Chapter 30 I am no coward
“What are we doing here?.”
“Will you rather go back to the house with a head full of blood and y body covered in blood, your father is not going to take it lightly and I would rather not have him dragged into what happened tonight.” Adrian stated
We are in a hotel, he did take us to the hospital first to get me cleaned up, it was not ver seirous what happened to me.
“Papa is going to get suspicious and he is not going to like the idea of you and I sharing a room, he already thinks he are up to something.” I whispered when he laid me on the bed, I watched as he helped me with a glass of water first.
“It won’t matter to him, he knows better and he knows that what I do is the right, don’t worry about what your papa and I will talk about, go to sleep.”
“Where are you going ?.”
“To make a phone call.” He said as he stared at me, I watched as he headed out of the room and my breath hitched,
I don’t think I want to sleep, I wanted to be awake, I wanted to talk to Adrian, I wanted us to talk about tonight, about how scared I am, about how I got attacked and how I will be able to defend myself if he is not there, I needed to learn; but it didn’t matter if I have to leave or instead I am staying with him, what matters is that, I need to know how to protect myself.
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By the time he walked back into the room, I found myself with a half bottle of wine, which I found in the room, and I opened it and I started to drink it,
Papa never allowed me to drink because he didn’t like the idea of it, I always wanted to.
“Please tell me you didn’t drink half of that.”
“Adrian it’s just wine.” I smiled as I gulped down a huge chunk, he reached toward me and he pulled out out of hand, my eyes were on his as he stared at me, softly shaking the bottle to see what is left of it.
“Elara.”
“Elara.” I said mocking his voice when a wave of laughter falls out of my lips, his eyes were on mine softly, he didn’t look happy.
“Come on don’t be like papa, I needed this and when I started I could not stop at all.” I smiled as he stared at me.
I watched as he gulped down the rest of the wine, I don’t think he will get drink by that; unless he is like me.
“I need a shower.”
“No you are staying here and you are not leaving, you could get hurt in the bathroom.”
“Live a little Adrian.” I smiled as I stared at him.
Ignoring him, I changed my mind and I headed into the balcony, I settled on one of the chair, the soft wind danced through my skin, o felt a wave of adrenaline wash over me when my mind filed with my father.
My eyes filled with tears as I stared at the sky, I didn’t want to cry, I didn’t want to think about it, the thought of it terrified me and I knew that, he is never going to be always here for me.
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“Adrian.” I yelled through the room when I heard the sound of water coming form the shower, I can’t do what I have in mind, no matter how drunk I am, it was wrong
I only got drunk like this once and papa hates it, because I ended up doing things I am not meant to do, I had to apologize to ever guard in the house by the time I got sober.
I was pulled out of my thoughts when Adrian walked out of the room, with nothing but a towel tied around his waist, his eyes were on mine briefly.
“Don’t look away Elara. You don’t have to be scared of everything.”
“I am not scared, I survived today, I am strong.”
“Because I helped you.” He said and I rolled my eyes at him
I wanted to look at him, yet I could not because if I did, I would never be able to stop the sinful thoughts that filled my mind, the thoughts that scared me,
Adrian takes two strides toward me and from the corner of my eyes, I could see him standing in front of me.
“Look at me Elara.” He stated and I didn’t. “Don’t make me say it again, show me you are not weak and look at me.”
“I am not weak, looking at you will not change anything.” I stated
“Are you saying you feel nothing when you see me in towel, are you saying you feel nothing, when I am this close to you.” He asked and my breath hitches. “You know Maybe you should not even be a part of the mafia because you are always scared.”
“I am not.” I yelled turning to look at him, my eyes found its place to his towel, where I kept staring at it for a moment before I looked away and my eyes were on his. “Today I didn’t know how to defend myself but it doesn’t mean I am a coward.” I breathed out.
“It certainly doesn’t mean you are a coward, but you fear what you felt when you watched me beat him up, you were scared of the thoughts you had.”
“I am not scared.” I breathed out when he leaned in toward me, his fingers brushed through my chin and he forced me even more.
“It’s not by words Elara, right now your hearts beats faster than you can imagine because you are scared.”
“I am not and I will show you.” I breathed out, the sounds of my thoughts filled my mind when I reached for his towel