ALICE?
I was awake whole night as sleep was way farther from me. I was just thinking about Ethan and tears rolled down through my cheeks to my neck.
I miss him and I still remember how I asked him to be my side but he didn't and left me alone. If he wouldn't have planned a stupid date and would have stick by my side I wouldn't have been here.
The thoughts from that morning of being a stupid person in love again started capturing my mind. Again I felt like to doubt our love and this time it was just being increased.?
Is he really concerned about me or not? Does he loves me or his love is fake for me? Will he ever come to rescue me? Is he really a killer and if yes then would I like to be with a killer? A liar?
I wonder how and why I got into this shits actually why answer is Ethan but how is still the stupid heart.
I heard once from Lauren that love actually true love never leaves your side and will find out you too early.
But here I am hostage from 4 nights 3 days and still my boyfriend is not able to rescue me. I know this kidnapper is not behaving bad with me nor is treating me like hell by torturing still I want to go in my own life.
Wanna spend time with my work my passion my friend's be in love with my love who I guess can't be my husband or boyfriend anymore but just a love. As I can't stay with killer, liar who kept his identity a secret.
I still remember what my kidnapper said "He killed his sister just because she was in love with him." Will he kill me too because I am in love with him or in our case we both are in love.
But who the hell like Ethan kills a girl just for such a naive reason. I was so lost in my thoughts and kept on chatting with my own self that I didn't realized atmosphere in my room got tensed.
Suddenly, I felt my body sweating and when I came out of my sense I felt someone staring me from a small distance. His hazel eyes was shining and that's what hit me that the atmosphere getting tensed was because of him.
I was seeing him after a day as lastly I aw him was when I got hurt in my leg but now it was much better as Stephanie was taking a good care of mine.
I got my back up from my bed and rested my back on the headrest. He came taking his harsh steps towards me in
a predator way and sat beside me.
He was staring at me for a min at me from up to down. Finally spoke breaking the intense silence in the atmosphere "Is your leg fine now?', I nodded in response.
He wiped my tears off making me remember I was crying before he came as I forgot for a sec that I was actually crying.
He looked at my tears in his fingertips making me confused with his looks. I don't know but his jaws looked clenched and face hardened seeing it.
I was looking at him with scrutinize eyes trying to figure out his expression more but he snapped his head up making me flinch.
His eyes were shining and as if was holding some kind of emotion but his face was cold and straight. "Why are you awake still?", his voice held dominance and authority in it.
"Ummm... don't know ... I... I.. was just missing him", I felt like to say truth to him instead of lying.
When I finished my words I saw him clenching his jaws, fisting his hands and veins popping on his hand. It made me scared and a shiver of fear ran through me.
He rubbed his face and ran his fingers through his hair almost like pulling them. My eyes were again threatening me with tears but I held my tears remembering how he was looking my tears.
His threats were still in my mind fixed "Don't do anything which I don't like otherwise you'll see a bad side of me." I don't want to see any kind of bad side of anyone as I don't like bloods being poured out of anyone's body.
When his face looked calm down and turned towards the windowsill staring the dark night with some stars in the sky. The stars in the sky always makes me reminds of having hope in the darkest night and close to my mom too.?
Whenever I asked dad where mom went and how far he always said she is just with me shining in this sky.
That's why I go to that suicide point type area park my car sit on the bonnet with a champagne in hand and stare the sky. It makes me close to mom and peace in heart.
I feel like seeing her from there is more short distanced then my own balcony. I miss her and I love watching stars till it makes me think I am looking my mom and she is looking at me.
The silence between night sky stars moon breezy air and me with a alcohol bottle speaks more than what I blabber. "Can I get a light beer or champagne?", I asked him directly seeing the sky.
"Hmm... I'll get you", it was strange to ask him generally and directly but you know what just like silent moments with mom I mean sky stars with him too it was just so peaceful.?
Our silences were speaking more loud than what our heart's wanted to say yelling at top of our lungs. It's not like everyday you see the sky and feel to be silent but sometimes it really gets to important and special.
He returned with a light beer bottles in his hands as he brought two one more me and other for him I guess.
I and him sat on the side of bed hanging our legs down and looked through the large windowsill which was giving a beautiful scenario.
He might be my kidnapper, stranger, dangerous, scary, devil but he was not harmful for me don't know why but I think I know him from very earlier.
We remained quiet staring the sky sipping our drink slowly and then my inner self asked me to speak up feeling bold suddenly.
"Can I ask you something?", I said staring at him but his gaze was fixed on sky.
"Yes!!", he said taking a sip from his beer.
"Am I here for your revenge from him?", I asked being a big mouth person and he just hmm in response.
Really just so casually he is agreeing with this fact such a jerk.
"No sexy!! i am not a jerk. I just gave a honest answer."
"Is he able to hear me?", I said to myself.
"Yes I am able to hear you as I am not a deaf", he said and got up which made me scared as I thought he was going to beat me up but he showed his empty bottle and left.
He came after sometime with two strong beer one light beer which is for me I guess.
"Why strong one for you and light one for me?", I pouted.
"Coz I know you can't handle. This is not what you drink sexy its way stronger for you."
"I'll have this only. I don't want to drink this please", I said trying to snatch from his hands but he stretched his long hands away from me.
My face brushed with his face slightly giving an spark running inside my body. I turned my face to stare him and he was already staring me with a minimal distance between our faces.
I cleared my throat and got into some distance from him again feeling awkward suddenly in this pleasant night which he decided to break giving me one of his strong beer.
He was drinking slowly eyes fixing straight on sky again and this time my eyes studied him one more time. His adam's apple went up and down whenever he gulped his drink looking damn handsome.
When his corner of eyes turned toward me I looked away and drank the half bottle in one go feeling embarassed and nervous suddenly after being caught.
He rolled his eyes seeing me and nodded his head slightly with a side smirk as if he was laughing at me internally. I looked at him with scrutinizing gaze and felt everything blurry around me. I hold my head tightly making it stop from revolving anti-clockwise.
Almost in ten minutes I was high and myself was flying sitting on bed which made me giggle automatically. He turned his face fully toward me to see me and before he could say anything I placed my fingers on his pink soft plum lips which was just so levitating.
"You know if I was not already in love with that bastard I would have fall for this hazel eyes, levitating lips, dark aura man", I said removing my finger applying little pressure on his lips which made his lower lip bend a bit down.
"You are high Alice sleep otherwise you would regret what you are saying and maybe would do?", he said looking into my eyes and turned.
"No I won't I want to speak with you", I said pulling his shoulder which I failed badly as he is more stronger than Ethan and I guess he is more taller and bigger too from him.
"Listen nah!! please", I said pouting and giving my best puppy looks.
Finally he turned and hmm in response looking my best puppy look which made him smile I guess. I rubbed my eyes and looked at him and the smile was gone.
"Say what you want to say?", he said a bit louder making me come out of the dillusion that he smiled.
"Mr. Kidnapper!! Why you are not torturing me as its shown in movies?", he raised his eyebrow but I continued.
"Why you are so nice to me? You are even having this beer with me sitting beside me. Why do I don't get a stranger vibe from you though you are so scaring? No.... no... o... oo... don't think I am saying by your looks but I am saying by your aura, dark hazel eyes, vibes you know that are scary", he smiled again making me go closer to him and see is it real.
I dozed off before I could say anything putting my head on his chest and clutching his coat. I murmured something again before I got lost in a deep slumber....