Chapter 85 : "Cardiff"

T A T E

I was merely excited to tour around Cardiff really quick before the boys' concert will start. I wanted to see what was around the place and how badly I wanted to take photos. As much as I wanted Monique to be here, she can't because she just give birth. Romano was driving me around the city, while Harry and the other lads had a sound check at Millennium Stadium. 

I ate at some restaurant, bought some coffee and some foods for me and Romano. I bought ice cream too. I took a lot of photos and selfies but I really wanted to do these with Harry. As much as I wanted to watch him do their sound check, he said it was better if I wasn't there because there'll be staff from the management. He doesn't wanna everything to ruin my good mood.

I walked around the streets and thankfully not much people noticed me. I have been spotted with Harry and the lads arriving the airport a while ago and I think the cap and the sunglasses kind of helped with my disguise. I really wanted to be with Harry and do things together with him but then eventually his fans will loathe me for the rest of my life for being spotted with their boybander.

"Ready to go back, Miss Tate?" Romano asked as soon as I climb back inside the car.

I nod.

"The concert will start in three hours. Harry called me up to drive you back to the hotel so you can prepare before I drive you to the stadium." He adds.

"Oh. Okay."

When I reached the hotel, I quickly went up to our suite and rushed to the bathroom. I took a bath again since I've been out under the sun since I came here and I don't want to smell sweaty with him. I grabbed some of my clothes, put them on me and pampered myself with a little make up and fixed my hair.

My phone suddenly beeps on top of the drawer and I quickly grabbed it.

Harry calling...

"Hey sweetheart." I caved in.

"Looks like you were enjoying Cardiff too much huh?" He answers me with a chuckle.

I laugh softly. "I was. In case you were wondering, I didn't maxed up your credit card. I didn't go shopping. I just bought a few foods for me and Romano so your card is safe."

He groans. "I told you to get anything you wanted. That card has no limit anyways."

"Harry I came here not to shop but to enjoy the views and sceneries with you. And the foods too." I answer him.

Harry sighs. "I'm sorry if I wasn't with you today. I promise to go with you tomorrow and the next days."

I smile.

"Are you ready? I've been waiting for you here at the stadium." He informs.

"I just finished, actually. I'm stepping out of the hotel and Romano will drive me there."

"Good. I will see you when you arrive. Sam will welcome you from the main entrance."

"Okay. I'll see you."

"I love you."

It still makes me cringe. "I love you too."

I rushed out of the room and climbed into the car while Romano drove me to the stadium. As soon as we arrived, I walked up to the main entrance and hang the VIP pass hang around my neck. Once I spotted Sam, he quickly walked me inside while fans were looking at me. I think they noticed but Sam quickly pulled me away before they'd throw a fit and make a commotion.

Once we entered a hallway far from the thousands of screaming and excited females, I felt ease and tried to breathe normally again.

"Has Harry been waiting?" I ask.

Sam nods. "Yeah. He's here." He knocks on a door, grabs the knob and opens it.

When I stood by the threshold, I see Harry together with Liam, Louis and Niall. They waved at me once they saw me so I invited myself in and Harry welcomed me with a huge hug. I held onto him too as I hear Harry thanking Sam before he shuts the door. Harry releases me and I smiled at him.

"Hey you." I say. "I feel terrible that I haven't seen you for almost a day."

He laughs. "We had a few changes and a lot of vocalizations for the songs. It's hard when Zayn's not here. We have to adjust our parts. And I'm terribly sorry for not being with you today."

"With or without him I know you'll always be the best." I encouraged.

He kisses my temple and laced his arm around my waist, "Let's join the others." He says as we walk together to the other boys.

"Hey Tate!" Louis waves.

"Hey Louis." I say as I hugged him briefly.

"Looking really good tonight." Niall tells me.

I chuckle and hugged him briefly too. "Thank you. The four of you looks so handsome too."

"That's what I love about you Tate. You always seem to boost our ego." Liam chuckles and stands from the couch to hug me as well. "I hope you're ready for tonight's concert." He adds.

"Hell yes." I answer.

I smile at them and joined them on the couch.

"Are you guys nervous?" I ask them.

"I am." Niall admitted. "I've been having cough and colds since yesterday. I just wish I won't mess up tonight."

"Oh cmon, I'm sure you won't." I answer him.

