Chapter 71 THE MOMENT I LET HER IN
~ Calvin ~
My eyes glance over to Lara every once in a while during the drive back. She hadn't spoken once, and just sat there looking out of the window.
I felt instant regret, wondering if I went too far.
"Lara." I say, watching as her head snaps towards me.
Her face was red as fuck
"Y..yeah?" She says quietly, looking anywhere but my face.
" If you ever feel uncomfortable, just tell me to stop." I utter, watching as her head tilts to the side.
" You don't make me uncomfortable." She mutters. I clear my throat, turning my head back towards the road when I catch myself looking down at her swollen fucking lips.
I shift in my seat, trying to ignore my dick as my head replays her voice telling me to keep touching her.
" Fuck." I mumble under my breath when my head starts imagining other things.
By the time we arrived at the house all the guests were gone.
I walk behind Lara as she goes towards the front door, trying to avoid my eyes from moving to her ass.
I failed
Before Lara opens the door someone else pushes it open, causing her to stumble back into me.
I move my hand around her waist to steady her, trying to control my fucking thoughts.
"Calvin’s , your back." My mom suddenly sighs out in relief. I quickly unwrap my hand on Lara’s waist, moving so there's more distance between us.
Her eyes glance over to Lara curiously, before looking back at me.
"Oh, were you guys together?" She asks, a hopeful look in her eyes.
"No." I reply before Lara says anything.
I didn't want anyone thinking we had some relationship.
Lara looks up at me confused before quickly turning back towards my mom. "
I... I'll leave now." She mumbles before walking away.
"Your not being mean to her are you?" My mom sighs as she watches Lara walk away.
"I don't talk to her." I mumble, walking towards my room.
"What happened earlier with your old tutor?" She asks suddenly, following behind me.
"Nothing."
I hated looking into my moms eyes. She never gave up on me, but I still acted so cold towards her.
I thought if no one knew, if I never talked about it, it would just leave my head. Like it never happened.
If anyone knew, it would only made my nightmares reality.
Who the fuck would want that
" Your dad was there, he said you looked off. I know you barely talk to me, but even I know you would never just hit a woman."
She says, moving in front of me while grabbing my hand.
" You can tell me anything, I just want to help you." She sighs.
"There's nothing to tell you." I scowl, pushing my hand out of her grip.
" You know I'll never stop do you?" She suddenly sobs. I look down at her, hating that I was hurting her like this.
"I just want my baby boy back." She cries silently. I clench my jaw, turning my head away from her.
"I'm going to bed." I mutter before walking past her.
I couldn't sleep.
I knew closing my eyes would bring back images I didn't want to remember. This time though, even with my eyes open, everything replayed in my head at once.
"You’re very good looking for someone so young."
"Don't worry, it doesn't hurt. All boys do this it's normal."
"Stop crying, men don't cry!"
"Don't tell your parents, let's keep this a secret just between us."
"Men are supposed to enjoy this, stop screaming!"
I run a frustrated hand through my hair while sitting up.
My eyes move to the yellow bracelet Lara had given me for my birthday.
I knew I had feelings for her, it wasn't hard to believe anymore. I just didn't want to admit it.
I didn't want to admit the control she had over me.
Fuck, she probably doesn't even know how bad it'd gotten.
I open my phone, going to the screenshot I took of her Instagram profile picture.
I stop, turning my phone off when I catch myself smiling at the fucking picture.