Chapter 75 WHAT HE MAKES ME FEEL
~ Elara ~
The sidewalks were empty as I walk down, only hearing the sound of my sobs as I push through the light sprinkles of rain and wind.
I don't know where I was going, all I knew was that I couldn't go back to the house. If Mrs.Carmen saw me that would be a whole other problem I didn't want to deal with.
" Lara !" The familiar deep voice sounds in my ear but I ignore it as I keep walking, not wanting anyone to see my face ever again.
I felt disgusting
The sound of his motorcycle pulling up so it's moving next to me causes me to only walk faster.
"Lara , what the fuck is going on?" He says, still driving the motorcycle to the speed of my walking.
When I don't answer the sound of his motorcycle is suddenly gone and I'm being grabbed by the arm as he pulls me towards him.
I immediately cover my face with my arm, trying to hide my teary face. Calvin gently pulls my arm down, looking down at me with a dark look in his eyes as he wipes away my tears with the pad of his thumb.
He was only confusing me more. I couldn't tell if all of this was just an act from him and he'd just ignore me again, or if he actually cared.
" Who made you cry, angel?" He says, holding my face in his hands as he looks down at me, searching my eyes.
Just those words leaving his mouth made me choke up even more as I try holding in more tears daring to leave my eyes.
" I..I don't want to talk about it." I sniffle, not wanting him to see the video, not wanting him to know.
He'll probably think I'm disgusting
He won't believe me if I say I never wanted Roger to touch me.
"Let's get you dried up then." He says, pushing my wet hair behind my ear.
I nod my head slowly, noticing a weird feeling setting in my heart.
I knew he ignored me that day at school, like we had nothing going on, but why did this feel real?
Like he actually cared?
Who was I to even say that. Calvin was arranged with Charlotte, I was being delusional.
"W.wait I can't go in there." I say when he pulls up to the estate.
Calvin looks back at me from his seat on the motorcycle, confused.
" Why?" He asks, pulling the helmet he gave me off of my head and fixing my hair for me.
" Mrs. Carmen will see me in the maids hallway and question why I'm not in school." I mutter, knowing I probably looked crazy from all the tears I'd shed in the past hour.
" You're invited to my room any time, angel." Calvin smirks, causing me to flush red.
He really had no filter
I stand outside of his room hesitantly as Calvin walks in, too nervous to be in a room alone with him.
I slowly step into the room when he goes to his closet, closing the door behind me slowly. My hands clasp together as I stand there by the door, looking around his clean room.
Calvin comes back out with a black hoodie and sweatpants in his hands. " Do you want to shower?" He asks, handing me the clothes.
" All of my shower things are in my bathroom though." I mutter.
" Use mine." He says, causing me to watch him confused. I clear my throat, holding the clothes to my chest as I nod my head and slowly walk towards the bathroom.
I couldn't help but slowly smile to myself when I shut the door in the bathroom, still holding the clothes to my chest.
I shake my head, quickly getting out of my wet clothes as I turn the shower on so the water was steaming hot.
By the time I'm done I completely smelled like Calvin, and on top of that was wearing his clothes that nearly drowned my body. I look at my swollen face in the mirror, sighing before walking out of the bathroom.
I look around, trying to find Calvin but he was nowhere in sight.
My hands reach for my backpack on the ground as I pull my phone out from the front pocket. I turn it on, calling Calvin.
The phone rings but he doesn't pick up.
I chew my lip in contemplation as I look at his comfortable bed. If he wasn't here a quick nap couldn't be too bad.
My head gives in as I walk up to the bed, nearly tripping over the long sweatpants. I get under the covers, getting comfortable before shutting my eyes.
I couldn't lie, sleeping after crying was the best feeling.
I'm not sure how long I slept for, but it wasn't long enough because Calvin had still been gone. I rub my eyes, confused when I hear a notification ringing from my phone.
~Calvin ~
It was a video link
I click the link, my eyes wide when it's Roger, Nathan, Emma, and Jacob lined up with terrified looks in their eyes.
The video was an hour long
I skip through the entire video after realizing they'd been apologizing for an hour straight to me on their knees.
Evans entire face was bloody, he almost looked unrecognizable.
My hands are shaky as I click the call button, nervously biting my nails as I wait for him to answer.
" Calvin?" I ask into the line when he doesn't say anything.
