DAY 10 – HOPIA

[AN: In Filipino Hopia is a kind of pastry, It could also the same with the macaroon of Korea I guess (Based on what I watched), or a favourite food of Doraemon, we commonly used it as a word euphemism which is sounds like HOPING.]

I was in my room and I can’t stop my self thinking about what happened earlier.

I was like a rolling pin here, trying to roll both sides.

Aist! Really, Jano what’s happened to you? What do you care if he kissed Fred on the lips? Besides you saw Fred kissing two girls and take note! It’s not just a smack! It was more like French kissed! So what are you thinking of? It’s just a smack on the lips!

Don’t be affected on that, do you have class by tomorrow and it’s already 3 am in the morning! MY GHAD JANO!

I think I’m going crazy! Seriously? Talking to my self? Huh!

I cover my self with my comforter and keep rolling like a rolling pin

“ARG! SHIT!”

I shouted after a minute of silence.

“Who is that fucking Jonas? And why did he Kissed FRED? Haist! I’m so disappointed! FUCK!”

I said loudly, I don’t care if there’s someone who heard me! I just want to relieve my stress, if I am allowed to shout here! I shouted earlier!

I keep my self rolling in my bed, hoping that I can get asleep but I wasn’t.

Rolling at the Left

Rolling at the Right

Rolling at the left

Rolling at the.. Of Fuck! I’m dead!

*BLAG*

Yes! That is the sounds of a man fell on the floor.

“ouch!”

It’s almost broke my back! Ouch

I get up when I’m moved on, I feel like I have to drink something to go sleep so I decided to go down in the kitchen.

I gently get out in my room, it seems like Fred is already asleep.

I slowly get down at the stair and looked at the living room if there’s a person. To be honest, I really don’t know what am I fell like I was cheated by him?

Before I completely go at the kitchen, I’ll assure it if he’s in the kitchen, so I look it up.

“Who are you looking at?”

A whispered came out in my ears

So I answered it

“I’m just checking if Fre... Oh! Fred!”

I quickly turned back when I realized its Fred on my back!

“Oh! It’s you sir!”

I embarrassedly said, seriously he caught me on the act! Tsk tks. I feel like I’m failed on investigating something!

He sweetly smile at me.

“Why do you still up?”

He said like He’s concerned on me, I feel something strange inside of me, I don’t but he’s tone quite different than before.

He’s like asking me like an angle? A deep concerned voice in a lower tone with his eye’s shimmering! Just like of that.

“Am—I-I just amm, nothing! I couldn’t sleep at all! You sir? Why you still up?”

He smiled me again and go straight at the kitchen.

“I told you! You don’t have to call me sir!”

He simply said then opens the fridge and gets a glass of water.

“Sorry- I just amm, I’m not to used it!”

I explained

He also gives me a glass of water.

“Me too, I can’t sleep”

He said then He sat on the chair.

I sit on the chair too. I was thinking if I could ask him thereason why he can’t sleep? I don’t know but I had my instinct.

“Is it because of that Guy?”

I said straight to him

I didn’t expect him to response but I saw his smile were bitter.

“mmm Maybe? Maybe that’s the other one”

He said then smiles at me again.

To be frank! I don’t like he’s smile, He seems bothered at all, and I couldn’t say if it is a real smile or not!

“... And the other one is...”

He continues, I look at him straight like it’s like to hear something special, but it turned out into a fancy mode, like everything went into silence and I couldn’t hear anything. I just seeing his beautiful faces, he’s so attractive I swear. Now I am admitted that Freds looks are no Joke! He could catch any girls by his staring at them.

“I missed something” He sweetly said and winked.

I feel a something current inside of me, funning up into my blood, it’s getting hot here and I think I’m blushing!

I turned my face at the other sides and I couldn’t hold my self by staring at him, the fuck! What’s happening to me? Why am I like this? What’s this feeling?”

“I-I think I have to go first!”

I feel like I’m tense, so I stand up then walk.

“Don’t!”

He holds my hand to stop me and sweetly said that to me.

My heart beats fast and fast, maybe I need to see a doctor because of this, I feel like I had heart decease.

“You’re too young!”

He added. I stop thinking something because of that. I feel like it’s kind of..

The Fuck!

“psh. Talk to your self!”

I said and I quickly pulled my hands. I realized he’s lines, that

“Don’t... You’re too young!”

It means, “Don’t go first [first to die] you’re too young”

Aits He ruined my mood!

I”m heading in my room and I’m about to step up in the stairs When he grabbed my arms

Everything went slow motion and He pulled my arms to turn me back and faces him.

I saw his eyes were sincere.

And the next thing happens. He put his arms around my waste and tightly hugged me.

“SO-sorry! I don’t know but I feel like I have to say sorry! Maybe because I just want it to say? I’m sorry! I really, really am sorry! So just please! Accept my apologized like you just want it too."

He sincerely said while hugging me tight.

I couldn’t move my self, everything went stop because in our position, I only hear my beats. And it’s freaking fast. Why is this? Should I really need to see a doctor? I’m not joking!

We took a minute in that position, He’s just keep silence, it seems like he would like to charge his energy from me? He seems tired at all and at the same time stress.

I’m trying so hard to hold my breath, because of this fucking heart I couldn’t breathe properly.

He gently removes his arms on me.

“I can’t sleep maybe because...”

He said in a naughty way.

The fuck? Seriously? Is he have some of sort Dissociative Identity Disorder? He quickly changes his mood. He just likes an angle a while ago, a romantic guy, and now he acts like a maniac!

Is he had an alter ego?

“... Because of this”

Then he looks at his down. I followed him and look down, and I noticed that he only wears boxers while his freaking HARD!

My eyes became open and I was like turning into red again! I quickly look up to his face and he smirked at me.

I couldn’t help my self and I want to run now! But he just holds shoulder to remain standing in front of him.

Sheez! What’s happening to me? I can’t move my feet!

He starting to get closer to me, I saw his red lips coming into my face

The fuck! What’s with me? Why is my body did not responding at all? It’s like my automatic body were off! Why is that?

Then he slowly moves his head coming to my face.

Fuck!

I don’t know but I don’t have a choice just to close my eyes!

Yeah! I closed my eyes.

Like I’m waiting?

The fuck Jano? What’s with you?

Any second his lips is touching mine, I feel his breath coming to my face so I guess it’s almost an Inch!

I smell his fucking good damn breath, it’s mint and fuck! He’s coming!

Then

“Goodnight!”

Then that’s it! Everything went in normal and I feel like I was the only one who is standing here alone.

I opened my eyes and yeah! I’m right! I was standing here alone, he just walk up and leave me alone like this!

What was that? Is that it?

Seriously?

I thought!

ARG!

I was ashamed of that! So I walk up to my room and slammed it.

I hate him! Arg!