Chapter 57

Annie’s POV.

I swallow as I look over my reflection in the mirror. “I can do this,” I tell myself. My body has filled back out and my complexion is smooth and full of color again. I feel healthy. My heat is coming up soon and I refuse to act because of the heat alone. I’m determined to be with my mate the way I’m supposed to, the way he deserves. Toby is so patient and caring with me. He’s saved himself for me. It’s hard to believe that a 26-Year-old Male is a virgin, but it’s true.

I adjust the silky thigh-length nightgown and take a deep breath then leave the bathroom. Toby is removing his watch and cuff links and hasn’t turned around yet. He just returned from a week-long trip mediating two packs to prevent a fight. “Goddess, I’ve missed you,” he says then turns to face me. He stops and looks me over. “Wow. You are so beautiful.” He moves closer then places his hands on my waist.

I rest my hands on his chest and lean in, relaxing to the beat of his heart with a hum. “I’ve missed you.”

He holds me tighter and rests his head on mine. “What’s with the nightgown? Where are your usual pajamas?”

“I thought I’d try something different,” I whisper as my cheeks warm up.

“I like it,” he whispers, his voice husky and deep. Now is my chance. I kiss under his collar then unbutton the top two buttons. He gently takes hold of my wrists. “Annie?”

I look up into his pretty eyes. “I love you, Toby. I want to be with you.”

I feel his surprise through our bond as he looks into my eyes. “Are you sure?”

Nibbling my bottom lip, I nod. “Yes, I’m sure. My heat is coming up and I don’t want you feeling guilty thinking you’re forcing me. This is my choice. I love you, Toby. I want to show you by giving you my body.”

Toby’s hand brushes my cheek then he kisses me softly at first, but as I continue to unbutton his shirt, his kiss becomes more intense. He slides his shirt off and tosses it aside. I pull back and watch him as I pull my nightgown off and I’m left standing in only lacy panties that match the nightgown. His eyes trace my body stopping at my breasts a few times. ”Those are some sexy panties.” My cheeks warm up, but I keep my eyes locked on him as I return to his body.

His warm, strong hands graze the skin of my back and I shudder. I’m nervous, but not afraid, I trust Toby and I love him. “Let, let me remove your clothes, please.”

He nods and waits for me to make the move. “I’m nervous too, Annie. I’ve never done anything like this.” I look into his eyes and feel him through our bond, he is nervous. “I don’t want to disappoint you.”

“I’m not expecting anything, Toby.”

“I’m not either. Just know that no matter what, we are together. You and me, mates.”

I unbuckle his belt then open his pants. He watches me, not making a move except for his hands on my back press minutely harder. His pants fall to the floor and he steps out, left only in a pair of black boxer briefs. Toby is a beautiful man and I take a moment to appreciate him before taking hold of the hem of his underwear and set him free.

My heart speeds up at the sight of his engorged member. This is the part that I fear the most, but I need to get control of this fear so I can move on. My fingers tremble as I timidly reach out and softly touch just the tip. His member slightly twitches and Toby hisses then, out of the corner of my eye, I see him pull his lips between his teeth. Taking control of my breath and refusing to take my eyes off him, I brush my fingers down his shaft and I feel his hands slightly tremble at my back.

Toby is well-endowed, which isn’t surprising. I never looked at the monster Alpha A-hole offered, but he always hurt me, sometimes there was even blood. Flora told me that it was because I wasn’t properly prepared. “Will you get me ready? I don’t want it to hurt.”

“Of course, Annie. I never want to hurt you. Lie down on the bed and keep your eyes on me, love,” he offers and I nod.

I lay back on the bed and Toby watches me carefully, like the predator he is. He stalks to the bed, his thick muscles flexing with every movement. Slowly he crawls up between my legs then watches my eyes as he carefully removes my panties. I swallow when he settles on his forearms then kisses just above my.. ahem… Goddess, I can’t even say the word.

His eyes stay locked with mine as his kisses move lower. When he adds his tongue I gasp and flinch, but he holds my thigh, gently keeping me still. He doesn’t move again until I relax. He pulls back just enough to show me his tongue before he licks the entirety of my womanhood from bottom to top. I tremble and chills spread over my body and he continues to lick me. “You taste sensational, Annie.”

What he’s doing feels incredible and I’m not only relaxed, but starting to become very excited. He makes a point to show me his hand before caressing me with his knuckles. He parts my folds then touches inside and I’m shocked by how good his touch feels. Toby combines his fingers with his kisses and my heart races and my breath deepens. “Goddess, Toby.”

“How does it feel, love?” He asks between licks.

“It feels good, it feels really good.”

“That’s right, Annie. I’ll never hurt you, only bring you pleasure.” His fingers stroke inside of me and I can feel the slickness. His tongue wraps around a very sensitive spot and I can barely keep still. “Oh, Goddess.” His sensual torture is just right and I’m gripping the sheet with both hands as my body is overwhelmed by a sensual wave of euphoric pleasure. It takes a few breaths for that wave to dissipate and for my mind to return to the bedroom.

Toby crawls up the bed and kisses me gently. His scent permeates the room adding to mine. He takes my hand and guides me to his member. “You put it where you want it, then I’ll do the rest.” I nod and get him situated at my opening, just his soft tip is barely touching me. I let go and look up at him expectantly.

