Chapter 31 Drunken Talk

Chapter 31 Drunken Talk
(SHANNICA'S P.O.V)
Aish... I SHOULDN'T HAVE SAID THAT TO XANDER THAT NIGHT.
Today is already monday evening. On Saturday night, Xander and I went to bed without even talking, and yesterday he lock himself in the study room saying that he had a lot of things to do and he also  don't want anyone to disturb him. He went to bed late, and went to work early in the morning, tsk, is he avoiding me or he's really just busy?
Anyways I am currently at the terrace watching Xenon while he's doing his homework.
"Why are you still here? I said get out!" He annoyingly point the exit.
I shook my head, "If you don't want me to help with your assignment, then at least let me stay here and watch you over."
"Why are you watching me? Do you think I'll jump off from here? Sorry to disappoint you, I still don't want to die." he said.
"I'm still going to be the Chairman of Lincoln Group soon. As the sole heir, my responsibility is to study hard and train well in order to become much greater than Grandpa and Dad." he added boastfully and proud.
I chuckle, "Right. And in order for you to commit your dream, you need an adult to guide and protect you. So I'm here to watch you over." I respond.
He glare at me and sigh in defeat, "Whatever, just don't disturb me."
I smile, the way Xenon talks is really fantastic, he's brilliant and mature. At his young age, he already knew a lot and he is so much advanced compare to other kids his age. Although it's a good thing, but I'm quite concern about it because it seems like he didn't experience to have fun at all ever since he was born and I want him to feel the fun and enjoy his life like an ordinary kid would do.
Time check: 6:30 PM
"Madame, young master, the dinner is ready." I glance at one of the maid, and stood up,
"Come on, Xenon. Let's eat. Just continue that later." I said and help him fix his things on the table.
I bring with me his notebook, ipad, and pens, "Hey just put it in there, I'll be back after dinner." Xenon uttered.
"No, silly. It's already chilly out here Xenon, you might catch a cold, just continue your homework in your room." I advised him.
"And who are you to tell me what to do?" He ask and furrowed his brows.
"I'm your mom." I answered and cross my arms.
He stopped, and taken a back as if I said something wrong.
Did I shock him?
"No you're not, my mom is dead." he said in a cold voice glaring at me. Then he walk away with a dark aura again. Ugh, wrong move Shannica. I was just supposed to make fun of him. Hays.
While eating, I noticed that I really ruined Xenon's mood since he eat so little then he went to his room and lock himself up. Hays, I guess he really is Xander's son, they're both sensitive and moody pfft.
After an hour, I prepare his evening milk and knock on his door to deliver his milk,
knock
"Xenon, here's your milk." I announce on the door way, I was about to open the door but I can't because it's locked.
"Xenon? Can you open the door for me? I'll just put your milk in the table." I said again. But I didn't hear any response.
"Xenon? Are you okay? Is everything alright?" I questioned.
"Go away!" he yelled from the inside.
"You need to drink your milk, you didn't even eat your dinner properly, just open the door it won't take long---" I wasn't able to continue what I'm about to say when Xenon open the door, and everything seem so fast that he suddenly throw the glass of milk I am holding on the floor.
I flinch when the glass broke, and the milk spill all over the floor.
"X-Xenon..." I stutter as I look at him unbelievably.
"I said go away! Leave me alone! Why do you keep on bothering me, huh?! No matter what you do, you are not my mom, and you can never become a mom to me because I won't accept someone like you!" he shouted and slam the door on my face.
I wasn't be able to move an inch, and just sighted Glenda who rush over in my direction.
"M-Madame what happened...?" she asks.
"Are you okay, Madame?" she added.
I sigh and slightly smile, "Y-Yeah, I am. Can you clean up the mess for me?" I requested referring to the spilled milk on the floor.
"Yes, of course Madame." she anssers.
I started walking away but before I head to our bedroom, I stop and face Glenda,
"Uhm Glenda, please get Xenon another glass of milk and deliver it inside his room." I requested.
Glenda nodded and I just smile before I finally head on our bedroom.
Hays, I feel so down. Xenon's voice echoed in my mind. He has a point, I can never become a mom to him...
