Chapter 46 Special
We’re onto the second move; the sun is starting to set, bringing a beautiful golden glow around us. The flowers look somehow even prettier with the glow on them.
“How did you find this place?” I ask over the movie.
“My family owns a lot of these woods, remember? We’re able to shift at will here, and when you’re a wolf, you can clear a lot of space in a short amount of time.”
“It’s so perfect.”
“I found this place a few years ago. I don’t come often, but I knew you would appreciate it as much as I do.”
“When you become alpha, does that mean all this land will become yours?”
“Kind of in a way yes, but it’ll be in parents' name till they pass.”
“Wow, it would be incredible to be able to explore this place and enjoy its completely untouched nature.”
My stomach growls, interrupting our conversation. He sits up, making me go up with him, and grabs the bag.
“What do you want?” He opens it for me to look through.
I take a small bag of chips, leaning back into the truck. He sits beside me, eating his own bag. We resume watching the movie.
At some point, I found myself leaning against the side of the truck, no longer directly beside him. My gaze travels over to him. He’s watching the movie so intently, even though I know there is no way this is his favorite thing to do.
My eyes take in all of him. His arms hug the sleeves of his shirt so deliciously. His muscles are on display, the veins in his forearms popping perfectly. The way his tall body takes up the bed of the truck, with how he’s lying half upright and half down. His jeans make his legs look impeccable. And then his face. His sharp jawline leads to his perfectly sized lips and his slightly crooked jaw. He moves slightly, drawing my eyes to his hips.
I start to feel that feeling again. The absolute overwhelming want for him. I feel warmth spread all over. My legs unconsciously clench at the feeling. I want him so badly right now. I want to kiss him. Kiss his neck. His lips. His body. I want to taste him, to feel him. I want him. I’m going to make this happen. He has already given me his consent to go further the other day.
So I’m just going to do it. I’m going to act on these feelings. I move upright getiting closer to him again. He looks at me when he hears my movement. He doesn’t move, and I’m sure he can tell exactly what is on my mind.
I lean closer to him, putting my arms around his neck, pulling him closer to me. He gulps, he feels it too, good. I want him to want me as much as I do. I push my lips onto his. It’s a slow, gentle kiss at first, our mouths tangling together. His hand comes to sit on the back of my neck, his fingers tangling gently into my hair. He pulls me closer to him, making me straddle his lap. This makes the kiss heat up my own hand, going to his short hair, running my fingers through it lightly, tugging on it.
My dress is bunched at my hips, leaving only my underwear and a thin pair of shorts between his jeans and myself. His tongue glides into my mouth as they fight for dominance. His other hand glides down my back, resting on my ass. I pull on the tips of his hair, making him groan into my mouth.
The sound alone makes heat pool in me. My hips subconsciously grind into him. His hand grips my ass tighter, massaging it in his hand as I grind my body onto his harder. He breaks the kiss, moving down my jawline and to my neck. His lips kiss down my neck. They don’t stop till I let out a quiet moan at a certain spot.
He stops moving his lips, kissing that spot only. It drives me crazy, it feels so good, I didn’t even know it could feel like this. My hips grind into his again, feeling how much he’s enjoying this. His mouth opens, and I feel his teeth lightly graze against my skin. He moves from the spot before I’m ready, continuing his kisses down to my chest.
My dress has a neckline that shows some cleavage, not a lot, but enough for him to see. My fingers tug on his hair as his lips meet the top of my breast.
The noise that comes out of me is something I’ve never heard before, but it feels so good. It’s a feeling I’ve never felt before. I grind into him harder. It feels good to feel him through his jeans.
He stops kissing my chest. He leans back from me, looking at me with lust evident in his eyes.
“Don’t stop.” My voice is breathless.
“I can’t keep going.” He looks like it pains him to say this.
“Why not?” I sound more desperate than I intended.
“I don’t want the first time we have sex to be in the back of my truck.”
The mood is completely killed. I get up from his lap, shuffling to the spot next to him. I pull my dress down, ensuring it covers me completely. It’s quiet around us, the only sound being the movie long forgotten in the background.
I keep my gaze on my lap, feeling upset. I know his reasoning isn't bad, but I can’t stop the bug in my ear from making me think bad things.
“Am I not enough for you? Are you not attracted to me? I thought we agreed to take things further. What if I am okay with our first time being in the back of your truck?” I don’t look up at him, though my voice is quiet; I know he hears me loud and clear.
“What? No, no, Anneliese, no, that’s not it at all. Please listen to me.” He shuffles closer to me, putting his hands on my cheeks, making me look at him.
“You are more than enough for me; if anything, I’m not good enough for you. I understand that you may be ready, but I can’t have our first time being like this.” He doesn’t acknowledge whether he’s attracted to me or not. It seems to show on my face.
“Don’t you ever doubt how attracted I am to you. Can’t you tell? Couldn’t you feel it?”
I know he’s right, so I nod.
He takes my hand in his, putting it to his chest. “This is what you do to me.”
His heart is beating so fast it’s hard to fathom.
“And this.” He slowly drags my hand down his chest, his sculpted abs, his waistband stopping right above the bulge in his jeans. “You already know how attracted I am to you with this.”
“You’re right.”
He lets my hand go.
“I’ll wait to let our first time be special.”
Sometimes, he overthinks this type of thing far too much.