Rejection

She stood in the hallway; he removed her trembling hand from his bulge. The air was heavy with the scent of old wood from the ship. He just said no, that’s it…just the word no. She was sure he wanted to finish what they started in her bedroom. She could tell he enjoyed tasting her skin and the kiss. Her skills were quite good, and she was proud of them. She had a lot of practice in her former life with Ragner. He was very dominating and only cared what pleased him so she learned quickly, or he would hit her, of course where no one else would see the bruises. Alexander gave her signs that he wanted her. Didn’t he? Did she misread everything?

Greta decided she needed to manipulate Alexander, maybe pretend to be frightened into tears might work. Suddenly she let out a gut-wrenching cry that pierced his ears. Squinting his eyes at the sudden high pitch of her cry, he tilted his head away trying to get his ears farther away from her so they would stop hurting. Noticing his reaction, she lowered her crying to a heavy sobbing. Squeezing out fake tears that ran down her cheeks. Trying to make her fake acting of being frightening seem real. Putting her hands over her face to help hide any deceit, her shoulders rose and fell as she sobbed.

Alexander saw how distraught she was and quickly apologized. “I didn’t want to hurt your feelings, but. please don’t scream like that, my ears are hurting.” He thought Greta might be confusing gratitude with love and truly like him, so there was no need for such actions. He just had to explain and make her understand.

“Greta, I am so sorry. If I accidentally made you think there was anything other than gratitude, I’m greatly sorry. I did enjoy…..the moment we just had. But there are no feelings on my part toward you.” Hoping he didn’t sound too harsh with his words. Alexander was never good at explaining his feelings towards women.

“Honestly, I don’t think I am capable of loving again, I’m sorry.” He said softly to her wanting her to understand. “I have a past, a past that I can’t forget, and I don’t expect you to understand, but this can’t happen between us.” Gripping his hands behind his back he was trying to show an air of coldness towards her, but it was kind of hard when she was crying and looked beautiful at the same time. Simon kept wanting him to reach out to her, giving her comfort because she was crying but Alexander didn’t trust her fully. He had a slight feeling that maybe her actions were not true.

This is all your fault Simon! I should block you forever. Alexander yelled at Simon silently through his mind. He knew Simon would do something like this if he had the opportunity. He didn’t care what Alexander wanted Simon never gave up the opportunity for sex with any beautiful woman. Alexander had to fight most of the time so Simon wouldn’t take control. Which is hard when Simon is very strong.

Simon stayed silent, letting Alexander handle the mess he made with Greta.

Greta suddenly hoped her deceit wouldn’t shatter the trust that she thought was built between them. Damn, step it up girl before he walks out again.

With a newfound determination she sank to her knees looking shattered and hollow. Trying to bare her manipulating soul to him “But….B….but I love you Alexander.” Crying somewhat harder after her confession. “I do, I love you.”

He bent down, grabbing her shoulder’s and pulled her into a standing position. Placing his hand under her chin, “You’re just confused.”

“No, I’m not, I have loved you for a long time Alexander.” She wiped the tears off her cheeks with the back of her hand.

Alexander listened to her, confronted with the feeling that something was amiss. Was she betraying him? He was just starting to trust her and now she is saying she loved him.

Stepping closer to him, Alexander was backed up to a wall, he couldn’t move farther away from her. She reached once more and placed her hands on his chest. Wanting him to feel safe she kept arm’s lengths between them. “I’m confessing my deepest feeling for you, my love.” Fake tears started to flow down her face again.

“I’m not your love Greta.” Taking her hands he removed them, blushing at the words of endearment she used. Trying to shut out her attempts to seduce him, he looked away towards the small window that still cast a glow on her hair.

“Alexander please, just touch me. I need you to touch me.” Knowing she needed him to touch her not just physically but emotionally if she was to make him fall in love with her. Greta learned to be resilient, and she didn’t surrender very easily. “I can make you so happy Alexander, let me try. I know you enjoyed me earlier and I can make you enjoy me even more. Just give me the opportunity.” Tears still dripping from her rose colored cheeks. She reached up and took the v neck of her top, pulling it down. Showing him her ample breasts, her nipples were pointed from him pinching them.

He looked at her breasts with wide eyes, Simon was starting to come forward, but Alexander pushed him back. She had perfect breasts Alexander thought. She took one of her small hands and placed her fingers around her nipple, squeezing it the way Alexander had done.

It took all his strength to look away from her. “Pull up your blouse Greta. …..now.” His voice cracked when he gave her the order. She had that painful look of being rejected after making a bold move like she did.

“Okay.” All she could say was okay, she was hurt by him. Feeling like she failed at getting him in her bed.