Chapter 75 - Alter ego

Chapter 75 - Alter ego
Gora/The monster’s pov

“I promise it’s the right way, the only way!”
“Fuck you! You want to kill her, don’t you think I feel it? You can’t stand her, you jealous bastard!”
“Jealous?”
“Yes, don’t forget that you are me and I am you! You want to kill her so you can have me for yourself, so that I will break down and you can take over completely and run amok over the world.”
“I admit, it’s a tempting thought…”
“See, I knew it!”
“You’re forgetting one thing…”
“What?”
“What she can be used for…you’re forgetting who she is and who she means something to…” I knew the answer to what he meant, but I couldn’t grasp it. It was true what I said, he wasn’t an extra soul like Freespi was to Cathy, she was a werewolf. 
He was me, the sick part of me, and all the answers he had were fabricated by my sick brain, so I knew it, if only I could grasp it…
“You’re as sluggish as ever…it can wait, we have a bunch of snarling, silly wolves to take care of first.” The monster had seen red when we learned that Cathy had ranked wolves from the other side of the world visiting. The worst of them all, San Marino wolves. The kind that almost exterminated us in Italy.
“We can’t do anything about them. Cathy has forbidden it, just like she forbade them from touching us!”
“And you think they’ll obey? Their mission for hundreds of years has been to exterminate vampires!”
“Not necessarily this generation…”
“Are you kidding? Wolves are all about traditions from their ancestors!” He wasn’t wrong.
“Okay…but they’re here because they want something, so maybe that’s more important?”
“We don’t have to worry if we do as I suggest.” Our blood in their wine, and it will be like slaughtering newborns in a maternity ward.”
“You’re sick…”
“You know I’m right…”
“And then?”
“Like I said, we don’t have to take it now, we’ll concentrate on getting rid of the pasta eaters first.”
“Speak!”
“There’s no rush, you’ll understand that I have the best plan.”
“SPEAK!”
“Fine…Cathy is a princess, right?… Her brother is the strongest Alpha, her new sister the original werewolf, and…their white witch is Father’s biggest weakness…” A cold wave washed over me as I began to see his motives through the brain fog he had established.
“We can use her…a hostage…Father has to let us go to get her back! And he will, his witch will force him to do it!”
“You really don’t understand…” The feeling of abandonment was overwhelming. After all this time, how could he not understand?
“It’s simple math to me! Father cuts the bond to us so we can be free and Ǵreat Falls gets their princess back…maybe a few liters lighter…she has the most exquisite blood…”
“IDIOT!!! There’s no bond you can cut! Just as I would have phantom feelings in a severed arm, my body would search for him! It’s not like the wolves! There are no rogue vampires! He’s in our DNA! He’s the string that was added when we were made! The only way to cut our connection to him is to find a cure for vampyrism! You know this!”
“It’s just a theory, it’s not like there’s been any research done on the subject…” His snide comment told me that he knew I was right, which scared me even more.
“You have another plan…”
“Maybe…maybe not…regardless, we won’t survive here for long if you don’t trust me.” A knock on the door ended our dialogue.
“Come in…” I ran my hand through my hair and turned towards the door, and when she stepped in, my cold heart skipped a beat.
“Hi Gora…”
“Cathy…”
“Did I hear you talking to someone?” She looked around the room for a few seconds before she understood…I couldn’t do anything but awkwardly rearrange some of my dreadlocks that were obviously out of place.
“Are you okay, Gora?”
“Yeah, I’m fine…”
“I need to know that you’re okay…it’s a sensitive situation I’m in right now…Alfonzo…he’s not happy that there’s a vampire here but has promised to let it pass, it’s not his home turf after all…but everything would have been a little easier if I knew why you were here…Gora…no offense, but you have to be honest with me, you owe me that…don’t you think?”
Her short dark hair, her big eyes…she reminded me a bit of one of the characters in a manga series, no matter how old they were, they still looked cute. I didn’t have time to parry it, while I was admiring her, I felt him take the back way to the surface, but it was too late.
“Really? I owe you? Why? Because I did what you asked me to do? You wanted me to fuck you, Cathy, you were even the driving force, if I remember correctly! You asked me to bite you and taste you, didn’t you?! But I owe you? It wasn’t you who was left alone in a pool of blood! Was it?!” My voice came out dark and growling, dripping with hate, but it was his words, not mine, and I saw how they hit her with full force. Her rosy cheeks turned white, and her big eyes filled up with unshed tears. But it only lasted a few seconds before she pulled herself together.
“The first time a bloodsucker dared to insult me ​​under the wolf’s roof, he was crushed by the same…”
“Cathy…sorry, that wasn’t…”
“Dinner is in an hour. If you can keep your alter ego in check, you’re welcome. But if he insists on acting like this, let me know and I’ll send something up to your room.” She turned and left the room without another word. But between the lines, she had shown that she understood that it wasn’t me, it was the monster that had stolen the color from her face.
“You can’t help it, can you? You need to be hated by everyone, you need me to be hated…” The monster didn’t answer, but I could somehow feel deep inside that he was pleased with what he had accomplished. Another step in eliminating me from others, so he didn’t have to share me. So he could break me and finally take over. Could he challenge Cathy’s guests, too? Was he that reckless? Something told me he wasn’t, that he knew it would be a death sentence, for both of us-
Another knock on the door lit a small spark of hope in my chest. She was back!
“Cathy, I…” It wasn’t Cathy, it was her hefty right hand. Andy, if I remembered correctly.
“Sorry, not Cathy, just me.” He smiled a crooked smile and pushed past me.

“I have nothing against your kind…Gora…In fact, I often find you fascinating. The thing is, we could have a drink, you and I, under different circumstances. Unfortunately, I saw Cathy leave here, and I know her, better than she thinks, and her face told me a lot…A lot of that doesn’t sit well with me. Do you understand?” He stared at me, and I took a deep breath. The monster gets another point.
“Andy…it’s Andy, right?” He nodded and waited for me to continue.
“It’s complicated…I’m complicated, I don’t know how much Cathy has told you about me and what we’ve been through.” His eyes narrowed a little before he answered.
“Not much to be honest…But I have my own ways of finding out things. Did I mention I have a very good friend in Ambrogio’s inner circle? And I mean a very good friend, Tony, and I have known each other for years, so all I have to do is…” He picked up his phone, scrolled through the numbers, and showed the screen. Tony’s number was visible.
“I just need to press once and I will find out everything I need to know about you…”
Everything was moving very fast, but it felt like everything was moving in slow motion, like I was moving in syrup. The thought of Tony finding out where I was wasn’t scary to me. But for the monster, for the monster, it would be a disaster. It would overturn all his plans. Because if Tony found out, Father would find out, and it would only be a matter of time before, with any luck, I was locked in the punishment chamber again. Most likely, I would be killed and laid among the bones of my dead siblings in the tunnels under the mansion.
The first thing to crash was Andy’s phone, as it hit the wall across the room. Before he could recover from the shock and astonishment, my teeth were already buried deep in his throat, my hand buried deep in his chest, his heart pumping in my hand, slowing down with every sip I took.