DAY 12 - Resignation

Jano’s Point of View

Today is Wednesday and it’s been a week since the class started. We went on a camp on Saturday and Sunday, and there’s a lot of unexpectedly event that happened on me. In just 12 days, I met a guy who loves to play with anyone, a guy who tried to seduced me and play along with my feelings, I met a guy who doesn’t care of anything but to make fun on me, and in just 12 days I fell in love with him. Maybe it’s not wrong to accuse me a bitch slut, maybe he just said it based on the way he sees me.

It’s already 12 pm in the afternoon and I don’t have a plan to go at school, its fine if he deducted my salary, besides I don’t want to work here anymore.

It seems like Fred wasn’t here, maybe he’s on his way to school, I didn’t hear anything from the living room so I decided to go down. I look first at Fred’s door and get down at the stairs.

I just cooked for the lunch even if it’s late, I decided to eat in my room but apparently I feel someone’s presence in my back, and I guess its Fred.

I look at him in my peripheral vision and he’s getting water on the fridge.

I didn’t look at him straight and just get my plates to go up stairs. But apparently I lost him in my peripheral vision and maybe he went back to his room.

But when I turned around I bump on his chest. He just wearing his boxers and doesn’t have any clothes.

“Eat here!”

He commanded on me, so I quickly sit down, I don’t want to look at him in the eye so I keep look down just to avoid him, I don’t want to make an argue with him because I didn’t know if I can hold myself.

He sat on my opposite so maybe he just wants to eat also.

Tss he didn’t cooked for himself?

The ambiance here are too frustrating, it’s very awkward here and I can’t move my self comfortably.

I started to eat so I could finish first but every time I put my spoon on my mouth he always add a spoon of his food in my plates, how irritating right?

I started to feel some strange in my chest and it’s very annoying! How could I stop my feelings for him?

I tried to glance at him for a second but it took a minute on his eyes.

He’s staring at me seriously.

I heard my heart bouncing like a ball, it keeps beating so fast and I’m not comfortable with it.

“Eat a lot so you could gain more weight”

He’s voice were too husky I don’t know but he seems cried a lot.

I noticed his corner of his lips and there’s a bit of cut. I don’t know where did he get that, but he just bite it like he’s hiding it, He moves away his eyes like he’s ashamed.

I just continued my food and get up on my room.

I really don’t want to see him, because every time I’m looking at him, I feel like I can forgive him easily.

It’s annoyed me and it’s too hard to get angry! Why?

Fred’s Point of View

Tsk, I’ve been waiting here in the living area for almost 30 minutes and we’re running late, tsk tsk I went up in his room to check him out but I was surprised when Jano wasn’t here.

I quickly get the car and drive as fast as I can, Tss I didn’t know he went at school by himself, It’s been two days when we had a fight, I don’t know what’s happened to me on that morning, I feel like I wasn’t in my mind, especially when I saw giro carrying Jano on his back, I couldn’t help myself to think properly.

I didn’t mean to say that to him, I just can’t stop myself to say what’s on my mind, plus he doesn’t even make an excuse, I’ll trusted him and I would believed him if he said that I was wrong.

I admitted I am wrong, I waited him yesterday for the whole time but he doesn’t went down on his room, I’m quite worried too since he doesn’t have a dinner last night, He just only eat on the lunch when we eat together, Tss It’s very regretful, I hope I confronted him at the lunch, I didn’t know that I wouldn’t see him last night and this morning.

I really, really want to make up with him, I’m just too afraid of losing him. I just want to say sorry because of what I’ve done, I also didn’t meant to kissed Jean, I really thought that It was Jano but I was shocked when I saw him at her back.

And I just want to know if he had feelings on me so I kissed Jean again to confirm it, but suddenly everything went worst!

I even got a punch with Jean for the second time and Jean is just my friend besides she’s not into boys so I thought it was fine to use her.

I’m on my way when I got a call and I thought it was Jano but its Jonas.

Tss I don’t want to hear anything from him, we’re done after all, He left me a long time ago and that’s it, that’s the end for us I found my happiness now and I want to start with Jano.

