Chapter 97 : "Once Again"

T A T E

Harry groans as I hear him shifting on top of my bed just next to me. I was facing my back to him while his arm was loosely wrapping around me. He slowly pulls me in as I felt him pressing his self against my body which felt great. I was happy having him here again. I mean waking up so early in the morning having him here just makes everything feels okay. It feels like nothing even happened and us just continued.

All of a sudden I felt him kissing the back of my head and it just makes me smile. It maybe just a simple gesture but it shows love. It shows that he still loves me so much despite the shit stuff that happened all these months. And I am so happy just being like this with him. I feel so grateful because he's here and he's just here.

"I love you Tate." He speaks to me softly. 

He tightly wraps his arm around me just a little bit quick and it really makes my heart flutter even ten thousand times happier than it already is. I just kept smiling at myself feeling enlightened and I totally look like an idiot right now but God knows how extremely glad I am that everything is going well again between me and Harry. And this time, I am not letting anyone come in between what I have with him anymore. This time I am readier than ready to fight for my love for him like how I know he would fight his great love for me.

I slowly turn to face him and he seemed surprised that I was already up. He smiled groggily before he plants a kiss on top of my forehead. His mop of chestnut curls looked messy but it was hella sexy to look at early in the morning. His eyelids looked like he was still sleepy but it made him look even more adorable.

"Hey.. You're up." He speaks softly.

Gosh even in the early morning his breath still smells like mint. I swear to god. And I am indeed savoring this moment because it's been so long since I lay on top of a bed next to him being all naked together.

Hell, I fucking missed this.

"Good morning pretty." He smirks.

"Morning babe." I kissed his lips quickly.

He moans when I pulled myself back as I felt his hand rubbing over my hip. We're just looking at each other but I was just admiring everything about him. It was like the first time I've had sex with Harry but this time I'm observing his face while he's awake. His brows crinkles at his glabella while he kept smirking at me adorably.

"Why are you looking at me like that?" He asks.

"I just...." I giggle. "I just miss this. I miss having you here. I miss everything we'd used to do. I miss you." I say and paused for a while because his Emerald eyes caught my attention.

"I really missed you Harry." I say breathlessly then I softly laughed. "Every time I look at you, I see the mistakes that I've caused you. I see the pain that I've done which hurt you. And every time I think about it, God it just makes me feel so mad about myself for actually leaving you."

"Tate." He stops me by cupping my cheek. "I have been mad at you for what you did. I was totally mad that I did some bad things too."

My brows creasing. "How bad? Indonesia kind of bad?" I worriedly asked.

"I... Well... Kind of." He chuckles dryly.

He sighs.

"But I wanted to get rid of you in my mind. And I gotta be honest that I tried to see other women these past few months just to get you out of my head but it's no use. As always because every time I wake up in the morning having the hangover from last night, I know for myself that... I'm not okay." Harry answers.

He breathes. "I'm not okay because a part of me has been ripped out from my chest because the people around me didn't wanted you to be seen being with me. Everyone around me was against it but I didn't bother about it. They made a big deal about it causing us to doubt each other."

I exhale heavily through my mouth and I just like my tears building behind my eyelids again and it's just too early to cry.

"It was because of me why you left Tate. I hated myself for that." He adds.

I shake my head. "No. Harry it wasn't."

"Tate. It was." He snaps at me. "And I couldn't do anything about it. And you were right, I was absentmindedly self-destructing but the only thing is that I didn't care what my future was gonna be. I didn't care if people will be hating on me for leaving the band or if I'd run out of money because I wasn't famous anymore. I only thought about being with you."

"Harry..." I muffled.

I sigh. "You've done so much for me. You were almost willing to sacrifice everything and I was so so so so stupid for not fighting with you. I left you. I gave up on you. I was such a coward. I messed up. I fucked up everything and I hurt you... Terribly."

I weakly smiled at him. "I don't want you to hate yourself just because of what I've done."

He grabs the back of my neck and planted his lips on my forehead. I held onto his shoulders and just let his lips kiss me for a while. When he pulled himself away, he just calmly smiled at me and said, "Right now we're leaving that chapter behind. It just made us stronger okay?"

I nod.

"And it's way too early for this drama." He chuckles as I join him in laughing.

He wipes my tears and kisses my lips for a while. Then as he released me he said, "I love you and that's what will matter most forever."

I smile at him as I bite my lower lip. "I love you too Harry. I love you. I love you. I love YOU."

He chuckles. "I knew that. You were the first one who fell in love with me." He smirk.

I dropped my jaws down. "Oh you're being so smug right now."

Harry briefly bites his lower lip before he throws his head back and laughed. "But it's true though. You were the first one who fell in love with me." He repeats again.

"Well it just means you won't be getting rid of me that easily anymore." I smile.

He suddenly pulled me in making me squeal. Our bodies now pressed against each other as I look up to him and he looks down at me with that sexy devilish smile plastered on his face.

"I wasn't planning on getting rid of you like ever." Harry licks his lips.

