55

Day had turned into night now, and I was still sitting quietly in my room alone. I thought, there are still quite a few things I need to prepare before actually taking Harrison to war. I mean, there was no way I could kill the women, children, and the elderly in The Silver Moon Pack. I did want to avenge all the things that had happened to me, and my entire family to Harrison, and his pack. But not by blindly killing those who are innocent, and not interfering with the heinous deeds Harrison committed one year ago.

This is still a dilemma in my own mind. And I still find it quite difficult to come up with the right answer. Although, of course, I know which answer I should choose now. It's just that I want to make sure and also think about all those things much more deeply now. I don't want to be too rash by making the wrong decisions and answers later. I don't want to regret the decision and the answer that I get.

Tightly, I grasped my family's heirloom gem in the palm of my right hand. This heirloom gem was already with me now. However, it was still set in the same bezel that Harrison had used to give to Felicity as their engagement ring that day. I did not like that at all. I don't want my family's, my own, and The Crescent Moon Pack's heirloom jewels to be embedded in Harrison's ring frame anymore.

Moreover, that ring frame had also been used by Felicity. The more I thought and recalled about the engagement between the two of them that day, the more annoyed I immediately felt, and the more I gripped the ring tightly in my right palm now. I let out a slow breath, while closing my eyelids, in order to calm myself down.

"Looks like I'll have to make my own ring frame for this heirloom gem now. I won't want to use Felicity's old ring frame. That would feel really disgusting. After all, this heirloom jewel belongs to me, and also to my family. Only I have the right to the ownership of this heirloom gem."

I muttered as I began to look back right at this heirloom gem inside my right palm right now. I raised my left hand to gently massage my forehead which felt a little dizzy now.

"Can magic make a ring frame too?"

I think I've been using too much magic power lately to carry out the plans that I've always done. Even so, Emrys and Josiah have even helped me a lot by restoring all my energy and also all the magic power I have, so that I don't get tired, and also sick. Just like what Elijah had said earlier. Considering Elijah, since earlier when we were all back at The Bloodlust Moon Pack, and decided to rest respectively, I haven't seen Elijah enter this room even once.

I mean, if Elijah was indeed resting, why didn't he come inside the room? Either maybe to take a shower, change clothes, or even sleep. Given that it was already nighttime, sleepiness was bound to come, right? Then why did Elijah seem to leave me alone here?

"Wait a minute. Why do I even feel this way about Elijah? No, I don't. I don't. This isn't right at all. I can't and shouldn't continue to let these feelings grow and turn into something so big. I feel very anxious, with all the things that are happening now, and also about all the possibilities that will happen later. How is it, then, that I'm allowing myself to feel such mind-numbing feelings for Elijah? Why did I feel all those things after what Elijah and I did back then? Whereas before, I had never felt this way about Elijah at all. Oh my, Moon Goddess..."

I lowered my head quickly, while closing both my eyelids very tightly now. Then after catching my breath a few times there, in order to calm down even more, I began to shake my head a few times in slow motion. I did that, to be able to immediately eliminate all sorts of disturbing thoughts inside my head right now. I wanted to be much more focused on my revenge mission against Harrison now.

I was already halfway through my revenge mission against all of them now. Sooner or later, the war between me and Harrison will definitely happen. And the plan that I will formulate together with Elijah, Emrys, Josiah, and perhaps the great witch, must be prepared and thought out very well. There must not be the slightest problem.

But now, the first thing I have to do is to replace the ring frame attached to this heirloom jewel by using a new ring frame. Only, I'm not too sure if I can make a new ring frame using the magic power I have right now. Because basically, I didn't know the right way to make the ring frame with magic power.

I slowly stood up, put the heirloom gem into my pants pocket, and walked over to the wardrobe. I thought, I might find an unused necklace chain that I could use temporarily, as a replacement for the current bezel. But the result was nil. I didn't find any accessories in the wardrobe at all right now.

"But, if you think about it.... why does Elijah have so many accessories, right? And again, all this time, Elijah has only bought me accessories. But I rarely wear them, because they're expensive. I'd better ask Elijah now. Who knows, he might have a small chain to tie this heirloom gem to temporarily. Before I buy a new ring frame later. For now, I don't think I can go to the human world until my and Harrison's problems are resolved. Once the war is over, I might be able to live with much more peace of mind."

