Broken heart

No no no no no this is not true.

This is not happening, that can't be it.

He will never do that me, he can't. He just can't

I broke into sobs and started crying like someone close to me was dying, and this fucking hurts

This is not possible. He will never do that to me.

He loves me.

I sat on the floor, clenching the paper in a tight grip and cried my heart out.

I heard someone's breath being hitched. And a gasp

I looked up to see the love of my life, looking at me in a broken condition and his face held pain, hurt, sorrow and guilt?

I stood up and hugged him and cried my heart out

I clenched his shirt in my palm "tell me its not true, tell me its just a joke, tell me its not you" I kept mumbling, my throat felt dry and was about to burst out with the amount of pressure

He didn't hug me back. He just stood there

I looked up to see his face and tears were running down his face. His eyes were red, his breath was coming out heavy

I cried even more and started hitting his chest

Again and again and again

I just kept punching his chest and he didn't even flinch, he was letting me hit him like he deserve it

"Tell me" I yelled in his face but he looked down, ashamed

I broke down and fell on the floor on my knees.

"I love you Tyler " I whispered crying, my eyes burn and my heart hurts.

He just sobbed silently.

After a minute I composed myself and stood in front of him, rubbing off the remaining tears but they just kept flowing.

"How long?" I asked looking dead in his eyes.

He looked sad but didn't answer

"How long is she?" I yelled so loud that the walls vibrated

"Two months" he whispered not meeting my eyes

I slapped him so hard that his face turned red and my fingerprints were starting to show up.

I broke down again.

I feel heart broken, I feel hurt, I feel betrayed.

"Why? Why? Why?" I yelled hitting his chest.

He didn't say anything just stood there.

"You betrayed me, I loved you" I yelled he stood ther clenching his chest where his heart was.

Both of us crying

He lost the person he once loved

And me?

I lost my everything, my happiness, my love, my heart, my soul and my future

My happily ever after

"I was so stupid to think that I can finally be happy" I yelled stepping away from him

He looked broken but I was shattered

"I was stupid to think that I will have a family with you" I whispered crying

I inhaled and stood straight looking at him.

"I stupid to think you were only mine and I was stupid to think you could ever love me." I said tears running down my face

I pushed him and ran out his room.

I was a mess, than why not? I just lost my chance to ever have a normal life.

A life where I will have a loving husband, beautiful house with a garden and two beautiful children.

It will only be a dream now, only a vision which will never be true because it's too happy to ever be mine

"What the hell" Alex said when he saw me running out of Tyler's house.

Casper opened his arms and I ran into him and he held me tight. I cried and cried and cried on him and he rubbed my back.

"I'm gonna kill him" Alex yelled furiously and made a move to go to him and beat the shit out of him.

I held his wrist and stopped him "I just wanna go home" I pleaded.

He looked broken looking at me, he feels my pain and pulled me into him and hugged me

I broke down into him and he kept rubbing my back

"Please"I mumbled into his chest.

He looked at Casper and nodded. Casper  nodded back and opened the back door for us.

Alex scooped me up in the back seat with him holding me like a baby. I kept my head on his shoulder, I felt drained and helpless and empty

Casper got into drivers seat and drove back, I snuggled more into Alex trying to find comfort and trying to fill the hole in my chest but it's not possible.

It's not his place, that place belongs to someone that will never be mine.

Someone who broke me beyond repair.

As soon as we reached the apartment I ran to Spencer's apartment

Spencer opened the door smiling but her smile turned upside down.

She hugged me tight and rubbed my back, I just couldn't hug her back.

I just can't.

I don't have the strength

She pulled away from me and I ran to my room and locked my door.

I jumped on my bed and buried my face in the pillow

There was something hard underneath the pillow. I pulled it out and it was a photo.

Which made me cry harder.

It was me and Tyler smiling at the camera where I was kissin his cheek and he was grinning like an idiot.

We looked like a couple, we looked in love.

Something  which will only be in the photo.