Arielyn
Friday night, time, ten fifty and that man wasn't back yet when he told me he would be back for Rose's wedding, the wedding was by morning and I was currently at Rose's house as we decided to spend the night together so that I can help her get ready for the ceremony, I kept checking my phone to see if he called but not a missed call, not just that, all week, I tried calling him but he never took my calls neither did he return them, it was starting to look like I was desperate for his attention so I decided not to call him again on the fifth day of him not picking his calls.
"Why are you frowning? Is it because your man is not back yet?"
Rose asked. I tried to mask my sadness but it was so hard to do when we had an agreement and he broke it, he told me that he would be back but he hasn't answered my call since and now he wasn't back, I was both worried and mad at him, he should have at least sent a text if he was so busy with whatever took him to Dilgem, this radio silence wasn't it at all. I was worried, angry, and feeling lonely. How did I meet my second chance mate and when I was supposed to be happy with him, he disappeared. I wanted him back and wanted him so much.
"Arielyn, no, I won't have you looking so sad, baby, you know you can talk to me, always,"
Rose said and I felt even worse for not being able to hide my sadness from her.
"I am sorry, I am trying to cheer you up so that I will not ruin your wedding eve but he hasn't been taking my calls and now he is not back yet,"
I lamented
"I understand you and trust me, you are not ruining anything, you are allowed to be pissed and also worried when you person you love isn't around you,"
Rose responded, I still felt guilty, tonight and tomorrow weren't about me and should not be about me in any way, I can always worry and be mad at Kendrix once Rose's wedding is over, I might not even have to because he might be back before then.
"I should be focused on you, my love, you are getting married bestie, it is really happening,"
I let out in excitement, cheering up for her, even though she doesn't have a problem with me being moody.
"Yes, I am so happy and nervous too but you don't get to change the topic missy, we are talking about you and we are going to talk about you, if you need some ass-whooping partner, you know you always got me, right? I am willing to dump Jayden and go fight that man for you, he has no right to make you feel unhappy,"
Rose said which made me smile, I know she meant what she said, except for the part where she said she would dump her man, she will never do that but the thought matters too.
"You can't even fight, plus you are pregnant, Jayden will wipe out my whole generation if he finds out you chose me over him."
I scolded.
"He knows you come first, I love him but my best friend is my number one, you are my number one Ariel, you have been with me throughout my life and I don't know a life where you were not there even when we couldn't see each other often, I don't think anyone can take your place,"
I believed everything she was saying because it was the same for me too, Rose was number one for me too, she was the only constant in my life until Ken and now I hope Ken would be one too.
"You know I feel the same and I won't put anyone above you, I love you, bestie and I am so happy for you,"
I said and she smiled.
"So? What do we do about your man?"
She asked, it was like she was determined to get me to talk about what was bothering me concerning Ken and even though I told myself that I wouldn't stress her with it, I still found myself telling her about what Jordan had told me that had been on my mind since he said it.
"The day Ken left, his brother, namely, my former mate who fucking rejected me called and told me some shits that I didn't give much thought to until Ken stopped calling or even trying to contact me,"
I explained to her.
"What kind of bullshits did that fucker tell you and why are you letting his words get to you?"
She asked and I told her everything that Jordan had said about Ken having another woman who was the love of his life.
"Ari, you know better than to let that man fool you, I am sure he is just busy, not trying to make this about myself but there have been times in the past when Jayden would be so busy he wouldn't have time to call or take my calls, of course, I wasn't understanding back then too but we sorted things out and now I know better than to have negative thoughts,"
Her words, maybe because this was my first romantic relationship and I didn't know what to expect.
"I know what you are thinking Ariel, and I can tell you that it is not just you, that's how relationships work, you aren't always going to get it right but as long as you don't let yourself be fooled, I am sure everything will work out fine. Kendrix seems to care about you a lot, don't let that fucker who can't even decide his life fool you with his words, Ken doesn't seem like the kind of guy who would two times,"
She assured. It was what I already thought but I just didn't have a lot of resolve as his silence fueled my already scattered thoughts. I smiled at her.
"Thank you for the advice my love, I promise not to let anyone make a fool of me,"
I promised.
"Good, now, if Ken decides to be a jerk, there are a million ways to kill a man in a slow painful way and we have a lot of options to choose from,"
I knew she didn't mean the words but the way she said them made me kind of fear for Ken.
"I don't want to kill him,"
I said.
"Well, let's hope he doesn't do anything that would make him deserve a slow painful death,"
Rose warned again and for the first time since Ken left, I laughed out loud. It was always fun talking to Rose because she always found a way to make me laugh.
"I want my bridesmaid smiling tomorrow, please don't let some loser make you sad, okay?"
I knew she was referring to Jordan and nodded.
"Thanks, I will surely be smiling, I mean, you are getting married and I am here with you, that's something I didn't know would happen, I am going to be here with you, watch you walk down the aisle, I am so proud of you,"
I told her as I went over to hug her.
"I am proud of you too, do you know how proud I was to tell everyone that my best friend is graduating med school, since that day, I have wanted to make you proud too, Ari, you don't know how much,"
She said, getting emotional.
"Ewww, baby, I am always proud of you,"
I told her while patting her back softly. We stayed like that for a while until her mom called for her. I tried to cheer myself up after my conversation with Rose ended, her mom called her so that they could sleep together so it was just me in her room, her bed was comfy and all but I just couldn't fall asleep no matter how hard I tried; even though Rose told me not to let what Jordan told me to cause any doubt in my heart about Ken and his intentions towards me, it was hard especially now that he refused to take my calls or call me back, it was hard for me not to think about what Jordan had said and I even went as far as picturing Ken returning back and telling me that he doesn't want me anymore, if he rejects me too, it might be too hard for me to take in because this time, I really love him even before I found out he was my second chance mate, I already loved him so much, so if anything happens I will be more heartbroken than I have ever been.
"I hope not,"
I whispered and forced myself to get some sleep. I opened my eyes when my alarm went off, I set the alarm because I didn't want to oversleep. I got out of bed and quickly took a shower and brushed my teeth before I went to Rose's parents' room to get her. I met her in bed with her parents, she was tucked between the two of them, and for a moment, I just stood there, feeling jealous of her close relationship with her parents, they were so close that she could spend the night between them even though she was going to be a mom too soon. That's something I never had and will never have, not only did my birth separate my parents and break my family, but it meant that I couldn't get this kind of feeling. I didn't know what it was like to have my mother and both of my parents around, my dad was only trying to make amends now. I never had a parental love experience, it must be nice to be loved by the two people that brought her to the world. I shook away the jealous feeling and knocked gently to wake them up.