Chapter 134 Accept him
As soon as my eyes fall on him, l froze in my clothes.
I didn't know what but at the sound of his voice, my entirely rigid and stiff body relaxed. My bloody hands lost purpose and completely uncurled from the painful fists. He slowly made his way to me but I moved a step back.
I was so angry, angry at him and at everything.
Before l could think of running away from him, he instantly grabbed me and pulled me into a tight hug. My chest was heaving repeatedly at the intake of air. "It's fine now, am ain't going to hurt you", He whispered while his grip tightening. I heard his words but my body webt on with trembling like that one of a drug addict. Though l didn't like Idris at first, somehow the thought of him being here made me feel safe and protected. All my worries and sorrows disappeared with his comforting hug and warm voice.
All my barriers and defenses came shattering down in a mass array. Before l knew it l was a sobbing mess in his arms. I was truly tired of all this. The constant paranoia and fear that enveloped me like a cocoon were already suffocating me enough.
"W..what took you for so long?", I sobbed out uncontrollably, completely loosing my cool when l buried my face in the crook of his neck as if it to seek for comfort. "Am so sorry", He murmured into my hair with his voice that sounded regretful and sincere. "Am sorry Raelynn", He went on but this just made me cry more.
In all my life no one has ever apologized to me and here he was acting like my only solution. When I didn't respond, he reached out and brought his mouth next to my ear. He perhaps wanted to tell me something but as soon as he smelled me, his entire body became stiff.
He smelled something on me because he quickly pulled away and as soon as my eyes met with his, l froze more in my clothes. His eyes were turning red showing that he was losing control. He perhaps noticed everything they did to me and it was making him lose all the control. At this point l realized how much I wanted him , his presence made me feel calm and safe.
"Let's get out of here", He groaned but before l could walk away, he out of the blue carried me. Though shocked I didn't say anything, l just chose to wrap up my hands around his neck , closing the distance between us. I felt more comfted by just his mere presence.
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It has been almost 30 minutes now that our group arrived at the hotel. Idris said that it was going to be another 5-6 hours for us to reach the pack, so we decided to call it a night. "You can take a shower first Raelynn", He said the moment we stepped in the hotel esuite. Without another glance at his stiff form, l followed the instinct to the bathroom before he would bust into the beast mood and come after me.
After stepping inside, l carefully closed the bathroom behind me. Idris has been acting very differently towards me ever since we left the house. There was a stiff expression on his face , his entire body was rigid and tightly wound as if he was going to attack someone. I knew it that he was feeling uncomfortable with me because of the different scents on my body.
It was probably driving him insane. With a quick turn, l stripped off all the dirty and bloody clothes before cleaning myself in the shower. I made sure to clean every part of me with a good scented soap. By the time l was done, the bathroom was rather warm and heated up.i wiped the fog off the mirror to look at my reflection.
I noticed some slight bags under my eyes due to lack of sleep. I had no cuts, no blood just a little bruises which were also healing quickly. With that l dried my hair a bit and dug through the stack of towels. I found a big bathrobe that was two times big. At the intial try on the robe it hung loosely around my body, sliding down my shoulders at every opportunity. It had a tad length reaching down to my ankles.
I combed through my damp hair before patting my chest in attempt to calm down. I didn't know why I was worked up for. I had a thought that Idris won't do anything to me. I breathed out deeply and nervously brushed the long hair on my back. I noticed that their some sections shorter than others , probably because of the previous times it was manhandled by the jerks.
After a good couple of minutes, l lastly gathered enough strength, opened up the door and peered out. "Idris", l called. I was hesistant to approach because the lights in the room were dimmed and he was sitting on the bed wirg his back to me. His hands were clenched tight. His body was tense like a wounded spring and his muscles were tightly corded in tell tale signs of anger.
He looked furious possibly livid with rage and past the point of being consoled. My lips thinned into a line. I was now puzzled. "Idris", l called as softly as l could while taking tentative and prolonged steps towards him. My palms were sweaty and l could hear my blood rushing through my ears and it made my breathing come out a little harsher.
He slowly lifted up his head and looked at me. "I won't hurt you Raelynn, you know that already", He spoke out. My cheeks burned, l felt quite ashamed of my initial fearful reaction. It was unnecessary. "Am so upset with myself", His voice was raspy and full of self hatred that I had never seen in him before. "I failed to protect you", He breathed out grimly. He was calm but he was losing it.
Red slowly bled across his mesmerizing eyes changing that ocean blue. It made him look more strangely, more feral and masculine. More beast than a man. I didn't know what to say , l just chose to lower myself onto the bed next to him. Tentatively l tangled up my fingers with his until my skin hummed at the pleasurable contact.
"I know you won't hurt me, l wouldn't be here if l knew it", l admitted lowering my gaze from his red eyes. I tightened up my grip on his hand. "Am safe now, it's the thing that matters", l said as calmly as I could, stroking my thumb over his palm. I was now ready to take in the true him with acceptance.