With his lips between his teeth, he presses into me, only a little. His arms shake as they cage me on either side of my chest. I reach up to stroke his solid chest in encouragement and he presses in more. He grunts in pleasure. “Annie, you feel so good,” he tells me but pulls back almost all the way out. He slowly pushes back in going deeper and deeper. Toby moans and I hum once we are connected completely. His absolute love washes over me laced with desire. I touch his mate mark and Toby takes my hand to kiss my palm.

“I’m okay, Toby. You don’t have to hold back.” He looks deep into my eyes then bends his elbows so his body is flush against mine. Toby plants kisses on my face and neck as he establishes a steady rhythm. Each kiss burns my skin with a sensual tease. At some point, I bend my knees so he can hit just the right spot. I close my eyes and feel.

“No, open your eyes, please. I want you to be here with me.”

He holds my cheek and I force my eyes open. “It’s hard not to close my eyes. It feels amazing.”

“I know it, love. I’ve never felt anything so incredible.” He rests his forehead on mine and caresses my side. His touch has always been comforting, one of safety, but here, now it’s a touch of possession, obsession, and desire. I belong to him.

My fingers curl into the skin of his back and he hisses. I quickly release my grip. “I’m sorry. Did I hurt you?”

“No. Nothing could hurt right now,” he whispers then kisses my mate mark before sucking on it. I’m beginning to lose myself but in a good way. This is right. This is the way it’s supposed to feel, the way it’s supposed to be. “I love you, Annie,” he declares just as he hits the perfect spot. I whimper as a tidal wave crashes over me. The one I felt before was a mere splash compared to this tsunami. I’m overwhelmed with love, rapture, and ecstasy. Toby doesn’t stop moving and that wave crashes on my shore two more times before he groans and makes a splash of his own.

We’re both shaking and chills take hold of my body. I breathlessly kiss my mate with a smile on my lips that is impossible to take away. “I love you, Toby.”

He holds my cheek. “I love you too. Are you alright?”

I shake my head no. “I feel amazing.”

His sweet smile lights up his face. “I do too.” He looks me over a few times then keeps his eyes locked with mine as he places his hand on my shoulder. His thumb caresses my mate mark. “I’m going to touch your body, very beautiful inch of it. Are you ready?” I nod and he watches me as his large hand slinks down to cup my breast. He places a kiss on the top of the little mound then continues to move down, across my abdomen, then back up to lightly hold my other breast. Leaving another kiss, he then moves his hand down my back, then switches hands to move back up.

Toby touches my entire body, his member licked inside me the entire time. I feel him get hard inside of me so when I push him back, he doesn’t resist. Before he can slip out, I straddle his lap and he reflexively holds my hips. “Annie?”

“You’re not the only one getting turned on again.” Toby softly chuckles but this time I set the pace, though he goes much deeper in this position. I have to be careful because it does hurt when I go too far down his shaft, and with Toby adding to the movement, I can’t hold on. I crawl off of him and lay on my stomach.

“Annie, are you alright, love?” Toby asks with worry in his voice.

“I’m great. It was just too deep, it started to hurt a little.” Toby’s face is one of concern and he starts to pull away. I reach out and grab his hand. “No. Don’t leave. I’m not finished, and I know you’re not.”

“What do you want me to do?”

“Get behind me.” Toby doesn’t need any encouragement. He kisses my shoulder and moves my leg up then enters me smoothly. “Oh, wow!”

“You’re not kidding.” He kisses my neck and nibbles my mark as he continues to make love to me. I’ve never felt so incredible in my life and my love for my mate has only grown. After we both get our fill, we continue our lovemaking outside in wolf form after a fun chase through the woods. There’s no outrunning the king of all wolves. Toby’s lighthearted and playful attitude is infectious and we spend the entire night outside.

“Annie.” Toby gently wakes me. I hum and meet his eyes. His body is under me, protecting me from the detritus-covered ground. “It’s morning. Do you want to take a shower with me?”

“I probably should, but I don’t have any clothes out here.”

Toby softly chuckles. “Just shift. Flora is awake. I’ll have her open the doors.”

Flora gives me a knowing look and if wolves could blush, my face would be scarlet. Our scents are dead giveaways as to what we were up to last night. Toby’s smug emotion hits me and I barely keep from rolling my eyes. Once inside the bedroom we shift and he pulls me to him, kissing my head. “I’m proud to be mated to you. I’m not being smug.”

“Yeah, okay,” I comment, but we both just laugh. When we get control of ourselves Toby gets serious.

“Really though. I’m proud to be mated to you. The Goddess definitely blessed me.” I’ll I can do is smile and tuck a stray strand of hair over my ear. Toby just smiles then gets the shower going. “How do you feel?” He asks as he works conditioner into my hair.

I know what he's really asking me; am I still thinking of Alpha A-hole, am I still scared? “I feel more confident and having our meeting bond helps a lot. But you’re the difference. You’re not him. I still have nightmares, but I’m starting to have fewer. You’re a dream come true. You’re still careful with me and I appreciate it. I’m sure I still need it. But I’m not afraid as long as it’s you that I’m with.”