Chapter 41

I once again spent the whole day in the library every day for the next week, Lucy and I am meeting there every day, reading and chatting, it was perfect. It was my favourite way to spend my time away from the Prince. Whilst my nights with the prince were perfect, I enjoyed my days with my friend, a little bit more. We told each other everything about our lives. We laughed, And sometimes cried. But we did it all together.

Yeah, but today wouldn't be like that. I couldn't go to the library today and I neither could she. We had other things to do today. The Queen had called a banquet, She demanded that everyone be in attendance, especially me as it was to congratulate me, some sort of reward for serving everybody. For saving them from imminent death.

Whilst I don't want to be rude and say no, I wasn't really one for being the centre of attention, no matter what the occasion was.

But what I was happy about, was that I could spend the day with a prince, he was told to stay by my side and get me ready for tonight. Though he seemed to had zero fashion sense. I couldn't rely on him to pick my clothes, but maybe he could help with my hair.

The day went by so slowly, we watch some movies and showered, even having sex, several or eight times didn't seem to pass the time. And he was beginning to tell that I was anxious.

"I wish you would tell me what was wrong, I don't like seeing you like this." he tells me pulling me onto his lap, "you can't leave me in the dark like this, we are partners, we should tell each other everything."

I sigh and rest my head on his shoulder, Breathing in his scent, "I want to tell you ... i ... I just don't know where to start. I don't exactly know how I do feel. I'm not sure of anything right now."

"I see ... I understand, being a newborn can be hard ... you will have so many emotions running through you that you can't control." his smothers me in kisses, Making me laugh and giggle. "but I'm here to help you through everything, We promised to be each other's rocks, Even in the darkest moments."

"I know that we did, and I appreciate you, I really do." I say with a sad smile., hoping that he will understand my next words. "and I love your mother too, your whole family means so much to me. But I don't think I'm ready for this banquet." tears form in my eyes, Sliding down my cheeks. "I don't want to let anyone down, least of all the queen, And I am so scared that I will."

"How could you possibly think that you could let us down? You are perfect." he tells me, his eyes filled with worry as he wipes away my tears. "what are you so worried about?"

I lower my eyes, too afraid to look at him, I didn't want to see his expression as I spoke. "there are going to be humans there, what if I feed on one by accident?"

"that's what you are afraid of?" I nod and he continues. "you have never accidentally fed on anyone. That is why both I and my mother think you are ready. We wouldn't push you into this otherwise."

"I spent my whole life avoiding the spotlight, now you are pushing me into it." I said with a huff, my emotions, changing to annoyed.

He stands up and walks towards the door, "because no one deserves the spotlight more."

"You are leaving?" I asked, knowing that I had is upset him some how.

He turns back to smile at me, showing me that he wasn't angry at all, that's all he was doing was thinking of me. And how I felt. "I am just going to get you some blood, that way you will be full for the banquet."

"Thank you." I said softly.

"Anything for you, my princess."

*****

when did Prince arrive Back to our room, He helped me shower and get ready as best as he could, Helping me do my hair into a pretty knot braid. And I was shocked to say that he was really good at hair, he had clearly done Celeste's more than once. That much was very clear.

I ended up deciding on the light blue dress, one with half sleeves and a silky skirt, it wasn't as fluffy as the others I had worn, this one moulded to my curves and hugged my body, keeping everything where it should be.

Calen wore a deep blue suit, wanting to match with me as best as he could.

I think he was nervous too, but I wasn't exactly sure.

It took over three blood bags to get me full enough to go, so perhaps he might be worried I will get hungry, but I'm no longer scared, I know that he will keep me and others a safe. He will protect the humans from me, if that needed to be done.

But I hoped that it wouldn't, I hoped that I could control myself. I didn't want to be like the chosen.

I will never become evil.

The Prince walked in from the bathroom, taking a last-minute look at him self in the mirror. "I hope you are ready little princess, it's almost time to go."

"I am as ready as I'll ever be, I don't think I'll ever be truly ready for this." i wrap my arms around his waist. "are you sure we can't stay here and cuddle? Maybe watch a movie?"

He laughs softly, kissing the top of my head. Something he does more and more lately. "you know that we can't, No matter how much we want to." Calen turned me around and places sash around my neck, with the sigil of his house on it. "besides, if we stay here, I can't show you off. And I've been waiting to do that since you were turned."

I guess we're going to the banquit then.