CHAPTER 33
ISHITA POV….
Joshua just left from here? W-what did he just say? Don’t come closer? Stay away? Why he just said these words? Am I that bad that everyone just leaves me alone? I never saw Joshua like this. This is the first time I saw him like this miserable. He looks like I did something with him. Pain, sorrow, hurt, scared and regret….. I saw the regression in his eyes. Did he regret anything regarding marrying me?
“Don’t take stress dear. He must be in some tension due to business. Don’t worry about him.” I came back from my thoughts when Mom gave me a glass of water. Tear escaped from my eyes as I hugged her tightly and started to cry. Cry like a child. Cry in front of my mother. His statement is roaming around in my head and my head is hurting by thinking all these. I broke the hug and look at mom as she is wiping my tears.
“M-mom, am I th-that bad? Why he…. he said that to…me? Am…. I…. that bad? Mo-mom? What did I do that I saw the regret in…. in his…eyes….?” I started to speak in hiccups and she is trying to soothe me by rubbing my back.
“Ish dear, you are thinking too much right now. You are tired. You go to your room and sleep for some time. Don’t take tension of Joshua, he will be fine.” Mom said and I was about to speak when mom stopped me before I say
“Don’t say anything. Just go and sleep. Joshua might be in his office.” She said and I nodded my head. I went inside my room and lay on the bed. I am feeling scared now. I don’t know why he reacted this way but I want him with me right now.
‘I am scared Joshua, please come back. I am feeling lonely here. Please don’t leave me alone.’ I murmured myself and drifted to sleep.
JOSHUA POV…..
I never in my dreams imagined that I will marry my own sibling. Why God, that you have to make her my sister, of all people why her? To whom I loved, I cherished, I married is my own sister. Fuck man Fuck…. Now I am regretting it why I even met her, why I even married her? My head will burst if I think about this more. I saw Ish’s face, she was hurt because I hurt her with my words. I promised her that I will never leave her alone but now I am thinking of my promise which I did was now wrong. Her innocent face is still coming in front of my eyes. Her smile is the purest. She already suffered so much.
I am in a bar right now and drinking. I never came here but today, everything changed. My relation with Ish, my marriage with her, my happiness, my life everything. By thinking all this I finished another glass of whiskey. I am not into these things but…….
“Sir the bar is closed.” One of the waiters informed me.
“No, I…don’t want…to go…home…. I…. I…. wa-want one…more…drink…” I said giving him a glass
“Sir but the bar…”
“Don’t you know who I….. am? If…. I want…I will buy this bar…as well…. Now…. fill my glass” I shouted on him and he filled my glass which I drink in one go.
I don’t know what I am blabbering. I am seeing Ish’s beautiful smile. Why? Why she has to be my sister? Why? I shouted and started to cry. I can’t control myself more.
I paid the bill and came outside. I stopped the cab and told him the address. It’s not safe driving in this situation. I took out my phone and saw Ish pic which is my wallpaper. I started to caress her face in my mobile phone.
“Sir we are here” He said and I gave him 5000 pesos. He was saying something but I waved my hand in front of him and came out from the cab. I am so drunk that I can’t even walk properly. I just drown myself in alcohol so much.
It’s night here but I don’t know what is the exact time. I ring the door-bell and I lean on the wall because I couldn’t stand properly. In a sec the door pushed open and I saw my beautiful lady is standing. She looks worried but I smile.
“Joshua…” She said and I hugged her tight.
“My love Ish…How…are you?” I said by hugging her and then I kissed her on her neck
“Joshua…. what happened to you? Are you drunk?” Ish said and I break the hug. I started to kiss on her whole face and started to laugh.
“Joshua, shhh…everyone is sleeping. Come inside first.” She said and dragged me upstairs.
THIRD PERSON POV…..
“Ish you know how beautiful you look” Joshua said to her while she can’t understand why he drunk this much as no one ever shows him like this. He literally drowns himself in alcohol and anyone can bet that he will not remember when he will get up next morning.
Ish puts his one hand on her shoulder and one hand on his waist and started to take him upstairs. He was blabbering anything which comes in his mind. Ish is struggling to take him upstairs but right now she can’t tell anyone because everyone is sleeping. Isabella took the medicine. It was difficult for Ish to make Isabella sleep as she was also worried for her son.