I decided to take a shower and do my usual evening routine. And I watch some movies for a while until hour passes by and it's already 10 pm, Xander isn't home yet, is he going to be super late again tonight? Haysss.
I keep on overthinking until I didn't realize that I already dozed off on the bed.
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I was already sleeping but then I got up upon hearing a noise from the outside. I glance at the wall clock and see that it's already 12:10 AM in the morning.
Is Xander still not home?
"Ugggghh.." I heard a noise from outside.
I stood up, and decided to open the door, my heart skip a beat.. I was dumbfounded to see Xander right in front of me, wasted...
"X-Xander..?" his arms are leaning against the door frame.
"Are you drunk?" I asks.
He laugh, "Just a little bit tipsy." he answered.
I glance at the surrounding but there's no one on the corridor,
"Wait why are you alone? Who drove you home?" I worriedly ask.
"Did you drive the car yourself?!" I spat on him. He's being reckless. Why did he drink?
"Ssshhh. You're so loud, the maids might wake up." he said in a silly voice.
I feel annoyed. Ugh, what if something happened? It's dangerous to drive drunk alone. Dang. Doesn't he know that?! He's so wealthy, he have so many men, and yet he drive home alone?
"Why are you so wasted, Xander?" I ask helping him to enter the room.
I stare at him,
I touched his cheeks with my hands and sigh, "Keep yourself  away from danger, Xander, although I'm just your temporary wife, you still have a wife... And you have your son that is waiting for you and needs you." I said in a low tone. He won't remember it tomorrow so it's okay.
His face softened after what I said and I saw how an emotion runs into his eyes but it was suddenly masked with an emotion he always shows; blank.
"O-Okay, let's put you into bed, you're heavy---" He cut me off as he suddenly attacked my lips with a kiss,
"H-Hmmptt.." I was so shock and tried to push him away, but he's so strong and I can feel my knees are trembling because of nervousness.
His kiss deepens and it didn't take long and I finally gave in, I closed my eyes smoothly for me to feel more his kisses. He started to kiss me passionately, so I responded. I wasn't sure but I felt like he was longing with my kisses too. He started walking inside without breaking our kiss. He blandly use his foot to close the door.
Our lips are moving in sync.. He was kissing me while his hands was roaming on my soft spots. When I felt he wrapped his arms around me, I clutched mine on his nape and pressed ourselves together. I suddenly felt a hard and flat thing on my back and I didn't noticed that I was already pinned on the wall...
Xander pressed himself more on me so I undoubtedly wrapped my legs around his waist, come what may. He lift me using his hands and arms, that was placed on my thighs. I felt his hard member beneath his pants. I moaned on his mouth and that made him groaned on mine too.. He deepen the kiss by brushing his tongue on my bottom lip,seeking for entrance so I let him.. Our tongue met and I heard his sexy groan again.. It sent chills all over my body.. He trailed his kisses down on my jaw  and neck, then he started kissing my soft spots.
"Ohh X-Xander..." I heard him gasped when I called out his name.. And sealed my lips with a kiss again. On a spur of a moment, moaning his name gave him a signal which was not concealed by my knowledge. He suddenly turned into a furious but tender one. He pressed me more on the wall and squeezed my thighs..
But forthwith at that moment he pulled away his lips.. He pressed his forehead against mine as we are both panting hastily.
I saw he puckered his lips together as if still savouring my kisses on his lips...
He rubbed the bridge of his nose with his eyes closed... I was confused not until he starts uttering a name...
"A-Arianna...." he started.
My whole body felt like paralyzed after hearing him calling another woman's name.
Not just any ordinary woman's name... But his dead wife's name... Arianna.
He stare at me straight in the eyes, and I saw his longing eyes who are about to shed tears....
He begin to caress my face with such a sad expression,
"I miss you, Arianna... I miss you like hell." he said again while looking at me with such expression.
He started leaning over his head on my shoulder.
And after a few minutes, I felt that Xander already collapsed due to the alcohol, so I guided him a little to the bed and I stare at his angelic sleeping face emotionless.
I was wrong, I thought Xander already moved on from his ex-wife... But I guess the pain is still there, just like mine.
Impressive, he must have been so much in love with her to miss her like this after all this year....
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