Chapter 43: Distraction
Chapter 43: Distraction
( Allie's POV )
Walking through the beautiful streets of a small town in Italy feels so lonely. I've been here now for over two weeks and my phone has been going crazy nonstop with missed calls from Jack. It breaks my heart not to answer his calls, but every time his name pops up on my phone's screen, I get flashbacks of that night when I found him naked with Nickie. I would never be able to get that picture out of my head again. He scarred me for life, He made me realize that werewolves are just the same as human men. I can't believe, the first man I ever fell in love with did the cruelest thing imaginable to me. It has been weeks now and the heartache is still so strong at night when everything is quiet and I lay awake in the dark in my small tiny room. It feels like I can't breathe and I feel sick most of the time during the day. My clothes have started to look like bags from all the weight I have lost from throwing up so much in just these few short weeks. Now I have to do the thing I dread the most, shopping for new clothes. I have wandered into every little clothing store this little town has and picked up items here and there that caught my eye. Walking down the streets of this town and seeing all the places that Jack and I went to, brings back beautiful memories, but that is all that they are now, Just memories, nothing more. The tears start to build up in my eyes just by thinking that Jack and I won't be creating memories like that ever again. I chose to come to Italy because it would be the last place Jack would look for me. He would never suspect me to come to one of our places if I'm mad at him, for that making Italy the best hiding place. There are also not any wolf packs around here as I remembered when Jack talked about all the wolf packs around the world. He did not mention a pack in Italy, so he can't arrange for someone to find me here. My parents also contacted me to find out about our plans for the wedding. I lied to them saying that we weren't in a rush because I just opened the store and things are hectic at the moment. I thought that I would be ready by now to tell my family that things are over between me and Jack, but it is too painful to say it. I am afraid that if I say it, It will really be over between us and I don't know if I am ready to accept that.
I should find something to keep me busy while I'm here in Italy. To help get my mind off things or I would go crazy. The pain of missing Jack is just too much. My heart longs for him. It is starting to get unbearable.
I saw earlier that one of the bookstores had a sign in the window saying ( Help Wanted ). I would ask them if they would like my help. I know a lot about books and I love to read. Maybe I can borrow some books from them in the night, to help me take my mind off the pain. I walk into the store and there is an old lady behind the counter. She doesn't speak engelish very well but she managed to understand What I was trying to explain. I wanted to help her in the store after I pointed at the ( wanted ) sign on the door. She smiled and invited me behind the counter. She explained to me how everything worked. It is not hard at all. She only wants someone to organize and clean the store because she can't manage to do all of the things by herself anymore. The things she explained didn't look so hard at all. It consists of packing new books away organizing bookshelves, keeping the coffee pot full and tidying up. How hard could it be? I accepted the offer from the old lady and told her that I would start immediately because it looked like she needed help. The bookstore was covered in dust with books stacked everywhere on the floor and the books on the shelves weren't arranged in any order. I don't know how her clients find books, because everything is mixed on the shelves.
After the entire day of taking books off the shelves, dusting them off and rearranging them by categories, I could feel every muscle in my body start to ache from climbing up and down the ladder to get books off the shelves. I'm not nearly done cleaning all the books and the day has already passed in a blink of an eye. It was only when the lady came to me and said that it was closing time, did I realized how late it was. The entire day passed without me thinking about Jack.
The old lady ( Martha ) Thanked me for my hard work and I asked her to borrow a few books from the store to take them home. I promised to return them after I'm done with them. She gave me a friendly smile and said that I could take as many books as my heart desires. I was very tempted, but I only took two books for now. I don't want to take more than I could read. I put the books in my bag and we locked the store. On my way home, I stopped by one of the food restaurants beside the road and thought that I could get a bite to eat there. I really needed to start getting protein in my body. I didn't get much to eat lately because I felt so sick to my stomach. I looked at the menu, and what grabbed my attention, was the steak. I ordered myself two big steaks with mashed potatoes and gravy with some cream spinach with cheese. I have a sudden urge for meat. When my food arrived, I devoured the steaks like it was nothing and I even ordered dessert afterward. I must have been really hungry after barely eating anything for a while.
When I got home, I poured myself a hot bath and got in. The warm water on my aching body felt so good. The pain went away almost immediately. I didn't realize how tired I was until I got in the bath. Organizing books and climbing up steps the whole day really takes it out on a person, but it's good. It helps distract me, And I would make a little income while I'm here so that I don't use to much money in my savings account.
After the long hot bath, I got into the bed with one of the books I got from the bookstore. The book is about a fairytale land full of different creatures like Fae, Fairies, pixies, Elves, trolls, Werewolves, Witches, Wizards and so much more, I can't help but wonder, if werewolves exist. Are the rest of the fairytale creatures in this book also real? I got lost in the book for hours but sleep didn't come over me. ( Beeb-Beeb ) I hear a message come through on my phone. My heart sank into the pit of my stomach. I hesitated for a few moments. What if it is Jack? Or it could just be my parents messaging me again to find out how things are going between me and Jack. I should really tell them that Jack and I aren't getting married anymore and things are over between us. I picked the phone up from the nightstand, switched the screen on and saw the name ( Jack ) on the screen. Seeing his name sturs up all kinds of feelings in me. I take a deep breath to calm myself before I start to cry again and open the message.
My Sweet Allie.
I know that you are angry with me and you don't want to talk to me, but please just let me know if you are safe. I can't take it anymore. I miss you so much. I miss having you by my side when I wake up in the morning, I miss those big beautiful brown eyes of yours, I miss your sweet smile and your soft sweet scent. I miss the touch of your soft juicy plump lips on mine, I miss the warmth of your body against mine There will never be another woman. It is only you. You are my Mate and I only belong to my sweet Allie.
You have every right to be mad at me, I'm angry at myself for letting it happen. I promise you that I will figure out what happened that night and I will make it up to you. Please just let me know that you are safe. It is driving me crazy not knowing where you are and not knowing if you are safe. Just know that I love you and I won't stop looking for you until I have found you. You are my life, Allie. You are the center of my universe. My life has no meaning without you!
You are my Luna. Please come back, my sweet Allie.
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Jack's message hit Allie hard. How could he say that he missed her and that he would make it up to her? Nothing will ever be the same again, He can't take back what has already been done.