Chapter 248 .

Chapter 248 .
Ella's pov.

I'm go happy to be back with Landon and Jordan, I'm so grateful that Jordan is fine after his injuries. Right now I think the three of us just have a strong need to be close to each other.

I do worry how Landon, Jordan, Luka, Cameron, Mason and Thilde will take it when I lost all my control. I pray they won't be scared of me after that.

"Very well, I trust you all will be able to handle this then." Simon said with his stern look and then he looked at me with a sad look.

I think I have scared all them when I showed them my true color. What I'm truly capable of.

I looked down on my lap ashamed and started to nervously play with my fingers.

I felt Jordan pull me more into his chest while Landon kept caressing my legs on his lap.

I could hear the recording started so I lifted my head to look at it but I felt my breath caught in my chest and I looked at the screen with wide eyes and felt how all blood disappeared from my body.

"Simon pause." I heard Jordan say quickly and I felt he started to caress my body trying to calm me down.

"Sis we wanted to tell you about all that when we got home, but because of your injuries we wasn't able to tell you. And we worried if you saw all the injuries before we was finished there you would blow up." I heard Mario said carefully and I heard his voice came closer.

But I was not able to take my eyes away from the screen, taking in all the injuries to our people. How didn't I notice this that night?

"Sis please I beg you breath for me." Mario said and I could hear his voice panicking.

I can see Zane and Kim have been shot. That the bullet have gotten past their clothes means they have been shot repeatedly. I also see so many with other injuries like cuts, some even have stab wounds and so many have bruises.

"Please Ella, breath." Mario begged and I could hear the tears in his voice, I felt his hands one my cheek, wiping of something wet.

How could I lead so many of my people into this battle? How could I let them get this hurt? And I'm to blame for Jordan getting hurt so badly.

I'm a bad sister, a horrible daughter, a terrible girlfriend, and the worst mother for Mason to let all his fathers on a mission like this.

I was so blinded by my rage that I didn't noticed all the loved ones that was hurt on my watch. How could I let this happen?

Suddenly I felt lips on mine, that brought me out of my spireling thoughts. I snapped my eyes to look at who locked lips with me. And I saw it was Sean.

I responded to the kiss and after a few second he pulled away and cuped my face with his hands.

"Good god baby girl, we all got so worried." Sean said with so much worry in his voice and tears in his eyes.

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, I failed you all." I said with a teary voice over and over.

"No Baby, you didn't fail anyone of us. We are all fine and we didn't want to burden you with our injuries while you needed to focus on the task at hand. But we are all fine, and we are all healing." Sean said softly, he kept wiping my cheeks and that's when I noticed I'm crying.

"But I let my guard down, I let so many get hurt. I'm a horrible sister, daughter, girlfriend and mother. I shouldn't have let anyone get hurt. I have failed as the Queen of the underworld." I said and I felt more tears just flow down my cheeks.

"No Baby you are not horrible and you have not failed. You have kept us all safe, and you have made sure our injuries have been minor. You are our Queen and we are all so proud of you." Sean said and he still kept cupping my face.

Just then I felt a sting in my upper arm but Sean kept my face from looking at what it was.

"Please Baby, relax and don't overthink this anymore." Sean said with a warm smile on his face.

He then leaned forward and kissed my forehead and I felt Jordan tighten his protective hold around my waist and pulled me more into his chest.

Landon kept caressing my legs while Sean kept caressing my cheeks.

Shortly after the room started to dim and I fell into a dreamless sleep.

Landon's pov.

When we started to watch recording, both me and Jordan felt how Ella started to worry and for some reason she felt ashamed and sad.

But when Ella first started to talk to the people bowing down on the screen, Ella looked up on the screen and she froze up.

She got crazy pale and tears started to fall rapidly from her eyes. She stopped breathing and she was trembling like crazy.

All the old NA members looked at Ella panick and Jordan told Simon to pause the video.

Mario quickly got up on his feet and hurried over to Ella. Hearing how he was pleading for her to breath honestly broke my heart.

This is what they have been warning us about the entire time, how seeing anyone Ella care about getting hurt or injured, it's truly breaking her heart into a million pieces.

Both me and Jordan could feel how Ella wasn't breathing and nothing we did would make her start breathing.

Her lips even started to turn blue. Seeing her like this is scaring me.

And when Sean gently pushed Mario to the side and smashed his lips on Ella, both me and Jordan could feel how she responded and started to breath.

But it didn't get her out from feeling so heartbroken and panicked. And when we felt how she felt like a failure both me and Jordan felt even more heartbroken.

I noticed Zion stood behind me and Jordan with a syringe in his hands. And when Ella was having her conversation with Sean, Zion carefully pricked her in her upper arm.

We noticed Ella tried to see what happened but Sean wouldn't let her, we also felt how she started to dose off.

And not long after she had fallen asleep, both me and Jordan just kept her close to us. See how her panick made her stop breathing so her lips turned blue scared the shit out of us.

I'm just so grateful that Sean was able to break through before she would have past out from lack of air.

All of us, even the kids look at Ella with such sad and worried looks right now. We just had her wake up and now she needed to be forced back into sleep.

Both me and Jordan moved closer to each other so we both can be as close as possible.