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POV Igor Durand

I hurriedly entered the room where Becca was and ran to her body lying on the bed, I got closer and felt the tears running down my face... Damn! You can't imagine how much it hurts right now, it wasn't easy to make the decision I made, she had no right to promise something so difficult...

I hold her cold hand and leave a measly little seal there, only my sobs surrounding the entire room, I have never cried in my life... Not even when my sister died I cried, I was strong and kept my emotions neutralized, but now, Becca has completely changed everything of cold that lived in me...

“I love you so much, my queen” I whisper, laying my head on your belly “Forgive me, love... It hurts so much, why is all this happening? Since we got together, we haven't had peace, there's always been an obstacle in our paths... I'll take revenge on them all, one by one, I'll move the fucking world if I need to, but they'll get what they deserve, even if the torture for day and night, it won't be enough... They caused a lot of pain and suffering, especially in my girl, and now it has caused an even deeper pain in me, where no medicine can heal this pain in my chest...

“You followed your heart, friend” I hear Oliver say softly as he approaches the bed”

“She may not forgive me, because I didn't do what I promised” I sigh without looking away from her “I couldn't, because I can't, much less I would bear being without her... It was painful to make the decision I made, as soon as the doctor left to save our daughter, I couldn't bear it and I went after it, changing my decision... I needed her and to imagine without her by my side, there was no point, my wife could hate me for not doing what she asked me to do. , but I was weak...I loved our daughter so much, you have no idea how much it hurts to know that she won't be with us and that it was my fault, it's a consequence of my decision...Alejandro didn't react to my change of decision, even though deep down I knew he wanted to save his daughter...The girls were devastated at the reception, being supported by Oliver and Peter, except now that my friend came here into the room...

Becca was sleeping at the moment, but the doctor said that her life was not at such a risk, but her condition was still serious... I sigh sadly, wanting her to wake up soon so that I can see those caramel eyes again, hear her soft voice and that smile that leaves me surrendered...The doctor said that she could wake up at any time and that she would recover little by little, as her body suffered some injuries due to the accident...I feel something move next to me and I turn quickly seeing my wife waking up little by little... I run to her holding her hand, feeling my heart beat wildly as I see her waking up after more than 24 hours of distress...

“a..water,” asks in a whisper with a weak voice”

“calm down” love, I need to call the doctor,” I say nervously heading towards the door in a hurry” She woke up, call the doctor” I shout to my best friend who was nearby and he nodded” I go back to the room in a hurry and hold her hand affectionately, her face is pale and with a bandage on her forehead...The doctor soon enters the room, heading towards my wife, and starts checking her heartbeat, and all the necessary procedures to make sure she is ok...She seemed a little lost, perhaps due to the blow, your consciousness is not yet 100%, it is slowly rationing...

“the patient does not appear to be having any problems at the moment, but we will be monitoring her closely and making sure that she recovers as quickly as possible,” the doctor says seriously, looking at the monitor”

“What about my pregnancy?” I hear her whisper in warning, staring at us” I swallow tensely and despair runs through my entire body, that question, oh that question, what would I say to her? That I sacrificed our daughter because I couldn't bear to be without her by my side?

“I’ll leave you alone,” the doctor said with a weak smile and left”

"What happened, love? Our daughter...” she looks at me, starting to feel distressed.”

“Daughter, calm down, you just woke up after a serious accident and you need to be calm,” My father-in-law says a little nervously”

“We were so scared of losing you, my little princess,” Emília says tearfully, hugging her daughter carefully because of the injury “It was my fault, I didn’t protect you...

“and..I’m a fine mom” Becca said in a hoarse and weak voice “My daughter..” put her hand on her belly and frowned when she noticed the volume that no longer existed there”

“love...” my voice breaks as I start to tell her what happened” Our daughter... the accident was very serious and there was very intense bleeding, the doctor had to deliver the baby urgently, but you ended up suffering eclampsia..." I swallow, feeling the air escape from my lungs" We had to make a very difficult decision, the doctor would do everything possible to save just one life...

“no... no” she denies it several times and tears run down her face in despair “I asked to save her... why didn't they do that?

“Daughter, please” Alejandro murmurs with a broken voice full of distress “We couldn’t bear to lose you again, we know how much this pain you both are feeling hurts, but it was the hardest decision we could make… Your sob It's audible and it breaks my heart to hear that sound coming from your lips, the pain hurts and will always hurt when you remember that moment...Alejandro looked at me in silence and just waved lightly before leaving the room with his wife leaving us alone, just me and her...

