RUSSO EL MASSIMO
'Keep it in check, Russo. Keep your anger in check. Hold it back.'
"Fuck!!"
'This is just stupid' 'I am regretting this' those words were haunting my head right now. I could hear it being repeated over and over again and no amount of me trying to push it out of my head was working.
Caramia was regretting US.
I was so furious at the moment. I hated the pain that seemed to come from my chest, I hated how angry I was. Our relationship was stupid?! Us fucking was stupid?! It should have never been?!
Why the fuck should we never have been?! We were fucking perfect together!
Fuck! I should have known better.
"You called for me, boss" the door opened and Matteo walked in.
"Ensure no press releases any news of any scandals about me or Rosaline. And the Rick guy, monitor his social media accounts. If he makes an attempt to reveal something there, have it taken down immediately and let me know about it." I ordered.
"Yes, boss. But may I ask a question?"
"If that question won't drive me more furious than I already am."
"Why not just kill this Rick? He is clearly a bother to you."
I ran my fingers through my hair.
"Just get to the damn task, Matteo" I gritted my teeth.
"Yes boss" was his response and in a few seconds, I was left alone.
What the hell was Rosaline doing right now? Running after that guy? Trying to talk things through with him?
My head ached almost unbearably. She wanted me and I fucking wanted so what...
'I am regretting this' the words repeated in my head again. Different emotions were going through my head at the moment and none felt good or close to being good.
What the fuck was it about me being her darned uncle?! Uncle! Uncle! Fuck being an uncle! Did she see me as an uncle when we fucked? Did she see me as an uncle when I kissed her? Did she see me as an uncle when she admitted how much she fucking wanted me?!!
ROSALINE
"Rick" I called his name softly as I stepped into his living room.
I could feel my palms getting sweaty and my heart pounding. I had let myself into his home since I knew the passcode to opening his home.
"Rick" I called again, not making a move to go to his room. I just felt too heart wrenched.
"You are here" I heard his voice and I lowered my gaze to the floor. Of course, he had been expecting me. He knew I was going to come running to plead with him.
I looked at him as he walked towards me, the look of disappointment clearly imprinted on his face. I felt tongue tied as he sat down, away from me.
"What do you have to say?" Rick had never sounded so cold to me before.
"Rick, what you saw earlier isn't..."
"Isn't what I thought it was?" He cut me off.
"Oh,c'mon Rosaline. What I saw was very clear. Perhaps if the both of you had pulled away from each other, I would have thought my brain made up that scene but no, you were right there and your... Your fucking uncle was touching you, Rosa! He didn't stop in front of me!" Rick groaned, his voice hard.
"Rick, I am... I am really sorry" I moved towards him and sat beside him.
I grabbed his hand in mine but he shook my hand off.
"Don't touch me, Rosaline"
"Rick" I called softly, feeling tears gather in my eyes. I had disappointed Rick so much and this was going to be very scandalous if it ever got out. What was I thinking about when I started fucking Russo? What was I thinking?! There's no good ending to this. There can't be a good ending to it. Yet it was my stupid body and my heart now slowly joining in the stupidity.
"What exactly were you thinking of, Rosaline?! That man is your uncle! How can you ever have something to do with him?! How?!"
"I am sorry" I shut my eyes and tears rolled down.
"I am really sorry. I just... I just got lost and overwhelmed by... By everything"
"By what exactly? What exactly was going on that you couldn't come to me about? What exactly happened to push you into the arms of your uncle?"
"It's... It started that night at the club. It wasn't my intention, I swear..."
"That night?" Rick thought for a few seconds.
"The night you were drugged?"
I could only nod in response this time.
"So you... You didn't get off on your own? Your... Mr. Massimo helped you?!"
"It just happened so fast that night and it wasn't.. it wasn't my fault, it was the drugs but after that, I just could not... I could not get it out of my head and I let the lust take control of me. I am really sorry, Rick. I know... I know I have disappointed you" the tears were pouring down non stop as I spoke.
Keeping this secret was good for the both of us, actually. It would keep the secret a secret and it would also keep Rick alive
"Rosa, no" Rick groaned and took my hand this time.
"I am really sorry. Everything just happened so fast and before I knew it, I couldn't stop anymore"
"Can I ask a question?" Rick asked.
"Y-yes" my word was a sniffle with the nodding of my head.
"How many times did it happen? The sex? How many times? Once? Twice?"
I stared at him blankly. For as much as I knew, I had lost count.
"I..." I lowered my gaze, the tears blinding my vision.
"I don't know" I cried.
"It's..."
I looked at Rick's face. He was clearly angry and was struggling to say the words.
"It's okay" he let the word out and pulled me into a warm hug.
"It's okay. I know.... I know it isn't your fault. He definitely deceived you into this! He definitely toyed with your innocence and made you do this...."
"No, Rick" it was stupid of me but even right now I wanted to defend Russo.
I pulled away from the hug to look at his face.
"It... He didn't deceive me into this. We... I don't know how to say this. It really just happened between us. He didn't deceive me into this, trust me..."
"No, Rosa. You would never get into a relationship with that man on your own. I..." Rick shut his eyes and groaned.
"Hell! I hate him! I hate that man!" He opened his eyes and looked at me.
"Don't tell me it's not just fault, Rosa. That will make me want to hate you too" the words were said very quietly and I felt my heart hurt. Rick was going to hate me. Was this his the whole world was going to hate me if this came out?
"It is not your fault" he held my shoulders.
"You were simply a victim of his tricks"
I wasn't a victim, I knew that. I was well aware of everything that happened and I had consented to everything.
"But that isn't going to be the case anymore." Rick added and I held his hands.
"Please keep this a secret" I begged him. That was the main purpose of me being here.
"This would ruin me, Rick and it would ruin Russo too and not just him, it would ruin the company too. It would ruin everything. Please keep it a secret for me, please" I begged and Rick looked away from me.
"I was really hurt, Rosa. I... It's hard for me to get that image out of my head. It's so..."
"I am sorry, Rick" I said in a pleading tone and he looked back at me.
"I will keep this a secret but what happened earlier will be the end of everything between you and Mr. Massimo. No more.... No more sex between the both of you. It can't go on any longer."
He was right. What happened today had made me realize that this was meant to end anyways and the best thing was to end it peacefully without a scandal. The longer it went on, the more people would know about it no matter how well hidden it was. Ending it now and saving us from the scandal was the best option there was.
I said going to agree to Rick's words instantly but memories flashed through my head. Memories of moments Russo and I spent together.
More tears gathered as I recalled all those memories, the hot moments, the sweet moments and even the silly ones. I... I felt more for Russo than I would ever ever admit now or in the future.
But it was time to face reality and put an end to this delusion.
I brushed my tears away and forced out a smile at Rick.
"Yes, it won't go on any longer, Rick. This. Is. The. End."