It’s Thursday and I was late so I have to stay here in the outside of the class room, I really hate that Professor since she doesn’t want you to get inside once you were late, even in just a couple of minute. Tss what a nonsense rule by her.

I saw Jano on his seat together with Louie and Giro.

Oh! Jano please talk to me!

I’m here in front of the Door but suddenly when the bell rang most of the student went out to his door, I couldn’t move out in here because of the bunch of students racing to each other tss What an Uneducated student doesn’t had a discipline.

I saw Louie appeared on my face asking nonsense on me.

“Are you in hurry?”

Yes jerk so get out tss.

I saw Giro and Jano went out on the back door, Tss what the fuck? Where did they open that door?

I saw their back keep moving away from my sight, until I didn’t see him.

“Bro! Just talk to him later”

Louie said when he noticed that I was looking for Jano.

“Well I guess so”

I sighed then wait for a bit to get these fucking students out here.

But Unexpectedly I received a call from my dad.

I was furious when I heard him scolding me, I don’t know but everything went black, my mood changed fast and I didn’t know what am I suppose to do.

“Hey! What happened, are you okay?”

I just look at him and he act like he doesn’t want to put himself on this.

“Okay fine! Fine! Just chill bro.”

Louie said while his hands were up.

I didn’t care even there’s a student was standing in front on me! I just walked and pushed away everything and whoever is in my way.

I need to talk to Jano. NOW!

“Ouch!”

“Hey! Are you dumb??”

“Fuck! Are you blind?”

I turned my self to them and glared, but they quickly move out when they see me.

“Tss”

“Bro! Calm down”

I heard Louie muttering on me.

I quickly went on the cafeteria and I saw Jano sitting besides on Giro.

I found my self dragging him out of there while holding his wrist.

“Wait! I-It’s hurt!”

I stopped then turned around, I came back on my mind when I saw him in pain, and I slowly release his hand and come back to my mind.

Why Jano?

**

“What the Hell are you doing? Don’t you know anything right to do? C’mon Fred! Fix your self! There is Jano watching you all around, but what did you do? That was the last thing I can do for you, Stand up by yourself and I don’t want to brag you anymore! He’s resigning and I don’t have a plan to find a person to accompany you! You already 21 so be matured!”

**

I feel like my energy drained, He’s standing in front of me confusedly.

“I- Ah – Ahmm I-Is it true tha-that you’re leaving?”

I don’t know but my tongue like inserting in, I couldn’t speak well and my voices are shaking.

He moves his eyes away from me, and nodded.

Everything break down when he nodded, is that it? It’s just a simple mistake and it’s a misunderstanding, why does he get that far!

Is that a big deal on him?

“Bu-but Amm I-I”

I can’t speak properly like I’m eating my words.

“I contacted my grandfather’s attorney to have the last will of my grandpa, and besides I already talk to your father and he agreed on me”

He said but he couldn’t look at in my eyes directly.

He’s lying! I know that.

“Amm I guess I should had move out on your house by this Monday”

He continued.

I’m speechless and I don’t know what I have to say, should I beg to him? Get down on my knees? Please him?

“Jano let’s go”

I saw Giro on his back!

Tss what a perfect timing! Why do he always put himself every time I need a time to fix everything.

“O-Okay! That’s sounds good, At least there’s no one could interrupted me every time I’m with a girl.”

I don’t know but it spill out on my mouth, I feel like they stepping my pride, I don’t know maybe because I can’t forget what I saw on that midnight. Especially looking at Giro’s face! It’s disgusting!

I saw Jano sniffed.

“Ra-right! Yo-you don’t have to worry anymore”

He directly said on me!

Tss Are he serious? Is it okay to him?

“Fine! I should be free again, you know It was like there’s something on my neck, I couldn’t move myself freely in my own house”

I strangely said.

“Stop it! C’mon Jano, lets go”

Giro interrupted us and He grabs Jano’s hand and walk across to me.

I couldn’t look at his eyes, I don’t know, I feel like my tears could come out anytime.

I feel his other hands touching on my hand.

‘Hold it Fred’ I said to my mind but I just let it go.

Then the next thing happened, my tears can’t hold it back and flows on my face.

‘Please get back Jano, I’m still waiting’

It took me an hour here standing where I was but still he didn’t get back.