Day 13 – The tears of a Friend
“Are you serious Jano? It seems you too were okay”
The old man said.
“Ahm, Actually sir there’s a lot of unexpectedly happened in just 12 days, and I don’t know if I can handle it next time.”
I explained.
“But how about Fred, Have you tried to talk to him about this?”
“Uhm Not yet sir, but I tried to talk to him before I leave.”
I said, I don’t know but I guess this is the right thing to do.
“Okay Jano, What ever happened between you and my son, I’m really sorry about that, if you were fully decided I guess I don’t have anything can do about it.”
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I sighed.
“Hey Jano!”
I look at the guy who called me, It’s Giro, I’m with him here at the rooftop here in the main building, and I can see Fred at the ground standing there for about an Hour.
“I said, if it’s okay to you, you can stay in my unit if you like, I had an extra room for you”
I feel like I’m too much! Yes It’s hurt what he said on me, but still he’s out of control and I know he didn’t said that on a purpose.
“Do you like him?”
I came back in my mind when I heard Giro.
Do I like him?
I don’t know.
Do I like him or not? Or maybe I’m scared to accept it because of what I saw.
“Are you alright?”
I look back giro again.
“Wha-what? Ye-yeah I can do that”
I don’t know but I just give an answer to him.
“Do you want me to walk you home?”
I didn’t response at him. I don’t see Fred anymore on the ground, maybe Louie convinced him to get home.
I turned back and get down on the stairs.
Giro’s Point of View
I know that Jano are confused these days and I’m sure that he’s in love with Fred.
It’s hurt right? To see the person you like slowly falling in love with your cousin, maybe if I’m just a stranger I would take this as advantage to get closer with him.
But I had my final decision, maybe this the right time to make up with Fred, to forgive and to be forgiven.
Maybe you’re thinking how our relationships turned like this, and it’s because of Jonas.
If you’re thinking that I’m in love with Jonas before, Hell no! I’m not gay like Fred who would fall in a man, but now I’m actually confused, when I met Jano.
Jonas had feelings on me, and I tried to stop Fred for courting him because everything went upside down when Fred’s is not around, Jonas tried to kiss me many time, He even forced me to be with him, but everything gets worst when Fred see Jonas in my unit and trying to had sex with me.
But Fred misunderstood it, he gets mad at me and focused to Jonas, he thinks that I’m the one who had feelings for Jonas, Fred is so immature.
“Have you been in Relationships before?”
I look at Jano walking besides me, we’re here at the village and I’m walking him home.
“Ye-yes why?”
I confusedly said. He looks serious and I don’t know what’s in his mind.
“How could you be together? And how do you split with them?”
He curiously asks, He just walking straight and staring at the road.
I just smiled and look at far away.
“I’ve been in relationships on lots of Girls before, but I’m the one who break their hearts”
“Why?”
“Simply because, I don’t love them anymore, you don’t have to make it long if you knew that it wasn’t stay for long, If you don’t loved them just give their freedom, they deserve a much better guy. You don’t have to fool them and at the same time fool yourself”
He stops for a while so I stop too.
“Have you fallen in love?”
I look at him when I heard it.
“Yes.”
I shortly said.
“How do you know when you love a person?”
“If you couldn’t sleep at night”
I said seriously, he seems confused because he stops for a while to think about it.
“Is it loved if you just couldn’t sleep at night?”
I just smiled at him and continue speak
“If you couldn’t sleep at night because you keep thinking about him”
I’m staring at his eyes, and I know I’m not the one who he’s thinking of.
“If you keep looking at him”
I can see that he’s not looking at me.
“If you were happy if he’s around you”
I know I’m not that person.
“If you don’t know why do you like to be with him?”
“If your heart beats so fast when he’s closer to you”
For some reason I felt sadness and pain, but still I gave him a smile, a bitter smile.
It’s really hard to start a war if you already knew that the both party can’t stood up without each other.
“And lastly, when you feel comfortable and safe every time you hugged him”
I look away from him “Oh! That’s the house, I had to go”
I said then quickly turned back.
I walk straight and didn’t turned my head, I don’t know but It’s hurt, Why? Because I know that I don’t have a chance, because I know they loved each other.
I just walked faster while my heads were down, I don’t want anyone to see me like this.
I’m very confused, I don’t know why I’m like this, it was my first time to cry and unexpectedly because of the guy.
I think I wouldn’t fell into guys when it’s not Jano.
I really like him.