A woman walks inside the room, "Let's all have a final vocalization before we start lads." She instructs right away and placed the papers on her arms down on top of the table.

She stares at me. "Oh. Hello."

I smiled.

"Miss D, this is Tate. She's with me." Harry quickly answered her. "This is the ever greatest Miss Delilah, our vocal coach."

"Hi. It's so nice to meet you." I extended my hand and she thankfully accepts.

"It's so nice to meet you too." She quickly pulled her hand away and turned her attention to them. "Let's all start? Boys? Please?"

They quickly stood from the couch and fixed themselves while I remain seated. Before she started their vocalization, she talked to the lads about some key points for tonight's concert. She reminded them again who's going to sing this part and that part. I watch while Liam begins to vocalize alone and suddenly Niall joins in and sings in second voice. Louis and Harry were still being advised by Miss D as they try to share Zayn's part and they were eager enough to listen.

"God I swear my throat feels so weird." I hear Niall complains.

"You'll be fine, mate." Harry pats his shoulder.

All of a sudden they to harmonize their voices as they began to sing a part of Strong and trust me, if I was an avid fan, I would totally fall in love and roll on the floor listening to them sing together so beautifully. I swear to God, I'm fangirling but I'm not even a fan. They sound so great singing in perfect harmony. Their voices just suits perfectly well with each other. I see Harry closing his eyes as he belts out the high note and I swear he looks so god daaaamn hot.

"Alright. Good work guys. Don't stress yourself out too much. Please? Water. Water. And more water." Miss D advised.

Louis groans. "So hard to hit Zayn's note."

"We'll work it out later. Like we always do." Liam pats Louis' shoulder.

Harry sits back on the couch next to me and rested his hand over my lap. "I'm tensed."

I smiled and cupped his cheek. "Why? You sounded great."

He scoffs. "That wasn't great. We sounded off. Did you hear me go out of tune?"

"You're just nervous." I rub his thigh.

He pushes his hair off his face. "We're scared because nobody can ever hit Zayn's high notes."

He sighs. "Not even me."

I squeeze his hand tighter so he looks back at me. "Then don't try to hit them if you can't. You can always sing it differently. You don't have to be like Zayn." I tell him.

He smiles ruefully. "All fans want to hear a part of Zayn's."

"If you can't do it then don't. You can always be your own man and your own style. The fans will understand." I smile at him as I rub his chin.

Harry plants a kiss on my forehead.  "You always make me feel better."

I kiss his cheek. "And I'm glad I did."

"I love you, Tate."

I briefly kiss his lips.

When the concert started, I was standing along the VIP section. As usual, the concert was filled with so much fun and screaming. Tons and tons of screaming. I think it's even louder than Indonesia. I sing along with some of the band's songs. I sang, danced and threw my hands in the air. I was a diehard fan of my own boyfriend and it was a crazy-ass concert.

As for Harry, he was just being his self. There was more dancing, running, singing, screaming, jumping, water spitting, water fighting with the fans, tons of sweating and he was all over the stage, like literally all over the stage. From one corner to the other. It was so crazy because he looked so hyper and very wild. He was having fun, I could tell. It's plastered on his face. I see his sweat on his white shirt, I can even see his nipples from here and his tattoos too.

He was panting, trying to catch his own breath while he was waving to the fans and blowing them kisses. He was also busy reading placards and talked to a few fans but he was also making sure that he didn't leave me out. He was throwing me thumbs up and kept asking me if I was okay, and I made him sure that I was.

"We are so happy to be here Cardiff!" Liam screams loudly but the fans were screaming even a bit more louder.

"Thank you very much for having us. We are truly honored. You're all incredible!" Harry waved and bend forward with every thank you.

As soon as the boys started getting off the stage and waved goodbye to their thousands of fans, it was my cue to go backstage and meet my loverboy. I was excited to congratulate him because their concert went really awesome as usual. I hear some girls still screaming and still in awe about the concert. I was then accompanied by Ryan as he walks me backstage.

By the time Ryan led me to a dressing room, I see Harry taking off his wet white shirt. He didn't notice me going in so I sneakily run to him and hugged him from behind. He gasped once he felt me wrapped around him and then glanced at me over his shoulder.

"Tate babe I'm so sweaty." He tells me.

"I told you that when you're sweating you're hot so you don't really have to worry." I answer.

