Maxine

Maxine
Maxine's point of view

I lye in bed Jezebel beside me. I couldn't help but to take in her slim figure. She slept ever so soundly. This moment reminds me of when we were just small pups. Our only comfort being each other. That was until Alpha Callum had saved us. Jezebel loved him deeply but it was not to be. He was still in love with Gemma at the time and who could blame him she was curvy with emerald green eyes that you could get lost in. Her auburn hair was wavy down to her waist line and She held herself as if asking for respect but even then she was like the rest of us. She was broken it pained me that she felt that was the only way out but I know that now she is at peace. Once news broke about her sudden passing Alpha Callum locked himself in his chambers for weeks no doubt hiding from the rest of the pack. He didn't want us to see him as weak. But we never did. We only saw a man who was grieving his true love. Then He started summoning Jezebel to help numb his pain but in doing so Jezebel fell deeply in love with him. It pained me to see her in love with him instead of me but I just wanted her to be happy. That was until the Alpha put an end to it abruptly. I watched as Jezebel heart began to break and there was nothing I could do to ease that pain.

That pain feels so familiar I often find myself back at the orphanage in my dreams. Maxine was the name they had given to me the second day of being there. They tried to change my identity but I held on to my name Lily never forgetting where I came from. I often wondered if my parents ever regretted their decision of giving me up when I was seven. I have questions that have gone unanswered for so many years. I was determined to see my parents again but they never came back for me. The orphanage did nothing but leave me with trauma that I may never heal from. I was taken from my parents and placed in the arms of strangers. It left me with questions, doubts, and even new found fears. Because of those fears I find it harder and harder to sleep. Jezebel has always been my comfort always shushing the nightmares away. But sometimes the bad ones still make themselves known to me. Maybe it was for they best I wouldn't want them to see the shell of the daughter they left behind.

"Maxine?"

I couldn't help but to stare in her lavender eyes that held so much sadness such as my own. I could look into them forever " yea Jez?"

" Are you ok did the nightmares come back?"

I leaned my head back against the head board and letting out a sigh " yes. I'm so tired Jezebel. I can't do this anymore. I'm tired of hurting. I'm tired of my dreams turning into nightmares. My nightmares have become a twisted reflection of my own sadness, a constant reminder of everything I had once lost. My nightmares are starting while I'm awake as well I am stuck in a endless cycle. Of never knowing what's real and what's not." I slowly traced my scar Alpha Zion lye on my hand forever reminding me I once belonged to him. I was once someone's property and just the thought of it made my stomach churn.

As if knowing what I was thinking Jezebel traced my scar that was the same as her own we shared the same trauma it has always just been the two of us even now.

" Max you have been through so much I can't imagine the pain you felt that night. That scene crosses my mind every night and I can never shake it away."

I squeezed my legs together trying to forget what Alpha Zion and his men did to me. I let out a huff " I still feel them even as I lye here in my body I can still feel what they did to me. I can still feel it. I don’t mean in my tender heart it still pains me so. I can still feel what he did, in my body, laying here, right now. Forever branded even death did not part us his name remains on me a painful reminder that I once belonged to him."

Jezebel gripped my hand inorder to comfort me. " I never would have survived what you have survived. You are the strongest person I ever known. Sometimes I can't get that image out of my mind watching them hold you down and taking turns. I wish I could take that pain away from you."

" Jezebel I am forever scarred." It was true that night still haunts me til now.

Flashback

After they took their turn Alpha Zion still not pleased with the outcome grabbed the branding iron having his men hold me down placing it on my hand. I bit my lip to keep from crying. Burying my head into the concrete floor til the pain subsided. Alpha Zion cold menacing laugh.

" Now you officially belong to me. Hmm I wonder what else I can use this on. Your face perhaps." He flipped he over with with the branding iron just inches away from my face. I couldn't help the whimpers that escaped. Holding my hands to my face trying to block the iron from touching. If I knew then what I know now I would have tooken that versus the latter. " Hold her down." I fought trying to get out of the gaurds grasp but at last I was unsuccessful. The men had pinned me down two held my hands above my head while the other two held my legs opened. " Now you will see who you truly belong to." Alpha Zion proceeded to put the branding iron inside of me. I screeched begging for him to stop but He never did. The cries of Jezebel was the last thing I heard before passing out from the pain.