53- Here... your child!

After leaving French class, Jessica goes to her advanced algebra class and I walk towards the Literature office, furious, angry, and eager to see James. I feel confused because inside me, a sea of emotions floods my calm, my aura, my peace, and happiness. I sigh deeply as I walk through the hallways, the boys who belong to the swimming team stare at me. Some whistle and laugh while looking in my direction, I walk past them with determination, my eyes, at this moment, only focus on the memory of James, kissing me, holding me in his arms, and my burning body urges me to move towards him.

Knowing that James was with my mother last night fills me with fury, jealousy, anger. I know that it is best to end the relationship between the two of us as soon as possible, this relationship is beyond repair, it has no solution.

I knock on his office door and when I enter, the secretary smiles at me. "Good morning. I'm here to see Professor James," I greet the secretary. "Come in, Miss Vicki," she replies and smiles warmly. She gets up and takes some folders filled with papers and leaves for the teachers' lounge. I watch her leave and feel grateful that we will have some privacy, James' secretary is very kind, maybe she understood that I needed some intimacy. "Although she doesn't know that we are dating, maybe she thinks I am her girlfriend's daughter. Does the secretary know that James and Alyssa are dating?" that thought is painful to me.

James opens the office door, his tender and fierce eyes silently observe me. "Come in," he says softly, closing the door behind me. Then James takes a few steps back, leans against his desk, and brings a hand to his chin, covering his mouth. His eyes roam over me. "Wow, you look beautiful." "Thank you," I reply in a whisper. "Alright, I know what's bothering you," James tells me and his face takes on a somber expression. "We need to talk," I say firmly. "I know that you slept with my mother last night. Jessica told me," "Vicki, it's not what you think." "Think? I don't think anything, everything is very clear. You chose to stay with my mother. Or what, did you think I would forgive this? You have no idea how painful it would be for me." "Vicki, of course I thought about you, I was planning to talk to you about it today." "She is my mother, of course I would find out. And my best friend, she is your daughter, living with you, she knows everything about you." "I know, Jessica does a good job as a bodyguard. But I have nothing to hide from you. What happened last night was a mistake, it was a moment of passion and your mother knows it. We had broken up that night, at dinner, but she came to my house and things got out of control." James explains, and his voice becomes slightly sad. "You cheated on me with my mother." "Vicki, my love, don't you see how difficult this situation was for me? I broke up with Alyssa last night, I had to talk to her again, and I told her that she couldn't spend the night at my house. She understood."

"I can't trust you. James, you said you would talk to her, sex with her wasn't part of the conversation."

"I understand how you feel, but Alysa and I are completely finished," he tells me firmly.

"And does she know you're with another woman?"

"Out of respect for her, I didn't want to tell her, didn't want to hurt her anymore, but she knows I no longer want to be with her, and she understood," he explains.

James walks towards me, a tear falls from my cheek and he wipes it away, then he leans towards my face and kisses my cheek. I breathe deeply and feel his warm breath on my lips, my heart beats fast, his masculine scent and his aroma of man envelop me in a sacred circle of light, I feel so blessed when I am in his arms. I feel a very powerful force, an immense desire to get closer to him, then I kiss him and our kiss grows with every passing second, filling me with more and more light.

"You are like a sun that warms me, and also the moon that holds me during the nights and fills me with tenderness. Since you came into my life, I see you before closing my eyes at night, and I see you when I wake up every morning," he says.

"I love you deeply, I no longer want to be away from your side, my beloved Vicki."

I hold his words sweetly in my ears, his words of love cover and protect me from all the world's harm, but I know there is something stronger than his protection, the protection and love that I give myself from within. If James ever fails me, I will be able to protect myself from him.

"I don't want you to fail me, or ever kiss another woman who isn't me," I tell him.

"I promise you, I will never again kiss another woman."

"If I ever stop feeling protected by your side, I will let you know."

"If that happens, I will be a better man, we will seek help, I will go to therapy with you, but I will not lose you."

"Agreed," I whisper, he kisses me sweetly, leans towards me and kisses my forehead.

I feel relieved and happy that James is willing to fight for our relationship, I understand that my mother is his past, I am his present. His desire was always to have me, and now he has me. I am also willing to work on improving as a couple, together, I will always be by his side, growing together from within, discovering who we are, being happy, and sharing that happiness with each other. There is still a part of me that feels distrust, but there is no longer any doubt in what I feel. Together, we will face any challenge, I trust that together we can overcome any obstacle. I walk towards his desk and sit on his lap, he opens his legs and I can feel his penis, I melt with love as I touch him through his pants, I continue feeling his body, holding him tightly. His hands roam my legs and go up my miniskirt, I feel the bliss with his hands running over me. I know there is much to resolve and it will be a difficult path, but I am willing to fight for our love, I am willing to surrender to this love, to my best friend's dad.