Quickly, I walked towards the door of the room, and exited from there. Down the stairs, and found the grand witch and her family resting in the living room. A few warriors were keeping watch in the inner and outer parts of The Bloodlust Moon Pack right now. I smiled, seeing how peaceful they all were now. And I really hope that nothing will change about The Bloodlust Moon Pack in the future, even if there is a war.

But, I immediately frowned, when I realized the absence of Elijah, Emrys, and Josiah in the pack now. I looked in all directions, and sure enough, the three of them were not inside The Bloodlust Moon Pack right now. I walked towards the kitchen, and the result was the same, they weren't there.

"Lucia, are you looking for Elijah?"

Asked the grand wizard with his slow tone of voice there. I turned around and looked at the grand wizard and his family who were also looking at me now. Slowly, I immediately nodded my head now, as a short answer I gave them.

"Yes, I'm looking for Elijah, Emrys, and also Josiah. Do you see where the three of them are now?"

I asked slowly, as I walked a little closer to where the grand witch and her family were right now.

"The three of them are in the backyard. They seem to be discussing something important."

"Oh, I see... then, I have to go there now. Thank you..." I muttered to answer the grand wizard's words now.

Before in the end, I walked towards the backyard of The Bloodlust Moon Pack with my fairly fast footsteps. For some reason, I felt very excited to meet Elijah again now. It really did make myself feel very strange. And again, without myself realizing it, I really liked the feelings I was feeling for Elijah. Although, I didn't want to openly admit those feelings to myself. Because I was embarrassed.

"Have you decided about when you will tell Lucia the truth, Elijah?"

The voice of Emrys, who was muttering in the backyard, instantly made my footsteps turn into slow steps. My forehead even began to wrinkle slightly with a very curious feeling now. Moreover, Emrys had mentioned my name when I wasn't among them, in the midst of the three of them talking there. And again, what truth was Elijah trying to tell. Was there something he was hiding from me?

"I want to tell you all the truth as quickly as possible, Emrys, Josiah. However, I feel very sure that Lucia will not easily accept it in her own mind and heart. Besides, Lucia must be very focused on planning her next revenge mission against Harrison. Lucia will prepare and start a war with Harrison and the rest of The Silver Moon Pack. I certainly can't say that at a time like this."

I decided to stop walking, and hid myself between the Bloodlust Moon Pack's poles for now. I wondered what Elijah, Emrys, and Josiah were talking about now. And the truth about what? And also, why did Elijah sound like a very worried person?

What was the truth that Elijah, The Lycan King, had to delay telling me about all that, just because I was focused on preparing for the revenge mission and war right now.

"You have delayed all this for over a year, Elijah. Aren't you at all afraid and worried about what Lucia might think? You are hiding a very big secret in Lucia's life right now. And if you had told her about it too late, don't you think Lucia would have been very angry and disappointed, Elijah?"

Now it was Josiah's turn to speak, about the secret truth that Elijah had hidden from me. And what did Josiah say? That the truth had something to do with my present life? What is it?

"I know what you two are trying to do. I understand completely. You're both worried about me and Lucia. But the truth is still quite difficult for me to tell Lucia directly. I was worried about what she would do and say after knowing the truth from my own mouth. I was never good at lying, but I knew how to keep the truth to myself for a year. And I was sure that I would find the right time to tell Lucia the truth. And I don't think now is the right time. I had to wait for Lucia to get her revenge. After that, I can tell the truth with a sense of relief."

Really, I couldn't stand Elijah, Emrys, and Josiah talking about the secret right now. I wanted to know what truth they were all hiding from me. And whether the truth would be painful or not, I had to know about it now. Quickly, I walked over to the three of them who still had their backs to me.

"What truth are you guys talking about since earlier? Why does it have anything to do with my current life? And again, Elijah... what truth are you hiding, that you are so worried about my reaction? Why aren't the three of you saying anything about the truth... that you've been hiding from me for over a year? If that truth has anything to do with my life, then say it now. No more lies and secrets from me."

I looked at Elijah, Emrys, and also Josiah who turned their bodies simultaneously and immediately fell silent, having been surprised by my presence near them, suddenly now. I could see very clearly, how tense Elijah was in front of me now. It was very unlikely for Elijah to show me. But that was the fact. Elijah looks worried.

"Lucia... the secret is actually..."

Elijah took a few steps closer to me. Then after that, Elijah fell silent again, and was seen sighing slowly there. I don't know what secret could make Elijah so very hesitant and worried right now. And then, Elijah looked back at me with a serious expression on his face.

"Lucia, actually, you are my mate. You are my mate, Luciana."