“Forgive me, my queen, I failed you and I didn’t keep my promise” I begin, feeling my voice crack with painful regret as I say “I loved our daughter and I always will, we were very excited about the pregnancy, but so am I I love you, life, you became my fucking world, I couldn't bear to lose you, you can call me a monster and selfish, but I'm dependent on you... I couldn't... I feel the tears roll down my face and I I allow myself to cry in front of her, which has never happened in my entire life, but she is different, she is my wife and the woman I am completely in love with...

Becca has become not just an obsession, but my only true love, I have created a dependency on her that I can't stand the idea of ​​being without her in my life, it's as if there is no point in living anymore... I lift my face and I face her for the first time since her parents left, her face remains emotionless and the tears roll freely down her cheeks that were red from crying, as well as her eyes... She looks at me for a few seconds and lowers her head. head, making me even more tense, she remains silent, because she doesn't hit me, shout at me, curse me, or do anything but say something...

“love... please say something” I beg in a crying voice”

“I... I don't know what to say” he whispers as he looks at me and beckons me to come closer. “Within seconds I'm at his side, I intertwined our hands and left a simple kiss on them, keeping our eyes connected. ..

“I love you so much, my queen” I declare with a broken voice and my fingers caress her face” With a little difficulty she adjusts herself on the bed, trying to stay sitting, and leans in to hug me, her soft cry breaks me...

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POV Becca Moreau

When I woke up and saw Igor next to me, I was a little confused, I remember being at my parents' house, the message from my husband, and some car crashing into mine... I looked around and realized I was in the hospital, I felt my mouth dry, so I asked Igor for water, who was completely disconcerted... My husband called the doctor and he immediately asked me some questions and examined me, I hadn't broken anything, but I had some injuries to my body... By instinct, I put my hand on my stomach and I despaired when I realized that there wasn't the volume there before, I needed to know about my daughter... I noticed the tension in Igor's and my parents' eyes, no, I didn't want to believe in that possibility, it couldn't be true ...When Igor and my father commented on what happened and the decision about what happened, I became desperate and the pain I felt was terrifying...Not my daughter, I lost her, not being able to protect her, I should have thought with calmer before I left my parents' house like that... The tears were flowing freely down my face, the pain was agonizing, I can't believe they did that, they didn't respect my decision, the right thing was to have saved my daughter...They promised me that they would do what I asked them months ago, Igor had promised me, I know it's a difficult decision but they should have respected what I asked...My parents left the two of us alone and I realized how much Igor looked desperate, his face showed distress and pain... I know how much he loves me, he has shown in many ways how important I am to him, but I can't bear the idea that he dared to give up on our daughter... ....

“my little one...” a painful sob leaves my lips along with the tears that flow freely down my cheeks” I look at the lifeless baby in my lap and I feel as if I had stuck a knife in my heart, and every second that passes, stabs that wound more and more... I needed to see my daughter, even if she was lifeless and premature, so I asked my father to bring her to me... I see her delicate and lifeless face, her skin as dry and white as snow, I cried silently praying and begging him to make any move, hearing a cry that was my baby's... Igor was on my left side watching us, his face carrying the sadness and pain of seeing me in that state and also for our daughter...

“she was so beautiful, Mom” I cry softly, my fingers playing with the baby’s cold little hand”

“yes, my love,” my mother says in a broken voice and kisses my forehead, caressing my face “I feel your pain, dear, I went through this situation and it was the worst pain I felt...

“it hurts so much Mom, I don’t know how to bear it” I finally say completely tired”

“the pain will never go away but it eases, daughter, it will always be with you, in your heart, and the memories will be kept” Emília whispers hugging me from the side with tears in her eyes” I hear the door being opened and I refuse to look to the side, because I know they will want to take my daughter away from me, I don't want them to take her away... My heart bleeds and my chest tightens more, I will never see her again, it's a goodbye and I can't accept it ...

“Don’t let them take my daughter from me, please” I beg through tears, squeezing her lifeless little body in my lap”

“dear....” Igor approaches with his face contorted in pain and distress” It hurts me too, you may not believe it, but it broke my heart as if it took away a part of me...,” he whispers into my neck as he presses me against his body, I feel my shoulder getting wet” I will never forgive myself for this, I will always carry this guilt no matter how painful it is...

“We needed to take the child to organize all the procedures for the wake,” a nurse said cautiously “I feel my daughter being ripped from my arms and my crying increases, the pain is deep, as if my greatest possession was being ripped away, and it was ripped away, forever...My daughter, my eternal little angel...Igor hugs me trying to console me and no matter how hard he tries, he won't ease this pain, it's not possible to bring my daughter back...