Chapter 99
Cat (Caterina)
When we got to the SUV, Enzo helped me in and sat next to me as soon as the doors closed, he was holding my hand. I was shivering I didn’t know if it was because of all the information, I received tonight or if I was just cold. “Tom put the aircon on hot please, Cat is freezing.” “It’s not necessary Enzo.” He touched my shoulder, “Off course it is.” Then he took of his jacket and put it around me. “You wanne talk about it?” Enzo asked I could see he really wanted to know how I felt about everything but I wasn’t ready I needed time to process this whole conversation, the whole night. “If you don’t mind, can we speak about it tomorrow I’m way to tired now and I need to process.” “Off course angel we can speak whenever you are ready.” I put my head on his shoulder and thought back at the evening, I mean I went into the evening thinking I’m going to have to beg a man to stop a war, a war we thought he started because of his wife and instead I heard he started the war for me, because he wanted to protect me. That was a shock to me and the fact that he still thinks I’m a child and can’t make up my own mind. I’ve never had someone care about me when I was a child or so I thought and here comes Alejandro telling me my father always had an eye on me and that Alejandro himself wanted to raise me, it was all just too much. In the restaurant I could keep my shit together but here in the SUV in the arms of Enzo I can finally loose my shit without worrying.
I started to cry which Enzo obviously notices I think the man even notice when I go to the bathroom. “Hey hey angel why is you crying?” “Things is just not like I thought they would be Enzo, I didn’t think I’ll meet a friend of my fathers tonight, one that wanted to raise me as his own, I didn’t even think Alejandro would be older than you guys. I mean his basically my father’s age. How old is his wife?” “Is that what you worried about?” Enzo smiled. “No, I’m just wondering I thought I’m going to meet a guy basically the same age as you guys, I thought I was going to beg him to stop the war he started because of his wife. Then I have to find out it wasn’t because of his wife but because of me, which means all those men’s life’s is on my hands.” That made me cry even harder, I’m the cause of so much death. “Nonsense angel if it’s on anyone it’s on Alejandro, he shouldn’t have looked at you as a child but as a grown women that can make her own decision.” “I know but we can’t blame him.” “Off course we can, he wasn’t your guardian nor is he your father. He should have come to you and spoke to you about it.” “Would you have let him near me?” I knew the answer to the question but I had to ask because he had to realized that Alejandro is not the enemy in fact his going to be our saviour in all of this, or so I hoped. “Probable not.” Enzo said clearly not happy with his answer. “Then how would he have gotten your attention?” “Yes, okay I hear you angel. But still a war?”
That was the thing that was going through my mind as well, why attack them? Was there really no other way or does he really think I’m not safe with them. When we reached the house Tom said to Enzo “Looks like Pedro is going to stay in his car tonight.” I looked back and saw him park on the street. “When you dropped us just invite him in, please, he can’t sleep in his car and be ready for tomorrow.” “Will do boss.” Tom said as we drove into the estate. I was still mulling over the war and the fact that Alejandro was my father’s friend and the worse of everything was that my father always had an eye on me but so many bad things happened to me. Why didn’t he stop some of the things. Why didn’t he love me enough to give me to someone that would have looked after me then I wouldn’t have had these abandonment issues, trust issues and all the other things that goes through my mind like I’m not good enough for anyone, I mean I get fucking panic attacks for God sake, how didn’t he see that putting me in the system was the biggest mistake of his life. I was quiet the rest of the night, the rest of what was going on in my head was all my father and I wasn’t ready to share that with Enzo. I needed to make sense of it on my own.
We walked to our bedroom in silence; Enzo didn’t push I’m sure he could see I was in my own world. I got undress made sure my dress was neatly hanged in the cupboard, pulled a t-shirt over my head and got into bed. Enzo wasn’t far behind me, when he got into bed he pulled me towards him, holding my back to his front. He pushed my hair out of my neck and whispered in my ear. “I’m here for you angel when ever you want to talk or just vent, I’m here.” “Thank you, Enzo, I really appreciate it.”
Enzo fell asleep but I couldn’t I was starting to get restless in bed I couldn’t get comfortable, so I got up quietly not to wake Enzo and walked to the kitchen. I warmed myself a glass of milk and sat at the kitchen table. So, after I found out tonight my father and Alejandro where friends and that my father asked Alejandro to look after me when he died, I have to go to Marchetti tomorrow to the person that killed my parents the man that wants to kill me, what does any of it help, why keep me alive so long only to send me into the lion’s den tomorrow. Why? Nothing is making sense, nothing that is going on in my head is making sense. I heard a noise but Enzo spoke before I looked up “Angel?”