" Lara." He replies, his voice deep. I could hear the sound of his sports car speeding down the roads.
"S.slow down its dangerous." I mutter, shocked when the loud sound actually disappears.
"How did you find out?" I finally say into the phone after mustering up the courage.
"I saw the video."
I play with the hoodie strings as I lay on his bed with the phone up to my ear. For some reason I missed his company, I wanted him back here.
"Thank you." I mutter, wondering why he did that for me.
" When are you coming back?" I say hesitantly, covering my mouth nervously as I wait for him to answer like an idiot.
"Miss me already?" He chuckles lowly, causing my heart to race.
Am I going crazy? I'm going to prom with Wayne , Calvin was in an arranged marriage, and I told myself not to bother with him anymore.
I quickly hang up the phone, jumping out of the bed as I quickly fix the comforter. I run to the door, feeling my stomach drop when the sound of steps near the door reach my ear.
The long sweatpants don't do me any good when i suddenly trip over them, falling into a pair of strong arms.
I swallow my breath as I look up, making eye contact with Calvin who watches me amused.
He easily pulls me back up, looking down at the oversized clothes of his I was wearing.
My heart nearly pounds out of my chest when Calvin shuts the door, locking it behind him.
" W...what are you doing." I stumble out, looking at the locked door then back up to him.
"Don't get any dirty thoughts." He says, suddenly grabbing my arm and pulling it up to his reach as he takes something out of his pocket.
"I wasn't thinking about anything dirty! I was just confused because you locked the doo-" I ramble out, trying to defend myself.
"I know angel, I was just kidding."
I watch in confusion when I see a black bracelet in his hand, similar to mine.
Calvin wraps it around my wrist, not saying a word as he tightens it around me.
" W..why did you get this for me?" I ask, looking up at Calvin.
"I can't be the only one with good luck."
It's silent for a moment as I search his eyes before clearing my throat. " Thank you." I mutter, letting my fingers trace the material of the bracelet. It's only then that I realize the two small letters engraved in white detail on the bracelet.
c.a
"Calvin y...you can't just put your initials on here." I say, my eyes wide as I look up at him.
" Why not?"
" You're in an arranged marriage it's not appropriate."
" You seriously think I'm the one in the marriage mess?" Calvin says, a confused look appearing on my face before realization hits.
"Wayne is getting married?" I say, feeling like I just discovered something I wasn't supposed to know.
But I'm going to prom with him...
Charlotte is going to hate me
"No, not if they don't agree to it after two months." Calvin says as he rolls up the sleeves of the hoodie I was wearing so they didn't completely cover my hands.
I hated that a part of me was relieved it wasn't Calvin.
"But I'm going to prom with Wayne , won't Char-"
" Don't remind me." He grits out.
I feel shivers run down my spine when his hands suddenly move under the hoodie to wrap around my bare waist, pulling me up to his chest.
I freeze when he moves his mouth by my ear, making my heart go crazy.
" Does he make you feel like this, angel?" Calvin utters deeply. I feel my face flush completely red, hoping he hadn't noticed.
His hand slides down from my waist to my lower back when I don't answer, pushing me closer to his body. I gasp at the sudden movement, looking up at him through my lashes.
My heart races at the distance, feeling my body urging me to just give in. I couldn't though, I knew he wouldn't stop until I answered the question.
"That's none of your business." I reply nervously.
A small smirk reaches his face as a low laugh leaves his mouth.
" You're an awful liar, Lara." He says, moving his face so his lips are now barely hovering over my own.
Control yourself
This was wrong. I told Wayne I was going to prom with him, I shouldn't even be here alone with Calvin.
I try to think of an excuse
"Iit's my birthday today." I whisper out, which gets him to pull away as he looks down at me in confusion.
"Today?" He asks. I nod my head, moving so there's more distance between us.
As much as I wanted to be closer to him.
"I think we should go to dinner." I say, watching as Caden raises an eyebrow at me.
" With Wayne too." I add on. Calvin’s jaw clenches at the mention of Wayne . I figured if I forced them to be in a situation together they'd have to end up talking at least once, hopefully.
"No."
" Why not?"
"No."
I sigh, crossing my hands over my chest as I look up at him.
" Please?" I say.
Calvin looks down at me for a moment before grumbling curses under his breath and walking past me.
"Is that a yes?" I smile, turning around as he walks away.
"Only because it's your birthday."