exactly happened to him as we both separated our ways.
“I love you so much that I even wanted to disobey my father. I tried to find another way, but he’s too powerful and can do anything to harm you, and I can’t let that happen, Vishiea. I’d rather die than knowing you were killed. I was too weak and dumb. I let him control me, but he can never do that to me again,” he uttered. His eyes look like he never went to proper sleep.
“Did you know what I’ve been through all of those years?” I asked him. He shook his head. I bit my bottom lip while the memories of the past flashed back.
“I thought you actually loved me. But then I saw you with Rachelle. You broke up with me, and my mom died on that day,” I started. I know he heard that, but he didn’t even do something to comfort me or explain to me about what I had seen that day.
Instead, he just let me go that easily.
“Vishiea…” he uttered my name, but I only shook my head. I just want him to know how I fought back all the pain he gave me.
“After that, my dad was taken into the execution. He was falsely accused by your father for something he didn’t do. His head was cut off in front of me. I begged you and everyone that day, but no one ever showed mercy. No one ever helped me. Until the king decided to exile me because there’s no reason for me to stay in the kingdom after all you rejected me as your mate,” I told him. I could see the regrets in his eyes, but it’s too late.
I closed my fist as I remembered that day. He never let out a single word.
“And you know what happened after I was exiled? I wandered outside the kingdom, far from your place. No one ever accepted me as they heard what happened. I tried to ask for help, but no one was willing to offer. Until that night, I was walking alone in a dark place. Two men tried to rape me, kill me…” tears started to stream down my cheeks and it’s hard to stop it.
My life sucked that time. I almost gave up.
“I– I don’t know, Vishiea, I am sorry. It’s my fucking fault,” he started blaming himself. Yet I stayed still.
“I fought for my life. I was badly hurt, but I managed to save myself, I managed to survive. That wasn’t a coincidence because someone tried to kill me. I am not dumb not to realize it,” I told him. He was silent after he learned the truth.
I concur everything that happened to me before without his help. I lived without him.
“Until I met Mother Kiara. She adopted me, treated me as her own daughter. If it weren’t because of her, maybe I would be dead,” I told him. The rain kept on pouring. I wiped my tears. He finally knows what happened to me.
I finally told him about everything. Now it’s time for me to ask him.
“I’m sorry, Vishiea. Fuck! It’s all my fault. Please forgive me for everything. I was too dumb,” he uttered. I shook my head.
“Darius, I did everything to survive even though I always kept on asking myself. Why did you suddenly treat me like trash? Why did you cheat on me? How could you endure seeing me in pain while you were there enjoying your life?” I said while pointing at him.
I just can’t help but ask him these questions.
“When I was gone, were you happy?” I asked him. He shook his head immediately. He held my hand. He’s cold.
“I never felt happy, Vishiea. When you were gone, I feel like my whole life has no sense,” he answered. I chuckled sarcastically. How could he say that?
“No, you enjoyed your life, Darius. You enjoyed being with Rachelle when I was gone. You didn’t even dare to find me. You were busy fulfilling Rachelle’s demands. Don’t lie to me,” I told him. I could see it. He also enjoyed his life without me. Maybe he loves me, but I would believe him if he fought for me—but he didn’t.
“I did hire people to look for you, Vishiea. I spent the whole year trying to find you, but not even a single piece of information I got. I was so devastated thinking you were already dead. It didn’t take too long when Dad passed the throne to me, and I used that opportunity to search for you. There were no days I missed looking for you,” he explained. But why didn’t I feel he did that?
“Stop lying, Darius. You were in the palace with your fiancée. Now tell me, if you don’t love Rachelle, why did you propose to her? Stop lying that you love me. Maybe you actually did, but that was before, and today’s different,” I said, trying to tell him things he couldn’t see.
Maybe he doesn’t actually love me now. He’s only guilty because of what he did to me before, and that’s different.
“I am not lying, Vishiea. I love you. Please… please… give me another chance to prove myself to you. Give me another chance to show you how much I love you,” he said, begging.
I shook my head. I can’t give him the chance he wanted. I can’t forgive him now. I still have doubts in my heart and mind. But I am relieved that I told him all the pain in my heart.
“Darius, it’s hard to give another chance… It’s hard to forgive that easily. Besides, you’re no longer my mate,” I told him. He shook his head and tried to approach me, but I stopped him.
“We’re no longer connected to each other, Darius. And if… if you actually accept it, maybe one day I’ll forgive you.”