For a while, we made out and just kissed. I felt his tongue inside my mouth and just played with mine. His hands were busy touching and rubbing me, making me even more horny. My own hands were even touching him too that I didn't know where it were going.

I gasped the second he inserted two fingers inside of me. "Fuck.." I moaned.

We kissed again as he shifts himself above me. Our kiss grows even deeper while his fingers were pulling in and out of mine. I was also busy stroking his now growing length as I moan a bit louder in his mouth once he rubbed my nub at the same time he was fingering me.

"Oh sweetheart you're already so wet so early in the morning." He laughs sexily which made me smile but also made me feel hotter.

I slowly felt him going inside of me making me moan against his plump lips. Once he settled himself inside, we begin to kiss again while he starts to pull himself out of me. Repeatedly. I know he wasn't stopping as he starts to gain his speed. But fuck I love it so much when he goes fast and hardcore on me. It's as if I can't feel my own legs when he's pounding on me.

I gasped. "Oh... My god."

I clawed onto his shoulders and just closed my eyes as I felt his large length pulling in and out continuously. I hear Harry groan and it's always gonna be the sexiest thing I will hear aside from his laugh. I was arching my body up from the mattress while I held onto his bicep.

As soon as I opened my eyes, I see him heading straight to my breasts. He opens his mouth and ran his tongue all over my nipple. It makes me whimper as I feel so much pleasure around my legs. He begins to suck on my nipple and at the same time licking it. I tug his hair back and just watched him do his thing to me.

After about an hour and thirty minutes or probably two hours, we laid next to each other with my head over his chest. I was running my forefinger over his leafy tattoo above his hips and just felt him rubbing my back.

"What time is it?" I ask him.

"Just turned seven AM." He answers.

I pulled my head up and rested my chin over the back of my hand that was above his chest.

"How are we gonna tell your parents that we're back together?" I ask him.

He looks back at me calmly.

"I mean, I'm sure they hated me for leaving you and gosh... Your sister. I bet Gemma is so mad at me. I swear, I think she'll curse me for life if she'll know about this and--"

"Hey.." He cuts me off. "Why are you having deep thoughts so early in the morning?"

I sigh as I look at him. I knew he was joking but he knows too damn well that I'm nervous to be seeing them after what happened. I know he's just making me feel okay but it can't be helped what I feel inside.

"Whatever my folks are gonna say and whatever or however Gemma is going to react to this, we'll face this." He tells me.

"Together." He adds.

I smile weakly at him.

"I'm still mad at you." I say to him.

He quickly furrowed his brows. "What did I do?"

"You and Kendall being in that huge-ass boat together with her mom and your mom. And some of your... Friends." I looked away and pouted. I just hate thinking whenever he's being with Kendall. It scares the living hell out of me.

"And those leaked photos of you being together from your mom's hacked iCloud account? Oh god. I swear to god I cried for about three weeks for that. No make that four." I added.

He chuckles under his throat. "Three weeks? Really?" He's making fun of me, I know.

I playfully hit his chest. "I'm being serious."

He laughs again. "Okay. Okay. I'm sorry for laughing and making fun of you. I love you."

Harry cups both of my cheeks. "That was one of the things I told you of being how sorry I was."

He sighs and releases my face. "Look, I accepted that boating with Kendall and her family because of two things."

I arch an eyebrow at him. "Two?"

"Yes. Two. First, the management, of course, wanted me to do it for publicity stunt. As usual. Nothing new. I think they even wanted to trigger you for that act. Sorry if I participated."

"And the second one?"

"Well..." He scratches his hair and briefly bit his laker lip. "He-he. I wanted to make you jealous so you'd hit me up again. But it didn't work out because you never texted or called me. I cursed myself for even doing it because it made me think that I hinted you that I moved on."

He sighs. "Liam warned me about not doing it."

I scoff. "Well you sure did make me so jealous of that boating thing with Kendall. Thank you." I said sarcastically. "But wow. I can't believe you were going to give me a payback and that huge. Unbelievable. I didn't know you'd be that kind of man. Didn't see that one coming."

"But it's okay now." He sweetly cooed and smiled. "I said my apologies to you and I know it was a very bad thing to do. I'm sorry again for even participating. But that was my opportunity to sign contract with Jeff. That same day, I already signed contract with him and I was so happy for it."

I smiled at him and of course it makes me happy too that he's now out of contract from that life-ruiner management who does wickedly awful things to destroy people's lives.

"So..." I trailed off. "What now?" I ask him.

"Well..." He clicks his tongue. "We're going to make things official between us."

I chuckle. "We are officially together."

"No. I meant us being together in front of everyone." He says seriously.

"Everyone?" I repeated.

He nods. "Yeah. Everyone."

"Wha-what about your fans?" I stutter.

"If they really love me and they really support me and my happiness, they can learn to accept and love back the woman that makes me the happiest in the world." He answers.

I giggle.

"I will be here to protect you with everything that I am capable of and everything I have. I won't let anyone hurt you." He kisses my forehead.