Ate Rosa tried to wake but Layad needs her so she also went inside her room and Ish was waiting for Joshua because she saw him when he left the house this afternoon and he came home at 2 am. Ish was about to call his P. A. when he heard the door-bell rings.
For now Ish take him inside the room and make him lay on the bed. He was continuously blabbering but then after 2 min he slept. Ish took the deep breath and started to take off his shoes and socks and put his legs on the bed. She took off his blazer anyhow and covered him with quilt. She sits beside Joshua and kissed his forehead as one tear escaped from her eyes.
She is in her thoughts. What could it be that Joshua drink this much? As much as she knows Joshua was in call and then he looked at her and said those hurtful words and went away. With whom he was talking with? Is it related to his mom? She can’t just come in any conclusion without knowing anything.
‘Joshua, please don’t leave me alone. I love you.’ She said holding both of his hands and started to cry.
She has this fear which can’t just vanish in thin air. She has a gut feeling which says that now something bad is about to happen. Something; which Ish is scared the most. Now nothing is going to be the same.
She was thinking all this when she dozed off by hugging him tight. She didn’t get to know what Joshua said in his sleep.
“I love you Ish…but…I regret meeting you. I-I am sorry but…I…. I….” He said this and again slept in deep sleep. Is he regretting marrying her?
NEXT DAY……
THIRD PERSON POV…..
“Ahhh…. my head…. why it is hurting so much?” He said who just open his eyes. He looks at his surroundings. He was in his room. He pressed his forehead and sit on the bed while resting his head on headrest. He rubbed his eyes and started to think what happened yesterday? Why his head is aching this badly? Then he remembers everything which happened yesterday.
Just then he hears the sound of door open and saw Ish is coming inside the room while holding the tray. He looked at her and remembers everything which his Investigator said.
‘Ms. Ishita is the daughter of Ms. Isabella’
‘She is your sister’
‘Ms. Ishita is the fruit of the rape.’
‘Your wife is your sister.’ He started to remember everything and he didn’t get to know when Ishita came close to him.
“Joshua are you okay?” She said to him and then he realizes that he was lost in his thought. When she touched his shoulder he shouted on her
“Don’t you dare to touch me” He shouted and pushed Ishita so hard that she fall on the floor and her forehead hit on the near table. She winced in pain and he gets up from the bed. She turned her face and touched her forehead and saw blood which is oozing from her forehead. He saw this and looks guilty. He didn’t mean to shout on her or pushed her like this but yesterday’s incident started to come in a flash in front of her eyes.
Ishita looked at her fingers where she saw the blood and then she looked at him with teary eyes. She can see the guilt in his eyes but he just stood there and masked on his face.
“Don’t you ever come close to me, ever again. Just please, leave me alone” He said by greeted teeth and closing his eyes. Ish stood up from the floor and come close to him and held his shoulder.
“Why you are doing this josh? What have I done that you are giving me this punishment? Tell me Josh, I promise that If I did something wrong then I will correct it. I promise I won’t repeat my mistake but please don’t leave me alone.” She said while crying and hugged him tight. He just makes the fist and didn’t hug her back. She broke the hug and look at him who is already looking at her. She cupped his face.
“Josh, please tell me what is the problem? I will help you out. I am sure we will solve the problem together.” She said and tears are continuously flowing from her eyes. He is feeling guilty by behaving like this but he didn’t have any option as he already knows the truth.
He holds her hand which was cupping his face gently. She winced in pain when Joshua grabbed her hand roughly. She looked at his face and he can see that she is hurt with his behavior.
“Don’t come closer to me. Alright. I don’t want you to come close. Stay away from me.” He said by gritted teeth and jerk her hands. He went inside the washroom, leaving crying Ish alone.
She never thought that he will do this to her. He promised her that he will never leave her alone no matter what but here he is; saying to not come close to him. Stay away from him. How will she stay away from him? Why always fates play with her? Why everyone has to leave her alone always like this?
She just wanted sweet family, a happy house, loving husband who will accept her with her dark past. Even she gets all but she didn’t get the chance to enjoy her married life.