Chapter 20 Sleep
“Tell me about your family .” I whispered
“I meet them only once in a year, because papa has to do, nor because he wants to, he made a promise to grandma that even if she dies, he will still speak to them, this is his way of honoring the promise”. I whispered.
My back turned at him, I didn’t dare look at him, I didn’t what to, I could still feel the what of the events that occurred earlier and right now we were on the bed without backs turned at each other.
“They hate you.” He asked.
“They think papa should not be leader and now that he does not have a son, they would prefer if the mafia goes to one of them and not you, they would hate you too for wanting to get married to me.” I stated.
I didn’t even speak to any of them properly, they never mattered to me and they would never matter to me, they don’t even know what I do with my life and I have always prefer it to be like that, for my sake and their own.
I felt Adrian turn on the bed, his body inches away from mine and despite the pillow bridge I built, I could still feel him.
“Turn around.”
“No.” I whispered. “We should not be doing the, there is a huge storm out there and papa still insists on having this meeting, the whole wish we die in the storm, and I am sure he is hosting it at the same house we had the party because it’s close.”
“Turn around Elara and don’t make me say it twice.” He said when I heisted for a moment, I pushed back the tears that were threatening to fall when I turned to look at him, my breath hitches as my eyes were on his.
“What?.”
“You are scared they will know about your papa dying, you r worried they will be happy about it and they may even celebrate the fact that he is about to die.”
“Papa would never let them know about it, they don’t know this but this is the last time they will ever see him, and the funeral, I never wanted to think about it but I can’t help it” I stated and my eyes were on his. “I know I am meant to be strong.”
“You should be for your papa, he wants you to be strong, he wants you to be able to be taken care of, I don’t want that, I want you to rather be able to take care of yourself, you aunties, your uncles, your cousins, the have no power over you, all they have js words against you and that can’t do anything.”
“What do you know about family hating each other.” I said bitterly as his eyes were on mine, he leaned in closer, I wanted to move away yet my body didn’t let me do the same, I didn’t pull away, I didn’t move.
All I did was stare at him, his eyes were on mine when he placed his hand on my body, his face inches away from mine and for a moment , I found myself staring at his lips which I looked away instantly.
“Are you worried you will give me and kiss me again.”
“If you wait, it’s going to happen tomorrow.” I breathed out.
“In my own terms.” He stated and I didn’t speak. “No one will dare think of touching you tomorrow and with your papa there, they would not even dare say a word to you, your papa will come home with us so you have a conversation with him.”
“Is it okay-“ I wanted to say when I kept quite
He is not even my friend, I can’t make demands at the moment.
“What- nothing.” I instantly said cutting him off as his eyes were on mine.
I didn’t want to tell him anymore, I still have the burden of the party and Adrain, he is hiding a lot of things, many things that we don’t know about, I had a feeling papa knows about his family, papa knows everything he can find out and if I ask him, he would not believe the fact that Adrain and I are warming up to each other and I may like him.
“Sleeep Adrian.” I whispered so low, he still didn’t pull away form me and he is not the type of man that will do what he doesn’t desire, I doubt he will do that.
“Good night Elara.” He said and I smirked before I closed my eyes.
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The dinner, all day all I have thought about is the dinner, Adrian has being busy with work at his home office, it’s one call after the other, it’s being aggressive typing and a lot of yelling.
I knew it didn’t have anything to do with the office and it had everything to do with the mafia, he didn’t ask me for help, I could not even if I wanted to because I didn’t even know much.
I stared at the dress Adrian had gotten for me, it was a red dress, the tone of the red is as dark as the shade that I found in the closet, it was beautiful.
I got dressed instantly and I headed downstairs to find him wishing for me and to my surprise, his tie matched my dress.
“You are ready to meet my other half of the family, who I would never ever see again after this.”
“Which gives you more reason to tell everyone your mind? To tell them how you feel about all of them and how they make you feel annoyed.” He said and I smiled at him
Did I want to do that? I didn’t quite think about it but it may not be a bad idea, it’s time my family finds out how I truly feel underneath all of my smiles.