Chapter 45
Chapter 45
“Sorry isn’t going to cut it Xander. You hurt me, you ripped my heart out and stomped on it repeatedly! I cried myself to sleep to many nights to count, wondering what was wrong with me and why my mate didn’t want me! And every time I started to feel even the slightest bit better you come around with one of your whores and ruin it!” I exclaimed angrily. I stared into Xander’s eyes and saw the regret but I wasn’t done yet, I was finally getting everything off of my chest.
“I started drifting from my friends and family because I didn’t want to be a disappointment to them just like I was to my mate! And you know what’s the saddest part of it all? That every night I hope and pray that maybe you will change your mind and want me as your mate!” I finished my rant with a single tear falling from my eye. I looked up at Xander to see that he looked extremely guilty. I took a deep breath, trying to calm myself down.
“Celeste I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. I had no idea that that’s how you felt, but you are so far from the truth. You are beautiful and incredible and everything that I could ever want in a mate. When I found out that you were my mate I was shocked, I never thought that I would get you as a mate and I knew that I wasn’t good enough for you.” He paused to take a hold of my hand.
“I was so scared, I was absolutely terrified that I found my mate. I never wanted to find my mate so young and when I found you I panicked! I did the only thing that I knew how to, I pushed you away. I kissed those sluts in front of you because I hoped that it would make you not want me. I figured that if we never got together then I wouldn’t have the chance to screw up and hurt you, to lose you, but I ended up hurting you more then I ever imagined possible. I’m an idiot and if I could I would go back and change what I did but I can’t and I’m so sorry.” Xander finished. I saw tears in his eyes and I knew that he was telling nothing but the truth.
I finally have the reason as to why Xander did what he did but it was nowhere close to what I had thought. I thought that maybe I wasn’t pretty enough, or strong enough, something wrong with me but all along it was Xander, it was him being a scardy cat.
I knew that I shouldn’t have but I couldn’t help it, I burst into a fit of giggles. I laughed and laughed. I laughed all of the stress away and all of the pain. All of my worries seemed to disappear as I laughed. Soon enough I heard Xander start to laugh along with me. I didn’t know my he was laughing but I didn’t really care because it felt good to just laugh together.
After a few minutes we calmed ourselves down and I looked to Xander to see him staring at me with a twinkle in his eyes. I got lost in his brown orbs and I couldn’t seem to find the will power to look away.
“Why were you laughing?” He asked curiously, still maintaining eye contact. I smiled at him before looking away.
“Because that was the dumbest but sweetest excuse I’ve ever heard.” I answered with a giggle. Xander huffed.
“But its the truth.” He muttered. I looked at him to see that he was staring at my bed with a hurt look on his face. My eyes widened and I scooted over to him and gently grabbed his face, bringing his eyes up so they were leveled with mine.
“I know it is, and I’m so happy that you finally told me the truth. And I’m so glad that I have you as a mate.” I finished in a whisper before planting my lips on his. The kiss was short but sweet and when we pulled away I rested my forehead against his.
“Does this mean that I can have a chance at being the mate that you deserve? Am I forgiven?” He asked in a whisper. I sighed and pulled away from him, looking at the wall behind him.
“I don’t know if I’m ready to forgive you, my heart can’t take anymore pain and neither can my wolf.” I answered quietly. Xander put a finger under my chin and brought my eyes back to his.
That’s okay. I’m willing to give you as much time as you need because for you I’d wait forever.” He answered before giving me a light kiss on my lips and standing up. I watched, with his last words ringing in my head, as he walked out of my bedroom door, closing it quietly behind him. Forever. That’s a long time and I know that it’s not going to take me that long to forgive him but its amazing to know that he’s willing to give me as much time as I need to fix my broken heart.
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