I pulled myself away from him while he spins to look at me. My eyes darted at his oozing with hotness sweaty body. He was even panting.

"You had fun?" He asks.

I nod. "Almost lost my voice out there."

He smiles. "Thank you for being here."

I tiptoed and kissed his cheek. "You were great tonight loverboy."

He grins. "I actually have something for you to hear." He says while he grabs a gray sweatshirt.

I stare at everything that was in the room, as usual Harry has a posh couch, some scented candles and I see a piano from the corner. Harry was heading to it and he takes a seat on the piano chair so I walked my way towards him. He begins to place his finger on top of the keys and started playing a few notes. I watch him as he push his little hair behind his ear before continuing to play. I don't know what he was playing but Im sure that it was probably a song I never heard before.

"You remember that night when your laptop was ruined, you crashed at my place and sort of did your papers there?" He asks.

I nod. "I didn't really finish it. You did."

"I know. But it's not what I came here to talk to you about." He stopped playing and pulled his head up to me.

"Then what?"

He grins. "You typed in a few words from your laptop some phrases that really caught my attention. So I took a photo of it."

"Phrases?" I quizzed.

I watch him reach over the piece of paper before him then hands it to me. My eyes scanned through it and realized that it was a song entitled If I Could Fly. 

"Read the refrain." He instructs.

So my eyes travelled down to that part of the song. "Pay attention I hope that you listen because I let my guard down right now I'm completely defenseless." I recited aloud.

I gasped. "This was..." I trailed off.

Harry just smirks and nods at me.

"Wait. Y-you wrote a song and inserted my words in it?" I asked, in shock.

"You made me write a song about you. About us and what I felt for you through your words." He answers.

I couldn't say anything else because this has been the sweetest thing he has done so far.

"Can you sing it for me?" I ask.

"I wanted to let you hear it first before we include it on the next album."

I smile as he begins to put his long fingers over the keys. Harry begins to play an intro that's so heartrending and started singing.

"If I could fly

I'd be coming right back home to you

I think I might give up everything

Just ask me to..."

As I look at him playing the piano and singing at the same time just makes me even more in love with him. He plays the piano seriously and the song even makes the room feel warmer.

"Pay attention I hope that you listen

because I let my guard down

Right now I'm completely defenseless"

His brows creasing at the center of his forehead while his hands were careful enough to hit the right keys. He glares at me and smiles before singing the chorus.

"For your eyes only

I'll show you my heart

For when you're lonely

And forget who you are

I'm missing half of me

When we're apart

Now you know me

For your eyes only"

I smile and felt my heart swelling with this kind of love song. I don't even know what I should feel right now but I was in tears listening to him. I tried not to let them fall, so I just kept on looking at him while he plays and sings rest of the song. His deep husky voice even makes the song sadder and it kind of pains my heart too. This kind of love song, I don't know when he wrote it but I really felt him, his pain, his longing and his love for me through the music and the lyrics of the beautiful sad love song.

Harry amuses me, in many ways he never sees.

"Know that I'm just wasting time

And I hope that you don't run from me..."

My tears suddenly fell down my cheeks and I didn't even know why I was crying as Harry continued to finish his song. This love song just truly moved me and made me reminisce the things that happened between me and him. I remembered how it felt to stop myself from falling in love with him and remembered how hard it was to forget him and how I felt for him because I thought he couldn't love me. The things that I've been through with him flashes back.

I sit next to him and placed my hand over his hand once he finished the song. Harry looks back at me and wiped my tears right away.

"Why are you crying?" He asks.

"Because I thought about everything we've been through."

He smiles weakly.

"I thought about the pain you caused me, the fights we had, those jealousies you tried to deny to yourself and how you fought with your own heart because you were too scared to admit that you loved me which made you to always push me away." I tell him.

Harry chuckles.

"I love you Harry." I meant that.

He smiles.

"I really love you and I hope people will see what I really feel for you. I hope people won't judge me just because I fell in love with you. But if they doubt on me, I want you to trust me and not them." I continued.

Harry leans forward and kisses my lips for a little while. "I love you too Tate. I don't care about anyone anymore. You make me happy. I'm here. I'll always be here for you." He answers.

He plants a kiss on my forehead and laced his arms around me. So we hug each other.

"I'd give up everything for you." He adds.