Am I a worthless person? Gen Bernard looks at her confused. Just maybe, I am a stupid fellow that got blinded by what I see, not everything surrounding it, so carried away with the cover of a book without, bothering to peel inside, such a stupid being that trusts everyone, forgetting that Humans are born betrayal. Did you know those two were my best friends, yet they betrayed me, they treated me like I am nothing but trash, for tears, they fooled me, made me believe that they love me genuinely, yet they have no single iota of love for me.
Betrayal from someone you don't care about is not as painful, as from someone, you thought will never hurt you, for years, I could tell myself that, Xander can't hurt me, he will not think of doing anything bad to me, even if he was not dating me, that is how much I fooled myself.
Everyone is right, Father, Jessica, all of them, call me gullible, yes, I am one gullible fool that got pleased with just what seems good to my eyes.
This time, she can't hold it anymore, she let her tears flow, it felt like all the pains that she had been keeping inside for this past year, came rushing to her, how she saw those two talking about her and how they are going to used her, she found herself crying not because of Jessica but because of Xander, Xander was like her brother, her best friend, the one that had protected her all through her childhood, the one that, had made her feel that she is not the only child of the prime minister, Xander was always there for her, she was Xander's princess, even though, she was no longer in love with him in a romantic way, the boy's space in her heart, is still there and will never be replaced with someone else. A brother that she never had.
Gen Bernard had no idea, of what to do, he just stared and watch her cry out her eyes, she fall her face on her palm, and after sobbing for long, she raised her eyes only to see Bernard staring at her.
Sorry, I didn't mean to act like a child, I know, it's bad for a soldier to cry, like a baby.
Here! Gen Bernard stretch out the handkerchief to her, she grabbed then wipe her face, then sniff hard.
I am...
It's fine, and whoever told you soldiers don't cry, must have told you the biggest lie of the century, when my dad died, I was already in the military camp for training but not yet a soldier, he was my best friend, my brother, and everything in-between, that morning he had called, and said that, he was going on a business trip, and that, he is meeting with some business association, but that was the last time, I heard from him, the last time, I heard his voice, because in the evening he was no more, he was killed heartlessly by some beast in human form, beast that, feel nothing for their fellow human when I heard the news, I run out of the camp and the one thing I wanted to do, was to join him wherever he must have gone, the world of the dead, is not a bad idea.
Wait, Mr. Edgar is not your father? Alexia asked he shakes his head, and she look at him surprisingly.
He is the man that got married to my mother, after my father died, for days, I cried and refuse to eat anything, because I was mad at the world and everything that this life got to offer, I hated life and always wish that, every war could be the last of me.
He too falls into sobbing, the pain of losing his father didn't stop haunting him, he should have done better, he should have been able to get the person that, ended his father's life and bring justice to him, yet, he failed, to him, he is a good for nothing son, for years, he had tried to get the culprit to book but that didn't come to pass, which make him feel hopeless and worthless at the same time for years.
Is it that, I have infected you with my sobbing spirit? Alexia asked he was forced to burst into laughter in midst of his tears, Alexia stretch out the handkerchief to him, and he grabbed then wiped it and laughed as Alexia stared at him with her puppy eyes.
Sorry, I couldn't hold it, I just felt bad, that, I couldn't bring justice to my dad.
You should not feel that way. She places her hand on his. Although I have never told anyone the reason, I join the military, the truth is, I wanted justice for my cousin, I want to look for her, I want to bring anyone that, hurt her to book, but till I can't find her, I am not going to give up, so you too, you don't have to give up, you need to keep fighting till you get justice for him and I believe you will get it right.
Thanks and you will get it right as well. Alexia face palm herself, Bernard is cool, she doesn't know the man had such a hard time coming to terms with the fact that he lost his dad and he couldn't do anything to those assassins that have made him fatherless, their situation is similar, they would make a perfect husband and wife, but the truth is, Alexia can't love another.
It's getting late, I think I should bring you back home.
No, let's go to that ice cream corner, I like it, I have tasted it just once and I kind of like it.
I thought you wanted to go home, as soon as possible, are you beginning to like me because I am pitiful?
Silly, if I don't like you as my friend, did you think I would have laughed with you at the camp, even if know you are the Gen. I will still ignore you, like a plague, and the only thing, you will do is punish your stubborn subordinate.
Gen Bernard laughed at Alexia's words, he can't believe that this girl is not just beautiful but good company to keep, with her, you barely have any dull moment, when she lick the ice cream, she makes a sweet sound when she is done with hers, she volunteered to take Bernard's own when Bernard protest, she will pinch him, making him give up and just let her have it, going back to the car, she had jumped on his back, she is a complicated girl, with all this act of hers, one will think that she had already fallen for him.
Here we are. He said after their long night, she smiled, and get down from the car.
Thank you very much, we will see at the camp tomorrow.
Yes, tomorrow. She wave at him, then hummed toward the gate of the mansion, she wasn't expecting anyone to be there, as soon as she wave goodbye to him, then turned to pull the gate
Did you enjoy your date? The voice came from behind