" Keith?!"
" I have to go." He says to Joe, his eyes glancing up at me for a second before rushing out of the house.
I sigh, sitting down on the step and looking at the door as if he'll come right back in.
This is how it's been since yesterday, after Mrs Davies came by to take Bella back to Riley, accompanied by Keith, surprisingly. He never once spoke to me after he returned. He simply distanced himself from me and today is no different.
It's like we are back to how things were, and I can't blame it on anyone else but me.
I messed things up.
He overheard me talking to Bella, finally finding out my true feelings for him and now that he knows, I bet he doesn't want anything to do with me. How could I be so stupid as to not close the door?
I'm afraid that I've even lost the remaining thing I have with Keith and that's our new found friendship.
"Do you want to do anything today?" Joe asks me, standing at the bottom of the stairs.
Sighing, I nod, rising to my feet.
" Would you take me to the bookshop, please?"
He nods, his brows scrunched up. As curious as he is about my mood, without another word he walks ahead of me, leading me out to the car.
Just a day before yesterday I was bubbling with happiness, feeling giddy and in love. Things seemed right and were starting to look up. And now, today, it's as if those few moments of happiness don't even count. I can't explain this but it's like I'm always receiving temporary happiness.
Book after book I see but my mind is not here. I keep on contemplating whether I should approach Keith about yesterday or not. I'm in love with him and I can't hide it, he consumes my every being, my heart belongs to him and him alone.
Though I might be scared, I need to tell him how I feel. I don't want us to divorce. If telling him might be the reason for him to not go ahead with the divorce, then I will do it.
Standing right in one of the aisles, I'm sure of myself, that I want to confess. Yesterday might not have been the ideal way for him to find out, but today I want to fix that.
I need him to see, feel and hear the love I have for him.
"Yes I'll do it."
"Do what?" My head snaps towards Joey, who's standing close.
" I'm going to tell him tonight." All he does is stare at me for a while before he closes the distance and pulls me into his arms.
"So you don't think I'm being stupid?"
" I'm proud of you." He says before stepping back.
" I'm scared but I'm going to do it, I want him to know." I say, feeling sure of myself now.
"So is that why you've been in such a mood?"
"I was not in any mood." I deny, walking along the aisle.
"Really, because you've been sulking the whole trip here."
" I just had a lot in my mind, but now things are clear and I'm determined." I divert to another topic. The most important thing.
" So how do you plan on doing it?"
I stop moving , my face blank.
" I haven't thought that far." I mumble , moving out of the way for a fellow customer.
" I just need him home early tonight. I want no disturbance or interruption. I want us alone."
He stares at me, a small smile on his face." So you're really doing it?"
" Yes, I am." I breathe out.
Preparation has been made, everything is set up for tonight and all I'm doing is waiting for him. I'm waiting once again, for the last time.
Tonight determines what my future will hold. I'm finally doing it, I've been silent for so long, watching things unfold in front of my eyes and remain in the background. I'm a woman in love and I'm about to express all that's been within.
I wanted things to be perfect and so I had some help from Joey, Mrs Davies and Alex, who would be informing us on their arrival. I'm nervous of course but I'm hopeful that tonight will have a good turn out. Something good will happen.
Rejection is also another thing I'm wary about, he might do so and not reciprocate my love but at least, I would have been honest about how I feel.
"They are ten minutes away." Joey says, appearing at my door.
"Okay." I breathe out, nodding.
He nods before walking away. I walk over to close the door and hurriedly get into my dress and shoes, doing the finishing touches on myself before I get to meet him downstairs. Gosh he'll finally be here.
Taking a much needed breath, I look myself in the mirror, mentally giving myself a much needed boost of confidence, for what I'm about to do.

"Okay, I can do this." I tell myself before walking out of my room.
Right on the last step, I take a much needed breath and excitedly go on to the living room where Keith will meet me.
I enter into the living room, where Joey and Mrs Davies are present. For some reason, there's some tension in the air. I stop by the doorframe, frowning as their backs face me ,their focus is elsewhere. That's when I hear it, the TV is on and the mention of Keith's name has me perking up.
Keith's on the news?
As if he senses me here, Joey turns around, his eyes on mine and for some unknown reason, nerves shoot up my arms at the concern in his eyes.
" Mam." My eyes snap to Mrs Davies, who nervously avoids my gaze.
What is going on here?
I step further into the room, the TV coming into view as a sighing Joey steps aside for me to see.
My heart sinks down to my knees at the sight of Keith's lips, locked with none other then Elena's.
'Like we predicted, the Keith Salvatore, the handsome multimillionaire who's had ladies vying for him. Wait for it....One lucky lady has finally captured the heart of Mr Salvatore.' One journalist says.
'Yes, if you remember..our sources have spotted Mr Salvatore in the company of a blonde head mysterious woman. Now the mystery has been uncovered and we now have learned that she's none other then Elena Mathews. Julie Salvatore's God daughter. Also model and socialite.' Another journalist says.
' They are rather cute aren't they?' The first journalist says..
' Yes they are.' The TV is switched off and my head snaps to Joey, who throws the remote on the couch.
" He'll be here soon." He tells me.
Taking a breath, I nod, my eyes on his.
"Please excuse me." I say, walking over to take a seat on the couch.
Both leave me alone, Joey's eyes lingering on me before walking off.
Like I had said earlier, today is the day where my future will be determined. I can't really think or can even point out what my feelings are right now. All I know is that I am waiting for Keith Salvatore. Once again.
The car pulls up outside and soon I hear the door opening.
His footsteps sound near, almost like they are running until they stop.
" Kea." He breathes out.
My eyes automatically close, head down. Opening them again, I look up at him just as he opens his mouth to speak, only to close it when our eyes connect.
I slowly rise to my feet, my eyes unmoving.
" Kea." I hold up my hand to silence him.
" Keith, does it mean anything to you?" I don't even need to explain further, he knows what I'm talking about.
" Kea what you saw- ." My hand goes up again.
"Does it mean anything to you?" I repeat.
"No, it means nothing to me."
My heart hammers hard against my chest, when I ask the next question." And me, what do I mean to you?"
"Everything." He steps into the living room, his eyes unmoving.
Here goes nothing.
Taking a much needed breath with word of not going back, after this.
"Standing here Keith, I am a woman in love. I'm in love with my husband, my heart beats for him and I'm willing to stand with him if -" I'm cut off when in long stride, he is in front of me and his lips slam onto mine.
I immediately melt into the kiss, putting all emotion into it, just as much as he does.
We soon come up for air, breathing hard. Forehead against forehead. Eyes closed.
"Goddammit I'm in love with you too." He breathes out.