CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE

"Why did you ask that way, is he a ghost?" I asked as my curiosity got the better of me.

"No no he's not dead…. It's just…." I was relieved from the thought that I had tripped and also spoke to a ghost. At least he was human, but why did she suddenly stop speaking.

"What is it you wanted to say ? And why did you suddenly stop?" I asked, trying to find out what she was hiding.

"Well… it's nothing, what exactly did he say to you?" She asked.

" Well he mentioned something about going to meet his dad and that really confused me? If Sebastian is the King or the leader and his father is still alive? How? I still don't get it."

"Well… you don't need to worry about that.. it's really not worth it." She said reverting her furrowed brows back to normal and putting on a smile that really seemed fake to me.

I wasn't okay with the way she answered and I really wanted to know more, I thought she would tell me everything she knew but here she was hiding things from me just like Sebastian did. Maybe it wasn't really worth it but it made no sense to hide anything about his family.

I was really feeling off after Sienna decided not to tell me anything she knew and left me confused. I really didn't want to go on the tour anymore. My mind was drawn back to Sebastian. I missed him and wanted to talk to him, but I couldn't because I had no cell phone. "Sienna please can I get through to Sebastian on your phone? I really need to talk to him." I said with a smile.

"Oh I'm sorry the master said not to disturb him on this journey, he needs to be focused on what he wants to do and he wants to do it fast and come back to you." She smiled back.

"I would be heading back to my room now, so if you don't mind, please excuse me." I said. "W…wait, what's wrong." She asked as she tried to stop me but I really didn't want to talk to her anymore. I wanted to be alone. The feeling of not speaking to him made my heart race and maybe I was being too irrational. Whatever it was, I didn't mind. All I wanted was to be left alone.

I moved slowly up the stairs, and when I got upstairs I heard a familiar voice "hey, Fiona." I stood for a second and digested the voice - it was Alexander, I felt a mixture of anxiety and surprise as I turned around to look at him.

"Oh…. I didn't know you would be here. What are you doing here?" I asked.

"Oh.. this is where I live, remember?" He said jokingly. And we both laughed.

" I really wasn't expecting to see you again, it seems destiny has more plans for us today." I said as I chuckled.

"Well… maybe, let's have coffee if you don't mind." He said with a charming smile on his face. What was going on with me? Why am I getting these stupid feelings? Was I really tripping for him? I thought, maybe I was but, why would I be tripping for Sebastian's younger brother. I thought to myself as I replied "I would love to." I said and we both walked downstairs to get tea. I looked at Sienna and she gave off a bad vibe but I didn't care. I was so immersed in talking to Alexander that I couldn't even think about anything else. He was so sweet and charming.

" Well… Can I ask you a question if you don't mind?" I asked.

"Well… I'll be pleased to answer your question in the best way I can." He said, maintaining a beautiful smile.

"What is being brothers with Sebastian like?"

" Sebastian," he said and chuckled. "He really is a very nice person, he has a nice heart and he loves the pack. He would do anything to maintain his position and that's what makes him prosperous. Being brothers with him is really complicated and we're more than just brothers. Our connection has more to it and no matter how much I explain you're not going to understand so that's it. The perfect answer to your question." He said, still maintaining that nice enticing smile.

I looked into his face as we sat on the chairs on the deserted corridor at the end of the first building. There were really few workers that moved through there. It was the only quiet place in the whole palace. I loved the spot where I took a sip from my tea. And I blurted out what I turned out to regret: "I love your smile, it's charming." I said.

What was I doing? Why would I say such a thing? I really didn't understand myself anymore. What had come over me, I really didn't know what I was doing but I could feel myself getting attached to Alexander and my thoughts filled with admiration of him. I really wanted to touch him and feel his skin. I didn't understand myself; it was as if his body was casting a spell on me.

I moved closer to him and gave him a kiss on his lips and he kissed me back. I was really going insane but his lips tasted really nice and I wanted to continue I was really confused with my feelings I wanted to withdraw but I couldn't he held me closer and brought me really close it was getting more intense and intimate by the minute and all I wanted was for it to end but I couldn't, I really didn't know why I couldn't. I finally managed to get off him and as I stood up to run towards the main building the sight before me frightened me and I fell to my knees. What have I done? And why have I done it?