Chapter 37
My eyes widened and a thousand thought were running threw my head, sorry for what? For kissing me or for playing with my heart like he has been doing. I sucked in a small breath and shakily released it.
“For what?” I asked quietly. Xander sighed and looked at the ground before bringing his eyes back to mine.
“For everything. For doing what I have been doing to you, for hurting you and being a huge jerk. I- I’m sorry.” He spoke, getting quieter towards the end. I was shocked to say the least. My mind was practically blank and I had no clue what to say. One minute he’s strutting his whores in front of me, purposely trying to hurt me, and the next he’s kissing me and saying that he’s sorry. It just doesn’t make any sense.
Xander…I don’t know what to say. Your going to give me whip flash with your sudden changes of heart.” I spoke seriously. Xander let a small smile make its way onto his face but it soon disappeared and changed to a serious one.
“I know and again I’m sorry. I just, I’m not asking you to forgive me I just want you to know that I’m sorry for hurting you.” He finished. I had opened my mouth to reply but before I could he walked towards me and put a hand to my cheek, silencing me. He looked into my eyes, and as I stared back into his I saw nothing but truthfulness. He slowly leaned towards me, for a moment I thought he was going to kiss me but he didn’t, he slowly pressed his lips against my forehead for a few moment and pulled away. And without another word he walked away.
I watched Xander’s retreating back and sighed frustrated, the boy doesn’t make any sense to me. Suddenly I heard the bell ring and cursed under my breath, late for class again.
I arrived to my last class of the day a few minutes late but the teacher let me off with a warning. I fidgeted in my seat because I could feel Xander’s gaze on my back, and that how the rest of my health class went by, me fidgeting in my seat because I could feel Xander’s eyes.
When the bell finally rang I was the first one out of the seat and I speedily made my way out of the class room. I thought that I heard Xander’s voice from behind me but I couldn’t be sure. When I got out into the parking lot I quickly made my way over to Seth’s car.
Lela and Seth were already at the car waiting for me and when they saw me nearly running to approach the car they gave me questioning looks.
“What’s up with you?” Lela asked as soon as we got into the car. I sighed and ran a hand threw my hair before briefly telling her about what happened between Xander and I.
“Wow. He just doesn’t make any sense.” Lela muttered as she leaned back in her seat. I sighed and nodded my head in agreement. Before the conversation could continue any further Seth stopped outside my house.
“We’ll here we are, I’ll call you later. Bye guys!” I said as I got out of the car.
“Bye!” Seth and Lela both answered before pulling away. I slowly made my way up the driveway and into the house. I dropped my back pack onto the ground and was about to go upstairs when I suddenly decided that I needed somebody to talk to, somebody who could give me some advice, my mom.
I walked towards the kitchen, knowing that mom would be in there, and when I neared it I heard soft humming. As soon as I walked in moms head snapped up and she gave me a large smile before coming over and giving me a hug.
“Hi honey! Did you have a good day at school?” She asked genuinely interested. I let out a long sigh before slowly shaking my head.
“No.” I trailed off slowly. Mom got a concerned look on her face before she sat on the seat next to me and took my hand in hers.
“What happened?” She asked worriedly. I took in a deep breath before explaining everything that happened at school, from the kiss to Xander’s apology, all in detail.
“I just don’t understand, I don’t get him, I don’t know what he wants from me.” I finished quietly putting my head into my hands. I heard my mom get up from her chair and a few moments later I felt her put a hand on my shoulder.
“Come take a walk with me, I think that I have a story that will help you…understand him better.” Mom said slowly. I looked at her confused before getting up from my chair and following her outside. In the backyard we have a huge garden and the woods are right behind it. I followed my mom out towards the woods, we were walking threw the garden for a moment before we approached a stone pathway that lead into the woods, one that I
never even knew existed.
My mouth fell slightly open and I turned towards my mom who had a small smile on her face. I opened my mouth to ask but she beat ine to it.
Lucia Morh is a passionate storyteller who brings emotions to life through her words. When she’s not writing, she finds peace nurturing her garden.